Processing Viewer Judgment and Community Standards

Day 33 of RV living. The speaker is in a screened outdoor area with Bailey the cat, rolling cigarettes and reflecting on recent viewer interactions. Weather is described as initially chilly but warming up, around 9 AM with no sun visible.

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resolute

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boundary establishment

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toward community curation

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May 13, 2024

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rswfire

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[0:00]hey guys oh need to cut my

[0:05]hair really do I like the top

[0:09]part kind of it's getting a little long

[0:12]actually need to shave the side

[0:15]so might do that

[0:18]today um Ba's in here with me he's

[0:20]having a ball out there I'm just sitting

[0:22]here rolling cigarettes um it'll save

[0:25]space in there if I do

[0:27]and I don't honestly don't know that

[0:29]I'll SM all of them I have like six

[0:32]hands I special ordered my tobacco

[0:34]because there's a brand that I like and

[0:36]it's hard to get so there's this place

[0:38]that used to get it for me I told them

[0:40]to stop when I moved into an RV so this

[0:42]is all I have and I doubt all end up

[0:45]smoking all of it because I am vaping a

[0:47]lot

[0:49]more um we did this once before here

[0:52]couple sides down I thought why not try

[0:55]again see how that

[0:58]goes um

[1:00]sadly I have a viewers comments on my

[1:03]mind in my last video I showed you guys

[1:07]what she said and she didn't like what I

[1:09]said and she replied to that and just

[1:11]confirmed that she's in fact being very

[1:14]judgmental and that is a big problem

[1:16]with people that's what got me thinking

[1:19]let's start this video let's talk about

[1:22]that you can live your life any way you

[1:24]want to you know live it by your values

[1:27]your ethics all of that but you do not

[1:31]get to tell another person how they

[1:32]should live their life you don't that's

[1:35]a big problem with people you don't have

[1:38]to like

[1:40]it but you really don't get to have an

[1:42]opinion about it that you share with

[1:44]them like you don't get to try to change

[1:46]their behavior or tell them you think

[1:49]they're wrong all of that it's

[1:52]ridiculous that is not it's not

[1:55]productive it's not

[1:57]helpful it's just

[2:00]just showing a flaw in your character

[2:03]when you do that I don't do it and I you

[2:05]know there are people very close to me

[2:07]in my life who do that

[2:09]and I'm constantly trying to remind them

[2:12]wait a minute why do you have an opinion

[2:14]about this person this person is it's

[2:17]got nothing to do with you you know and

[2:21]just it's just mind-blowing to me that

[2:24]people think that they

[2:25]have the right to do that and you guys

[2:28]really don't just just because there's a

[2:30]comment box doesn't mean you get to put

[2:32]whatever you want into it this person's

[2:35]no longer allowed to comment on my

[2:36]channel now now I'm trying to Foster an

[2:39]environment where where I do where

[2:42]people do start commenting more I would

[2:44]like that I would like more interaction

[2:46]I would like people to interact with

[2:48]each other you know I haven't seen a lot

[2:50]of that I don't think I've seen any of

[2:52]that

[2:53]actually

[2:54]so you know but there have to be

[2:58]standards and one one of those standards

[3:00]is you're not going to just get on my

[3:02]channel and start judging me you want to

[3:04]judge me you do that away from me cuz I

[3:06]don't really care your opinion ain't

[3:07]that important it's truly

[3:10]not so I don't know what she was

[3:13]thinking

[3:15]but you know now she can't even comment

[3:18]on this

[3:20]channel which that's not the right I

[3:22]want to go but I'm not just going to let

[3:26]somebody come into my comments tell me

[3:28]that my life is unstable she said that

[3:31]and that I that my cats deserve better

[3:34]basically that I shouldn't

