[0:00]good morning it's 5:30 here been up for
[0:04]an hour um bit too early for me I think
[0:07]I may be up 6
[0:09]hours this bed is more comfortable U
[0:12]it's very firm which was something I
[0:15]looked for I know a lot of people like
[0:18]to sleep on soft things and you know
[0:20]intuitively that would feel like the
[0:22]best thing for you but actually it's not
[0:24]it's not good for your
[0:27]body um
[0:30]and I was thinking about it and if
[0:31]you're not like highly sensitive maybe
[0:33]you just don't notice it as much but you
[0:37]know there's science behind
[0:39]that if you started sleeping on a firm
[0:42]mattress or on the floor cuz some people
[0:44]do
[0:45]that you know it would be hard at first
[0:47]but you'd get used to it and then you'd
[0:49]discover it's actually way better for
[0:50]you if you have back pain or um
[0:54]different problems I think sky is one of
[0:56]them but I don't know what that is I've
[0:58]Just Seen comments about it
[1:01]um the guy had to go I don't know
[1:07]um those problems go away for people who
[1:09]decide to start sleeping on firm
[1:13]surfaces so the mattress isn't the
[1:17]problem I don't even think the RV
[1:18]mattress was the
[1:20]problem it is not a level bad it's
[1:23]actually worse than I thought I pulled
[1:25]out my leveler and looked and um I'll
[1:27]show you guys so this camper is level is
[1:31]absolutely
[1:33]level I put it
[1:36]here fairly level you
[1:39]know put it
[1:41]here it's pretty
[1:45]level we start to get less
[1:49]level I mean it's real bad there I mean
[1:52]explain that I don't get it this is just
[1:55]not a level
[1:56]surface something about this bed
[2:00]what's underneath of
[2:01]it so when and now this part of the bed
[2:07]you underneath that I showed you
[2:08]yesterday there's a gap because the
[2:10]slide will pull in underneath this part
[2:12]I'm sitting on
[2:14]now so I'm not surprised by
[2:18]that but it's just it's all over the
[2:21]place and my body feels it it knows and
[2:24]so it wakes me up whenever I want to
[2:25]move
[2:27]positions and that's just that's
[2:29]definitely not working for me I honestly
[2:32]don't know how you fix a problem like
[2:34]that cuz it's under the mattress
[2:37]so I think I can fix the top part by you
[2:42]know getting plywood or whatever just
[2:44]something
[2:45]that I put there temporarily when when
[2:47]the side is
[2:49]out but you know parts of this mattress
[2:52]just all around it aren't to level
[2:54]there's I don't know how you deal with a
[2:56]problem like that I'm not ready to get
[2:59]out Here Comes Bailey hi thought I would
[3:03]talk about him this
[3:06]morning but I don't really have my
[3:08]thoughts worked out on that yet there's
[3:10]a lot to this
[3:13]cat and he's amazing you're amazing
[3:18]constantly wants in my face though and
[3:20]his fur it's not not ideal for me
[3:25]right and he's sitting on me again he's
[3:27]like 15 lbs so
[3:30]that's a
[3:33]lot but I absolutely love this cat but
[3:36]he's a hard cat to love
[3:39]and something happened one
[3:42]day like 6 months ago that just switched
[3:46]something off in my brain I didn't feel
[3:48]about him the same after that he
[3:51]attacked his brother woke me up in the
[3:53]middle of the night from a dead sleep
[3:56]and they were just fighting like wild
[3:58]animals in the kitchen and and it Bailey
[4:00]attacked
[4:01]him whenever he would look out the
[4:03]windows if he'd see another cat he'd
[4:05]turn around and attack
[4:07]Oliver and it just switched something
[4:09]off in my brain and he doesn't deserve
[4:12]that
[4:13]because you know he's an animal he's
[4:16]just those are instincts that he's got
[4:18]zero control
[4:21]over so I try to tell myself this but I
[4:24]can't make my
[4:26]brain switch on whatever it switched off
[4:30]but I am responsible for him I do love
[4:33]him but not the same way I used
[4:37]to and I don't you know I've never
[4:39]really been able to figure out why or do
[4:42]anything about
[4:43]it I just Tred to be mindful
[4:48]that he wasn't trying to hurt out for
[4:51]like not really you
[4:56]know I
[5:01]and he just needs so much attention
