Clarifying Channel Purpose and Personal Motivation

Speaker is driving in his vehicle, approximately 30 minutes from his destination. He had recently visited his parents to pick up packages and experienced his father giving him the silent treatment. He was listening to music and dancing while driving during this reflection.

Energetic Signature

earnest determination

Field State

early field establishment

Orientation

toward authentic signal transmission

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May 19, 2024

4:43

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

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[0:00]hey guys how are

[0:03]you so I've been getting a lot of

[0:05]comments

[0:07]lately saying that I

[0:10]probably get something out of my channel

[0:12]as far as like releasing my emotions or

[0:15]something like this and I just I feel

[0:17]this needs clarification this is not so

[0:20]okay cuz I'm being myself I will be

[0:23]doing this on or off

[0:25]camera I'm trying to show you

[0:28]guys my process I'm just doing it with

[0:31]you which is not a thing I would

[0:33]normally do but I feel like it has a

[0:35]purpose I'm trying to show you

[0:38]that the way that I live and process my

[0:43]emotions I think is very enriching and

[0:46]enriches my life it makes

[0:50]it it's just I just think it's a better

[0:52]way to live and that I'm just trying to

[0:54]show you guys you know how I do that um

[0:57]that's it so I'd be doing that or off

[1:00]camera but I also was thinking about

[1:02]this there is something I do get out of

[1:04]my channel and that's I've discovered

[1:06]quite a lot of people would accept me

[1:07]for who I am and that's something

[1:10]that I didn't think was the case you

[1:14]know my father's giving me the silent

[1:15]Dre right now I just came back from my

[1:17]parents pick up some packages that man

[1:18]won't even talk to me right now and you

[1:22]know that's the man who raised me he

[1:25]raised me he's just a little child he's

[1:27]70 years old he's just he this man

[1:29]raised me I me at 70 years old he's

[1:32]still acting like this he didn't give me

[1:35]any self-esteem he didn't raise me up he

[1:37]didn't build me up you know all of that

[1:39]so I didn't think anybody would accept

[1:42]me I didn't get the love that I should

[1:44]have from that

[1:45]man thankfully I got it from my mother

[1:48]all the time she is the only reason I am

[1:50]still on this planet as far as I'm

[1:52]concerned so you know I do get something

[1:55]out of the channel but I really just I

[1:58]feel like this is where the m

[2:00]understandings happen my channel this is

[2:02]only one side of myself too like it's

[2:04]really hard for me to share every part

[2:07]of myself you know there's a lot of

[2:08]facets to me like I'm just sitting here

[2:10]listening to

[2:12]music and I wish I could share with you

[2:14]but I can't you know cuz probably get

[2:16]copyright Sten right and you know I've

[2:20]only done that once on video and that

[2:21]actually is what happen so you know I'm

[2:23]just dancing around in my house getting

[2:25]rid of my stuff and playing random music

[2:27]on Spotify and one of the tracks that

[2:30]came up ended up getting flaged

[2:33]so you know I thought okay can't do that

[2:36]and it's just sad because you don't see

[2:38]me here daming in my vehicle right now

[2:40]just having a Blas by myself but I've

[2:43]just been thinking about a lot of stuff

[2:44]on this drive I'm almost back thank God

[2:46]another 30 minutes

[2:50]um I lost my train of thought how did

[2:53]that

[2:54]happen I was having a thought it was a

[2:56]different thought like it just got

[2:57]merged into each other I don't know what

[2:58]happened so yeah 30 minutes just give me

[3:01]a second here I think where I was trying

[3:03]to go is my Channel's trying I'm just

[3:05]trying to inspire you guys that's it I

[3:08]don't need this

[3:10]like this isn't so much for me it's it's

[3:13]not it truly isn't like trust me it

[3:17]takes a lot of emotional energy and

[3:18]vulnerability and and um courage to keep

[3:22]doing this with you guys it is hard I

[3:24]would not do that for myself because it

[3:26]would be much easier to just not do it

[3:30]I'm trying to inspire you guys I'm truly

[3:33]trying I went through a tough period

[3:35]where I was adjusting to that RV and you

[3:38]know I went through a draw all that

[3:40]stuff but you look at my older videos

[3:42]that's not that's not my normal

[3:43]personality I don't you know a lot I

[3:46]wish I knew you guys better because I

[3:48]just I don't know how long you've been

[3:49]following me that sort of thing like but

[3:51]if you been around since my oldest

[3:53]videos you know you know you have a

[3:55]sense of what my personality is like

[3:58]because I did show quite a few to myself

[4:00]I

[4:01]think um there's a playlist for that if

[4:04]you ever want to watch it you know I

[4:05]think it's it's called something like

[4:07]like rvy living transition something

[4:09]like that um but you know then I got on

[4:13]the road and I was dealing with a lot

[4:15]and I had a lot to process and I decided

[4:17]you know what there is a video where I

[4:19]specifically say this I say you know

[4:21]what I'm just going to document this

[4:22]anyway even though I know it's negative

[4:25]because I wanted you to see how how I

[4:28]get through challenges how I overcome

[4:30]them because you can overcome a lot a

[4:33]lot more than you think you can and I

[4:34]think it helps when other people tell

[4:36]you that that's all I'm trying to do

[4:37]here that's

[4:39]it I really hope that message comes

[4:41]through

Summary

rswfire addresses viewer comments suggesting he uses his channel for emotional release, clarifying that he would process emotions the same way on or off camera. He explains his channel's purpose is to demonstrate his approach to living and processing emotions, which he considers enriching. He shares that the channel has revealed unexpected acceptance from viewers, contrasting this with his father's current silent treatment after a visit to pick up packages. rswfire describes his father as failing to provide self-esteem or support, crediting his mother as the reason he's still alive. He acknowledges the channel shows only one side of himself, mentioning he was dancing to music in his vehicle during recording but can't share music due to copyright issues. He emphasizes that creating content requires significant emotional energy and vulnerability, stating his primary goal is to inspire viewers by showing how to overcome challenges, referencing his difficult RV transition period documented in earlier videos.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission establishes clear boundaries around authentic signal versus performative interpretation. The field is correcting external misreadings while simultaneously revealing the discovery of unexpected acceptance capacity in distributed networks versus institutional/familial rejection patterns.

Dominant Language

inspireprocessaccept me for who I amovercomevulnerability and couragetruly tryingdocument this anyway

Symbolic Elements

mirrorthresholdvehiclemusicsilence

Ontological States

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clarifying
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boundary-setting
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vulnerable
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teaching

Subsystems

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relational
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emotional
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cognitive
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infrastructural

Transmission Details

Source Type

local

Video Quality

1920 × 1080 @ 30fps

Duration

4:43

Bitrate

2594 kbps

Codec

avc1.640028