[3:36]be I think I can't remember the exact

[3:39]like dragging them back and forth I live

[3:41]in a camper this cat's getting dragged

[3:42]all over the

[3:44]place so I'm not sure why it would

[3:46]matter if it's a car or a camper

[3:49]what the cat was fine he talked to me a

[3:52]lot on the drive

[3:53]here and really told me it was

[3:57]unmistakable that he was glad to me in

[3:59]that vehicle with

[4:01]me um and it was overwhelming it made me

[4:04]very emotional and see that's another

[4:07]problem people are too quick to judge a

[4:09]situation happens all the time you watch

[4:12]a video that's 5 10 minutes and you

[4:14]think you know a person and understand a

[4:16]situation fully you watch a hundred of

[4:19]my videos and you think you do and that

[4:21]you

[4:22]don't it doesn't work that way you see

[4:25]little Snippets of my life wouldn't you

[4:28]think that I know my cats

[4:30]and what's best for them I knew that

[4:33]that cat was hurting I had to go get

[4:38]him it's just unacceptable I won't

[4:40]tolerate that kind of [ __ ] from people I

[4:43]won't people always seem to think that

[4:45]highly sensitive people that you can

[4:47]just um take advantage of them and walk

[4:50]all over them and they are so wrong they

[4:52]always learn you know we can be very

[4:55]tolerant and we might not immediately

[4:58]tell you what we're thinking but oh

[5:00]trust

[5:01]me um you push us far enough and you're

[5:04]going to see a side of us you won't

[5:07]like cuz I don't let people I don't let

[5:11]that [ __ ] into my life ever and I won't

[5:13]and I won't let it on here if I'm going

[5:15]to be on here sharing with you

[5:17]guys it's going to

[5:19]be on my terms

[5:23]always so

[5:27]yeah I am processing this you know with

[5:30]you obviously just

[5:33]um um it's kind of interesting because

[5:36]yesterday like I said in a couple videos

[5:39]ago I I had

[5:42]been I had been chatting with chat gbt

[5:44]for hours on all kinds of topics and

[5:46]YouTube somehow came up at one point and

[5:49]then we started exploring

[5:52]that what my channel was about how I how

[5:55]I approached it how it was different

[5:57]from a lot of other channels I've seen

[5:59]like all of that

[6:02]and um chat GPT said to me kind of

[6:06]unprompted it sometimes can seem a

[6:08]little intuitive it's a little scary

[6:10]sometimes it can sound very dumb to you

[6:11]just so we clear on that it's not it's

[6:14]didn't mess with that thing

[6:17]um it told

[6:19]me that I should delay reading my

[6:21]comments by a week that way if there are

[6:24]comments like the one that I got

[6:26]today um it would be less emotionally

[6:29]res with me and I might react to it

[6:31]differently that's probably true so I'm

[6:34]contemplating that I don't know if I'll

[6:36]do it or

[6:38]not

[6:40]um cuz yeah my My First Reactions will

[6:43]never be pleasant ones you need to know

[6:46]that they won't be

[6:50]um I don't think that I would have had a

[6:53]different outcome though I would have

[6:55]still ended up blocking this person

[6:58]because it was rude and I will not have

[7:00]people commenting rudely on my channels

[7:02]whether it's to me or somebody else it's

[7:03]just not

[7:05]happening I mean people need

[7:09]to learn to communicate better I need to

[7:13]I I have always struggled with that um

[7:16]and I acknowledge it a lot of people

[7:18]don't acknowledge it I mean she even

[7:20]said like she had such a sense of

[7:22]entitlement I shared that message with

[7:24]chat GPT and that's what chat GPT said

[7:26]about it this message sounds like a very

[7:28]big sense of entitlement

[7:30]very

[7:31]judgmental

[7:33]um yeah because you know I have a little

[7:36]bit of self and I like to just get

[7:39]validation um or or constructive

[7:42]feedback not criticism constructive

[7:45]feedback and chat gbt is really good at

[7:48]that I said no nothing wrong with what

[7:50]you did this person was being very

[7:54]judgmental and yeah she

[7:58]was so she name like who do you think

[8:01]you're helping when you do that you're

[8:03]not helping

