Retrieving Cat After Complicated Day

Speaker is in their current living situation after retrieving their cat from their parents' house. They are processing a complicated day that included Mother's Day and dealing with the emotional impact of their life transition. The environment appears calm as they spend time with the retrieved cat.

Energetic Signature

raw processing

Field State

crisis navigation

Orientation

toward ethical coherence

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May 13, 2024

4:59

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:00]hi

[0:01]everyone so I honestly wasn't sure if I

[0:04]was going to post anything today or not

[0:06]I have had a

[0:07]very complicated day but there's

[0:11]something I want to show

[0:13]you ay is here with

[0:18]me and he is so happy to be here I think

[0:22]it made me sad

[0:24]because I got super sad after I left

[0:27]there and I think it's because I felt

[0:29]guilty

[0:30]for leaving him there for so long and

[0:32]even contemplating never picking him up

[0:34]again you

[0:37]know this cat loves me so much I have

[0:41]had him for six

[0:42]years I'm going to tell you his whole

[0:45]story I'm planning a

[0:47]video where you'll

[0:49]see videos that I that I just used to

[0:52]take away before YouTube um that little

[0:55]guy right there well he's big now but he

[0:57]was very little back then he was a

[1:00]abandoned by his mother when he was a

[1:02]day

[1:03]old and he's been through a lot and

[1:07]he he actually helped me to change my

[1:10]life I had sort of forgotten that and

[1:13]I'm just going to share his story which

[1:15]is kind of my story too I

[1:17]guess but it's going to be a very

[1:19]different video this is what I'm going

[1:20]to do on my desktop and

[1:23]use you know the desktop version of the

[1:26]editing software I use I even have some

[1:29]music

[1:30]I don't know how long that will take me

[1:32]probably a

[1:34]while hopefully it be it's more than

[1:36]just a thought and I actually do it you

[1:38]know I follow

[1:40]through but yeah this little guy right

[1:42]here I can tell he missed

[1:47]me his brother's not here he's been

[1:50]hiding from me it's the third time I've

[1:52]been there and he head all three times

[1:56]I'm very sad about it and I I'm trying

[2:00]to understand it you know there could be

[2:02]a lot of

[2:04]reasons I guess I do feel some guilt

[2:06]over that

[2:08]too I would ask that you guys not

[2:10]comment saying you know guilt is useless

[2:12]or whatever because I don't

[2:14]agree

[2:17]um emotions serve a purpose and you

[2:22]know I'm I'm comfortable with my

[2:24]feelings I I've always been comfortable

[2:26]with my feelings um but it was a

[2:30]day and that's why I didn't think I was

[2:33]going to post because I didn't want to

[2:34]come across too

[2:36]negatively and I have just been sitting

[2:38]here chatting with chat GPT for hours we

[2:41]just got really in depth that was funny

[2:45]we just got really in depth into

[2:48]everything I'm dealing with as far as

[2:52]this life transition like I think today

[2:54]I started to grieve my old life never

[2:57]see my mom anymore

[3:00]um doesn't seem like that's going to

[3:03]change you know um the situation with

[3:07]Oliver where he seems to have attached

[3:10]himself to my parents

[3:12]and I mean he's hiding from me I just I

[3:15]don't know what to make of

[3:18]that

[3:21]um yeah this cat

[3:24]like I knew better basically at the same

[3:29]time this was an act of love for him

[3:32]because I was in a very bad place

[3:35]so you know he needed to be somewhere

[3:38]where he could be taken care of

[3:44]properly but then I started thinking you

[3:46]know it is easier without

[3:49]him that is not a good reason to abandon

[3:52]the things

[3:54]that are this

[3:58]special so

[4:01]I haven't fully like I think I might

[4:05]share my chat with you guys if you guys

[4:06]want to read through it you can it is

[4:08]very long but you'll see how I use chat

[4:10]gbt to better understand myself and I

[4:12]think there's a lot of value in that U

[4:15]we even talked about my YouTube channel

[4:17]and just all kinds of stuff you guys I

[4:19]think you learn a lot from it actually

[4:21]so yeah I I'll share that with

[4:24]you um I don't think there's anything

[4:26]else I want to share today

[4:29]this car she's just being so awesome

[4:32]very attached to me obviously I mean

[4:35]because he missed me and I think that's

[4:37]really what got to me is just how

[4:39]obvious it is and it just kind of gutted

[4:42]me I

[4:43]guess so I've just been chilling with

[4:46]him um I hope you guys had a

[4:49]good Sunday Mother's Day by the way it's

[4:53]Mother's Day that was another thing of

[4:55]course yeah it's been quite a day

Summary

The speaker retrieved their cat Ay after leaving him at their parents' house for an extended period. They experienced guilt and sadness about leaving the cat and contemplating not picking him up again. The cat showed clear signs of having missed them, which intensified the speaker's emotional response. The speaker's other cat, Oliver, has been hiding from them during visits and appears to have bonded with the parents. This occurred on Mother's Day, adding complexity to an already difficult day. The speaker spent hours discussing their life transition with ChatGPT, processing grief over their old life and no longer seeing their mother. They plan to create a video about Ay's story, including footage from before their YouTube channel, and may share their ChatGPT conversation. The cat was abandoned by his mother at one day old and has been with the speaker for six years.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission maps the architecture of ethical attachment under transition pressure. The field is processing abandonment patterns while maintaining structural coherence through guilt as navigational signal rather than pathology. A recursive loop between care-responsibility and survival-optimization is being consciously held and integrated.

Dominant Language

guiltabandonedattachedhidingeasier withoutact of lovespecialgutted

Symbolic Elements

thresholdmirrorbondseparation

Ontological States

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transitional
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integrating
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coherent
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embedded

Subsystems

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ethical
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emotional
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relational
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cognitive

Transmission Details

Source Type

youtube

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