[5:04]like constant
[5:08]attention so it can be difficult he's
[5:11]he's a difficult cat to
[5:13]love but I do love them
[5:19]I I mean I raised him from six weeks old
[5:23]and there was a bond created between us
[5:26]I just feel like that Bond got altered
[5:29]and I wish it
[5:31]hadn't did though so I feel like my last
[5:35]video confirmed what I knew already and
[5:38]that was that most people I'm just
[5:40]entertainment to them for whatever
[5:42]reason in whatever capacity can't even
[5:45]begin to guess but it's just
[5:48]entertainment and kind of had trouble
[5:50]with that I'm not here to entertain you
[5:52]really not so yeah I'm struggling with
[5:57]that I guess a little bit but some of
[6:01]you seem
[6:04]like I'm helping you somehow and I'm
[6:07]really glad and and thank you for
[6:11]sharing one of you in particular I
[6:13]remember you commenting some while ago
[6:15]and I just want you to know you've got
[6:17]this you don't need to you've got this
[6:20]you know what you want you you know it
[6:22]in your
[6:23]heart and it takes courage and I think
[6:28]that you have it
[6:30]cuz I think you're taking steps
[6:34]to follow your dream right so most
[6:38]people don't do that
[6:40]anymore just having those Minecraft
[6:43]books up there makes me want to play
[6:44]Minecraft I have my own
[6:47]server I haven't done a lot with it but
[6:49]I spent a lot of time like picking the
[6:52]world I wanted like I kept rrolling it
[6:54]until I got I got a really good one like
[6:57]the spot I landed on and what's right it
[7:00]and just I could just see building this
[7:02]beautiful place up high in these
[7:04]mountains and there these waterfalls
[7:07]it's there's a village nearby like it's
[7:09]just
[7:10]perfect and I do need to
[7:13]just reconnect to that and it's very
[7:17]creative it's like digital Legos you
[7:20]know um if you like playing Minecraft I
[7:23]would I'd invite you to my server
[7:25]there's nobody on it so um there's
[7:27]plenty of space for us
[7:30]I might get into that again every once
[7:32]in a while the interest pops up and no
[7:36]expert at Minecraft they ignored it for
[7:40]like you know it's the first 10 years of
[7:42]its life or something but
[7:46]I I do like it so yeah it's creative
[7:51]it's really
[7:52]creative need lots of attention don't
[7:57]you I get everything you could possibly
[8:00]need this morning oh my God I'm going to
[8:03]sneeze baile I'm going so yesterday I
[8:07]said something about these that I just
[8:09]want to further elaborate on so there's
[8:11]no
[8:12]confusion um I'm good at that
[8:16]because I I don't know I guess I assume
[8:18]people can follow my
[8:20]thoughts like I don't like I'll start a
[8:23]thought and not finish it and just
[8:24]assume people can follow it I've been
[8:26]like that my whole life I don't know how
[8:27]to change it but I it's said something
[8:30]like I thought that those shelves might
[8:32]have contributed to the dream I had and
[8:34]the reason why is
[8:40]because feels like everything is a
[8:42]challenge in an RV like they're built
[8:45]really badly like the manufacturers
[8:47]should be just totally
[8:50]ashamed I truly I truly feel that way
[8:53]it's just absolutely ridiculous for the
[8:55]price that you pay for these the quality
[8:57]of the builds are just freaking
[8:59]ridiculous
[9:00]and even though that's something I
[9:03]installed I installed it that way
[9:06]because you know that's just a hollow
[9:07]wall
[9:08]like
[9:10]um and I was just worried about it
[9:12]falling down on Bailey and so I was
[9:14]stressed out about it and in my mind I'm
[9:16]linking that to my
[9:18]RV so you know that height and the
[9:21]stress that I was feeling
[9:24]subconsciously about other aspects of RV
[9:27]life
[9:28]and came out in that very strange dream
[9:31]you know two-part dream
[9:35]of yeah so I'm just going to probably
[9:39]make some coffee soon and
[9:42]then keep getting everything organized
[9:44]in here I hope to have that done today
[9:46]so that's what I'm doing this morning
[9:48]and then I don't know trying to figure
[9:51]my life out here I'll let you know how
[9:53]it goes