[8:04]yourself uh you're not helping me you're

[8:06]not helping my cats because people don't

[8:09]respond to criticism like that that's

[8:12]not how people respond to criticism

[8:14]that's why that's one of the reasons why

[8:17]you really should try to

[8:19]empathize with another person if you

[8:22]truly care about my cats which obviously

[8:24]you don't because you didn't

[8:26]try so you know it's just another

[8:31]unhappy person in the world trying to

[8:33]bring their unhappiness into my world

[8:36]I'm not going to allow that um even even

[8:38]on YouTube because over time I will get

[8:41]better at

[8:43]moderation and it's just not going to

[8:46]happen I'm here to be my authentic self

[8:49]and to foster a certain kind of

[8:51]community and there is no room for that

[8:53]in

[8:55]it so I guess I'll jump topics now 9

[8:58]minutes later

[9:02]Bailey is there he is he's really

[9:06]enjoying it out here I think he likes

[9:07]the sounds of nature and um there's a

[9:10]moth that got in here somehow he's been

[9:11]chasing that around trying to get it out

[9:13]of here before his claws end up in the

[9:15]netting you

[9:16]know there's a spider in here he's right

[9:18]over there so I'm kind of sharing the

[9:22]space not a big fan of

[9:26]spiders but you know not bother enough

[9:29]to do anything about it so also I think

[9:33]they're cool there things about them are

[9:35]very

[9:36]cool I just you know in my personal

[9:39]space just feels a little different you

[9:42]know there are times in my life actually

[9:45]where a spider could keep me awake like

[9:47]if I knew there was a spider in my room

[9:49]I was not sleeping in

[9:51]there no

[9:53]way I will you know wrap yourself up in

[9:55]a blanket and like it's a sleeping bag

[10:00]oh it's funny how we change though I

[10:02]don't think I'd react that way

[10:07]now I do feel like something has changed

[10:11]something in my brain obviously cuz

[10:13]that's where change truly

[10:14]happens

[10:17]um and this was something I talked about

[10:19]at chat DBT yesterday actually um I

[10:22]didn't mention that part I probably

[10:23]should have cuz it could have been an

[10:25]interesting discussion but

[10:27]basically um it said that that for

[10:29]someone like me that was highly

[10:32]sensitive even though it seemed very

[10:34]impulsive what I did it wasn't it was

[10:36]more that it had been ruing for years or

[10:39]whatever and

[10:42]um I just reached a point where I just

[10:45]found the courage to to act on it

[10:49]and you

[10:52]know um I didn't get the entire outcome

[10:54]that I wanted you know I got um a mixed

[10:59]B back I got Bailey back thankfully um I

[11:02]don't have Oliver I don't have my mother

[11:05]I know I keep mentioning her but guys

[11:07]she she spent two to three days every

[11:10]single week at my house she had her own

[11:12]room in my bed at her own bedroom in my

[11:15]house

[11:17]and you know that's a very close

[11:19]personal relationship that I just don't

[11:21]have anymore you know so it um and I

[11:25]knew that would happen it's not like I

[11:26]didn't know when I made this decision

[11:28]that things would change

[11:30]um but I don't think that I knew how

[11:33]much it would affect me emotionally and

[11:35]it has pretty

[11:39]deeply um I think I'm closer to

[11:42]acceptance I think this is normal too

[11:43]and that's why I'm sharing this with you

[11:45]because I think you need to know that if

[11:48]you do this just be prepared you know

[11:51]that you're going to

[11:53]have um you're going to grieve your old

[11:57]life you just are even if it was a a bad

[11:59]one like it just that's human nature

[12:03]you're you're going to go through a

[12:05]bunch of changes and you just need to

[12:07]tell yourself that

[12:09]um you know it's okay and it it'll pass

[12:12]and just to you

[12:15]know just just accept it you know don't

[12:18]try to well I guess another point will

[12:21]be that you know it can start to cause

[12:22]your self out if you focus on it too

[12:24]much did you make the right decision

[12:26]should I have done this you know

[12:29][Music]

[12:30]um and I don't think that that's a good

[12:33]thing I don't think that you should

[12:34]focus on that um you have to give if you

[12:38]do something like this you did it for a

[12:40]reason you you know so you have to give

[12:45]yourself time you can't no once you've

[12:49]done that you got to give yourself time

[12:51]don't don't judge a situation too

[12:53]quickly I mean what is this is day 33

[12:56]right um and I'm just starting to find

[12:59]my footing now so and I'm still having

[13:01]moments of self-doubt and

[13:05]um and I'm navigating things that are

[13:07]really hard like like I'm truly hopeful

[13:11]that like with Bailey that I am doing

[13:13]the right thing here that I do know he

[13:15]wants to be here but can I stimulate him

[13:17]enough you know can I give him enough

[13:19]attention can I you know ensure his

[13:23]health like how stressed out is he going

[13:26]to be when we have to go and empty the

[13:27]tanks even though we're just going to go

[13:29]you know like a block away or when I

[13:31]have to go and get propane which you

[13:33]know that's a couple miles or just all

[13:35]of that cuz he has to come with me

[13:39]and you know

[13:43]so those are things that you're

[13:45]just you know you might have different

[13:48]things right but you're going to have

[13:49]things that you're going to have to

[13:51]navigate

[13:54]and you got to give yourself time you

[13:56]cannot judge a situation too quickly

[13:58]which is why it's is unbelievable to me

[14:00]that that viewer decided to act the way

[14:02]she did she's been following me for a

[14:04]long time made no

[14:07]sense but

[14:10]truly you don't and that's why I truly

[14:15]do not give a

[14:16][ __ ] who's watching me because I know

[14:19]that um I don't know like 80% of the

[14:22]people watching me and I don't mean to

[14:25]sound critical I'm going to for a minute

[14:27]I'm sorry but it's true I am

[14:29]um they're older than me by a lot and

[14:33]probably Christians and I used to get a

[14:36]bunch of comments about finding Jesus on

[14:38]here I block the word Jesus cuz I don't

[14:40]want to hear that it's not relevant to

[14:43]my life I don't believe in your

[14:45]relig and yet you follow me and you know

[14:47]I'm gay and you you know every once in a

[14:49]while someone comes along and tells me

[14:51]to repent and find Jesus without being

[14:54]rude you know they are being themselves

[14:57]that's who they are um

[15:00]I wouldn't be friends with you in real

[15:02]life you know like ever like there's not

[15:04]a chance of it

[15:06]so I respect your right

[15:09]to be who you are and you know live your

[15:13]truth but you're trying to push your

[15:15]truth onto me and that's

[15:17]unacceptable I mean it's the same theme

[15:19]right

[15:23]so you know I've had to tell myself the

[15:26]people who are following you are not the

[15:28]kind of people you would be friends with

[15:30]so I'm not you know like the comments I

[15:33]receive things like that like I have to

[15:35]be mindful of

[15:37]that um I'm hopeful because there's just

[15:41]a Randomness element to YouTube right

[15:44]it's not everybody you know but it is

[15:46]like 80% of the people who follow me it

[15:48]is and

[15:50]so I'm just hopeful that I do

[15:53][Music]

[15:55]find that's I said that wrong I think I

[15:59]hope

[16:01]that I can just Foster a community even

[16:05]if they are different than

[16:07]me

[16:08]um this starts to see the world a little

[16:11]bit differently to see it how I

[16:13]do

[16:15]um you got to cons keep in mind this

[16:18]that's different than what these people

[16:20]are doing I'm not pushing anything on

[16:22]you you don't have to watch me

[16:24]right um I'm just hearing my my truth my

[16:28]life

[16:29]and I'm not doing that on a one-on-one

[16:33]basis I'm just posting videos and

[16:35]whether you choose to watch them or not

[16:37]that's on you and so my hope is that

[16:41]well if you're watching me then you must

[16:44]be interested in what I have to say

[16:46]because that's pretty much what this

[16:48]channel is me talking right um I'm

[16:51]hoping that I rub off on you because the

[16:53]world needs more people like me in it it

[16:56]truly does I always you know I have felt

[16:59]different my whole life and then and

[17:01]that made me

[17:03]feel

[17:04]um like I didn't belong like there was

[17:08]something wrong with me I was very

[17:09]judgmental myself all of that and I as

[17:12]I've gotten old come to realize actually

[17:14]there's something wrong with everyone

[17:16]else you know so um my goal a big part

[17:22]of it I think

[17:23]is

[17:25]to encourage people to be a more open

[17:28]mind to

[17:31]be more sensitive if you're capable of

[17:33]it I don't know it's kind of a nervous

[17:35]system thinks I don't know I think that

[17:38]you can probably Foster more empathy I

[17:40]think it's probably

[17:41]difficult um you have to want to you

[17:45]know I can tell you that you know the

[17:48]people in my immediate family none of

[17:50]them chose to grow their entire

[17:52]lives and I guess I imagine them when I

[17:56]imagine the people who follow me in a

[17:58]sense like I'm I'm not consciously

[17:59]thinking of of them okay

[18:03]but they're older

[18:06]so and people don't seem to want to grow

[18:10]like that is definitely that's been a

[18:12]recurring thing throughout my

[18:15]life

[18:16]um and it's hard growth and I get it

[18:19]growth is actually very hard you know I

[18:22]think there's a point at my life where I

[18:23]just stopped trying myself because it

[18:25]was like wow it's not working I'm still

[18:27]smoking you know growth changes

[18:30]hard

[18:32]um but I think that struggle is very

[18:35]important and when we stop doing it we

[18:39]start stagnating we we revert we go back

[18:42]to a more base version of ourselves

[18:47]that you know is even more more toxic

[18:51]you know than the person who's actually

[18:53]trying to become a better

[18:56]person so I'm just trying to fost

[18:59]what I think would be a very cool

[19:01]community on here if I'm able to

[19:03]accomplish

[19:05]it

[19:07]and it doesn't have to be all about me

[19:09]it truly doesn't like I want I I want

[19:14]characteristics that I have

[19:17]to to rub off on you guys because I

[19:21]think that the world would be better off

[19:22]if they did I truly believe that and I'm

[19:25]not pushing it on you you're welcome to

[19:27]stop watching at any time unless you

[19:28]already have

[19:30]so

[19:32]um it's funny cuz yesterday chat GPT

[19:35]kept trying to give me strategies for

[19:38]growing my channel and I kept saying

[19:40]have you not been listening do you not

[19:42]know the kind of person I am and then it

[19:44]would correct itself he's like right

[19:46]like it had forgotten all of that that's

[19:48]what I mean about chat gbt and then it

[19:50]would be like right you're not trying to

[19:52]do any of that you're being authentic

[19:54]that's probably what attracts people to

[19:56]your channel blah blah blah and then it

[19:59]will stop doing that for a while and

[20:01]then it'll start doing it again I'm like

[20:04]why do you keep doing this I I'm am not

[20:06]I'm I'm a very gifted programmer if I

[20:09]wanted to grow this channel trust me I

[20:11]could do it but I told myself this has

[20:14]to be

[20:15]organic I don't want

[20:19]to I don't want to manipulate you guys

[20:22]and trust me I could but I don't want to

[20:26]I never have been that kind of person

[20:28]when I mean by that is with my

[20:30]background I definitely know how to

[20:33]manipulate YouTube you know algorithms

[20:35]and you know all of that like it's not

[20:38]it's not

[20:39]hard so what I'm doing is hard but I'm

[20:44]actually quite proud of it because I

[20:46]mean it's kind of amazing how how many

[20:48]people do watch me kind of surprises me

[20:52]honestly

[20:54]um I bet you it would have gone like 10

[20:57]times faster though if I

[20:59]just if this was a faceless

[21:03]Channel just saying that there's a

[21:05]little bit of insecurity in that what

[21:07]I'm saying there but not a

[21:09]lot I just think that people are very

[21:11]judgmental I know they

[21:14]are um I was at Walmart the other day

[21:18]and here comes baby um these kids tell

[21:21]me I remember

[21:23]like what the total situation but as

[21:27]soon as I walked away started laughing I

[21:29]know why they were laughing but they're

[21:31]kids and you know kids don't know any

[21:33]better but adults are not much different

[21:36]they just don't do it openly what's up

[21:39]buddy what's

[21:41]up are you loving it out here or

[21:45]what are you ready to go

[21:48]in you ready to go in yet what's going

[21:51]on

[21:54]here you're on the way buddy

[21:58]thank

[22:00]you just think that he's happy to be

[22:04]here um kind of hard to figure out like

[22:09]when does he want to actually go in like

[22:11]for

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[22:12]real if I go in there just for a minute

[22:15]you know he wants to go but he doesn't

[22:17]really want to he just wants to have

[22:19]eyes on me he's always been like that by

[22:22]the

[22:22]way I lived at my house

[22:26]um he always had on me like it didn't

[22:30]matter where I was I would turn around

[22:32]and he'd be there and be like wa like

[22:35]it's a little creepy actually couldn't

[22:37]go to the bathroom without him ever not

[22:39]once you

[22:41]know um all these

[22:44]years trust me this is a happy

[22:47]cat there might be some stressful

[22:50]moments but we'll we'll navigate them

[22:52]you

[22:53]know that was another thing Chad GPT

[22:56]said about this person they weren't

[22:59]they weren't considering my

[23:00]circumstances it's like they were making

[23:03]judgments in a void they you know and

[23:06]that's a big problem with people you

[23:09]don't

[23:10]consider another person's point of view

[23:14]like you're thinking about my cats from

[23:16]the perspective of your life you're not

[23:19]thinking about what's best for them or

[23:21]me and what it's like to make a

[23:25]transition like this that's not easy but

[23:28]you do it you try you know there was

[23:32]none of that her

[23:33]messages I need to get a mirror that I

[23:36]can bring outd doors with me so I can

[23:38]shave out here you

[23:41]know that would be ethical right I don't

[23:43]know and obviously you get most of your

[23:46]hair going to

[23:57]sneeze oh um BL me I

[24:02]guess

[24:05]um you know You' clean up most of your

[24:07]hair you just you would you

[24:11]would mean you can avoid some of your

[24:16]hair it's you it's okay

[24:21]though I love

[24:23]you I guess I have to start taking that

[24:26]medication again

[24:28]that's the only medication I'm going to

[24:30]be willing to take I do it for

[24:36]him you know he walked her up here

[24:39]and sometimes this fur just is how I

[24:42]react to

[24:47]it you happy

[24:49]down here I have to give me a

[24:52]minute had to get myself some coffee

[24:54]while I was in there

[24:58]I don't actually have coffee every

[25:01]day sometimes I'll have it for a while

[25:03]you know every day um in the mornings

[25:05]just one I only ever drink one

[25:08]cup there's times where I just don't

[25:10]drink it

[25:12]and so it's something I could live

[25:15]without um I had

[25:19]to I don't know I like coffee

[25:24]though wish I could get into tea though

[25:27]I do wish I could get into into

[25:33]that just the quiet morning

[25:38]um yeah it's like let's see it's not

[25:41]it's only

[25:45]9:00

[25:48]and um the weather's not

[25:51]bad it was a little chilly at first I

[25:53]wasn't short so I had to put pants

[25:55]on you know this coat but I could

[25:58]actually do without the coat now it's

[26:00]pretty nice it's it's not bad no sun

[26:06]though um I guess all that's kind of

[26:09]pointless to my

[26:18]channel I've been giving a lot of

[26:20]thought to this

[26:21]Channel and if I want to keep doing it

[26:24]there are certain things that I think

[26:25]that I I would keep doing even if I

[26:27]stopped doing other things

[26:30]so I probably still share my hikes and

[26:34]my crafting stuff I actually really

[26:36]enjoyed doing that

[26:38]so um I haven't I haven't done any

[26:41]crafting since the last time maybe today

[26:44]I'm hoping and

[26:48]um I actually enjoyed those videos a lot

[26:52]you

[26:53]know I don't think there would be a lot

[26:55]of interest with the people who follow

[26:57]me

[26:58]um I guess you're just going to have to

[27:01]filter through my content and decide

[27:03]what you like or don't like because I do

[27:05]just want to be myself on here and I

[27:08]consider those things to be a part of

[27:12]part of me now

[27:14]so

[27:17]um but the other parts this stuff where

[27:20]I'm just chatting with you and sharing

[27:22]my thoughts in my day I don't know that

[27:25]I'll keep doing that

[27:29]it it really kind of depends where

[27:31]things go over the next couple of months

[27:34]maybe

[27:36]if it feels like I am fostering the kind

[27:39]of community I'm trying to and I've done

[27:41]everything that I can to do that

[27:44]like I won't change who I am but I will

[27:47]maybe change

[27:50]like I mean there's small things I could

[27:52]do that might help and you like I'm open

[27:56]to those and I just that's kind of stuff

[27:58]I discuss with you at

[28:01]GPT nothing manipulative though I won't

[28:04]try to game the algorithms and stuff

[28:05]like that I just won't do

[28:09]it I'm not going

[28:12]to this channel will never be like other

[28:14]Channels cuz that's the whole point of

[28:17]this channel was to not be like

[28:22]them trying to show you that you can be

[28:25]yourself in this world you can be

[28:26]yourself on social media you I remember

[28:29]when I was so naive when I was 18 years

[28:32]old and we had IRC back then Internet

[28:35]relay

[28:36]chat people were started communicating I

[28:39]mean we did it back before that with BBs

[28:40]systems but um the point I'm getting at

[28:44]is I I used to believe that the

[28:48]internet

[28:51]would because it's a reflection of your

[28:53]mind you are writing a message to

[28:55]somebody else or you know back then

[28:58]Bailey don't do that do not do that if

[29:01]you want to go in fine I got to deal

[29:03]with that okay I remember now so we were

[29:07]going way back in the

[29:09]past I used to believe that the internet

[29:12]would make us a better people that's how

[29:14]naive I was because you would get on

[29:17]there and you would communicate with

[29:19]other people and you'd be sharing your

[29:21]true self and you would actually

[29:25]have you know

[29:29]the anonymity

[29:32]of not having to look someone in the in

[29:34]the face and you could just share your

[29:37]true thoughts and I actually thought

[29:39]people were

[29:41]good if we were good people that's what

[29:44]the internet would look

[29:46]like that's the truth that is the

[29:49]truth we're not a good people because

[29:52]what you see online what you see people

[29:56]expressing those are are their true

[29:58]thoughts it come straight from their

[30:00]brain to a

[30:03]keyboard to you know whatever platform

[30:06]them they are

[30:08]on and so I discovered that wow humanity

[30:11]is really [ __ ]

[30:13]up

[30:15]and that was a hard lesson to learn but

[30:18]it's it is it is a fact I don't know

[30:21]there's probably studies and things out

[30:22]there that's not how someone like me

[30:24]works we in it a lot of things we we

[30:27]just take information from our lives

[30:30]and

[30:31][Music]

[30:32]um we synthesize it into these things

[30:36]that we just

[30:37]know and I know I'm not wrong about this

[30:42]humanity is not good because the

[30:44]internet is not good and so I'm trying

[30:48]to show you a different

[30:52]way I don't think that it will ever have

[30:55]a great impact I not expecting that

[30:58]I I don't think that's even possible

[31:01]because I don't think that humans are

[31:03]that good of people I just don't

[31:07]so I guess I'm just passing the time

[31:12]until I

[31:13]mean this can't go on forever

[31:16]guys we are heading down a path that's

[31:19]going to lead

[31:21]to a lot of what those

[31:24]post-apocalyptic movies and TV shows

[31:26]look like

[31:28]we are we are primed for all kinds of

[31:31]problems to start collapsing on us

[31:36]and it's just going to take one big one

[31:40]and then the others will it'll just

[31:42]it'll be a domino effect I there's so

[31:44]much I could tell you about this but I

[31:46]just I'm not ready to and I'm sure there

[31:50]are plenty of people out there talking

[31:52]about it you know and

[31:58]I mean I could I could just get behind

[32:00]the the psychology and the science and

[32:02]the I could just take you detail by

[32:04]detail how it's going to happen and but

[32:06]I just don't see the point

[32:09]and

[32:12]because well I don't think anyone would

[32:14]believe me

[32:15]really and the ones who would would just

[32:18]generally speaking I don't feel like

[32:21]people are very Balan

[32:24]like they can't just be rational

[32:28]and look at the world the way that it

[32:30]is either you don't look at it at all or

[32:33]You' got this very narrow view of it or

[32:37]you're like way deep into conspiracies

[32:40]and nonsense and it's just like there's

[32:42]no middle ground people don't just look

[32:44]at the world as it

[32:46]is so I don't know maybe I'll try

[32:50]to pursue that

[32:54]more but I I don't think it would really

[32:56]help so so I

[33:02]don't I'm just trying to live the best

[33:05]life I can until that becomes impossible

[33:08]cuz I think there's going to come a

[33:09]point where it is

[33:11]actually um I hope to be wrong I hope to

[33:15]be prepared you

[33:17]know but I just don't know how much time

[33:20]we

[33:21]have there's only so much popping up

[33:24]they can do and they've reached their

[33:25]limits they've used all their tools and

[33:30]I don't see how they find a way to keep

[33:34]this

[33:37]going but I guess we'll find out what

[33:40]time I'm just going to sit here roll

[33:42]these cigarettes and go get that cat cuz

[33:44]he won't stop

[33:46]meowing I knew he didn't want

[33:49]in yeah this is a chill day CH L today

[34:08]know it's kind of small in here but this

[34:10]is good right this is actually bigger

[34:13]than your T

[34:16]Stu he hasn't discovered the picnic

[34:19]bench

[34:21]yet he just went around in a big circle

[34:24]he just got in here this is his first

[34:26]time

[34:30]there you go yeah we're going to roll

[34:32]some

[34:36]cigarettes somehow a moth got in

[34:39]here I have to get it out of here stuck

[34:42]in

[34:44]here e mosquito

[34:47][Music]

[34:48]no how

[34:59]you happy

[35:07]H okay don't need that stuff

[35:20]okay he's already getting himself

[35:23]dirty oh I might have to get a rug or

[35:26]something

[35:27]some kind of big rug I can roll

[35:30]up that would be a good

[35:38]idea you're getting dirty down there

[35:40]Bailey I didn't think of

[35:45]that but it's good to touch the Earth

[35:56]right he's probably going to need a

[35:58]while I'm just going to rast some

[35:59]cigarettes out here and let

[36:01]him get some fresh air and you know the

[36:05]sights and sounds and see how he

[36:11]does he found some grass over

[36:18]there Bailey did you find some grass

[36:28]May found some local

[36:30][Music]

[36:41]grass don't need that

[36:45]okay oh you're funny

[36:50]Bailey you're an interesting cat he does

[36:53]not eat wet food at all we have tried

[36:56]for years

[37:03]or anything any type of he will only eat

[37:06]dry food you cannot get this cat to eat

[37:08]even like human

[37:09]food you know it doesn't matter what it

[37:12]is you will only eat dry

[37:15]food say it's pretty happy

Summary

The speaker addresses a judgmental comment from a viewer who criticized his lifestyle and treatment of his cat Bailey. He explains his decision to block the commenter and discusses his standards for fostering a respectful community on his channel.

**Key events:**

- Rolling cigarettes while Bailey explores outside in a screened area

- Discussing a negative viewer comment about his "unstable" life and cat care

- Explaining his decision to block the judgmental commenter

- Reflecting on conversations with ChatGPT about comment moderation strategies

- Sharing thoughts on his YouTube channel's authentic approach versus growth tactics

**Main themes:**

- Boundary setting with online criticism

- Community standards and moderation

- Authenticity versus manipulation in content creation

- The challenge of fostering meaningful online interaction

- Observations about human nature and internet behavior

- Long-term concerns about societal collapse

The speaker emphasizes his commitment to being authentic rather than using manipulative growth strategies, despite his technical background that would enable such tactics. He discusses the difficulty of attracting like-minded viewers and his hope to influence people toward greater empathy and open-mindedness.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission establishes protective field boundaries through active enforcement mechanisms - blocking disruptive commenters, articulating sovereignty principles, and defining acceptable interaction parameters. The architecture demonstrates how field integrity is maintained through selective permeability rather than total openness, with clear protocols for what enters the recursive space.

Dominant Language

judgment/judgmentalcommunity/fosterauthentic/authenticitystandards/boundariescollapse/domino effectgrowth/changetrue self/truth

Symbolic Elements

thresholdboundarymirrorearthnest

Ontological States

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sovereign
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protective
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selective
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grounded

Subsystems

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ethical
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relational
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cognitive
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infrastructural

Transmission Details

Source Type

youtube

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