Building Dollhouse Model and Processing Solitude Needs

Speaker is camping in a tent with picnic table setup, working on arts and crafts during bright daylight hours. New campers have arrived nearby with a boat, disrupting his usual solitude. He's been working on the project for several hours and plans to stop for the day due to approaching evening.

Energetic Signature

meditative

Field State

tool building

Orientation

toward solitude infrastructure

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May 11, 2024

11:16

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Author

rswfire

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ARCHIVED

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TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

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[0:00]hey everyone so I'm sitting with my back

[0:02]to the sun CU it's ex you know it's

[0:04]exceptionally

[0:05]bright I've been working on arts and

[0:07]crafts in here just with my I have a

[0:10]picnic table in here surrounded by my

[0:12]tent and um it doesn't have many things

[0:16]to come down to kind of you know to bot

[0:18]one of the screens I could probably put

[0:20]up a tarp if I got a little creative

[0:24]which I'll probably have to do you know

[0:26]um but I'm probably going to stop for

[0:28]the day it's getting late I'm going to

[0:30]share some progress with you I wanted to

[0:32]let you know that I'm thinking about

[0:33]starting a new just a little series of

[0:36]me doing arts and crafts for those who

[0:39]are interested or for nobody but

[0:42]myself

[0:45]um it'll take me time to like get better

[0:48]at it like all I can really do right now

[0:51]I just show you little clips of my

[0:53]progress but you know maybe eventually

[0:55]I'll just get better at making these

[0:56]kinds of videos so we'll see

[1:00]I'm discovering some of the challenges

[1:01]with

[1:02]this tried using this craft

[1:06]glue did not work so well so I switch to

[1:10]the Elmer's

[1:13]glue and that does not dry as fast and

[1:16]it's much

[1:17]Messier so I got some water to clean out

[1:20]my

[1:22]brush some paper towels to dry it

[1:26]with what

[1:31]yeah not sure what to do

[1:33][Music]

[1:39]here definitely like that craft glue

[1:41]better but it's like stringy so I didn't

[1:43]really know how to use

[1:46]it um it was definitely drying very fast

[1:49]over

[1:50]here so I am learning a new skill

[2:10]sometimes you put these things down I'm

[2:12]using tweezers I haven't done that

[2:14]yet and I

[2:19]think maybe I just need to be a little

[2:21]more conservative with the

[2:25]glue you know I'll try that

[2:30]we have our first

[2:34]walls this is

[2:36]fun reques great deal of

[2:40]patience but this is fun it's 3D it's

[2:44]creative it's pretty it smells

[2:47]nice I like

[2:58]this well we have a accomplish making

[3:00]some stairs that has taken a lot of

[3:03]effort

[3:04]actually it is only two

[3:07]setups this probably took me 15

[3:10]minutes so this is interesting these

[3:12]steps here are going to get hidden there

[3:14]will be a battery pack in there or

[3:17]something like that so that the lights

[3:19]can come

[3:20]on and

[3:23]then this little wall here will go in

[3:26]front of it you never will really see

[3:28]the some of the things that you put in

[3:29]here

[3:31]I mean you have to put it together

[3:32]yourself to know what's in there I think

[3:34]that's

[3:36]cool so I might surprised some of you

[3:38]that I am able to be so open with you

[3:41]that

[3:42]took took some courage

[3:46]and ultimately though it was about the

[3:49]realization as I got older that we all

[3:52]struggle with things

[3:54]and we struggle with them in silence we

[4:00]we shame

[4:01]ourselves we treat we treat ourselves

[4:04]very badly and I think that it helps

[4:06]when other

[4:07]people hear that other people have you

[4:10]know the same struggles they do I don't

[4:13]know who watches me you

[4:16]know I have a lot of different struggles

[4:19]in life that challenges

[4:23]and you know somebody has them to and I

[4:27]think it helps so that's why I share I

[4:29]think it's important I think we should

[4:32]all do it more just be vulnerable be be

[4:35]sensitive allow yourself

[4:39]to be honest with people see where it

[4:43]takes you we're building some Heavenly

[4:45]Gates or

[4:47]something this piece looks difficult to

[4:51]glue

[4:54]here but that just what we must do I'm

[4:57]looking at it through the camera

[5:00]I'm not even a Ponder but I think it

[5:02]goes like

[5:05]this got to leave room down there

[5:07]to clip it to the board over

[5:10]here but we are on step 10

[5:14]here a little confused about these books

[5:17]too it say wood

[5:19]books yeah it's not giving me like it's

[5:23]not telling

[5:25]me you know it doesn't say that it's a

[5:27]D14

[5:29]these must be paper books and those over

[5:32]here I'm G to keep those safe I do love

[5:36]that it seems like you probably have way

[5:38]more books than you need so that you can

[5:41]pick the ones you

[5:42]want which that's really cool cuz

[5:44]there's a lot of cool books over here

[5:46]I'll show

[5:52]you I mean there are just a lot of books

[5:55]way more books that can you possibly put

[5:57]in to this little model

[6:01]and you know they're real

[6:04]books so you know I'm definitely going

[6:07]to look good to

[6:08]use Dante's Inferno over

[6:12]here

[6:18]maybe practical life I wonder what

[6:20]that's about very old book about

[6:23]practical

[6:24]life Grims fairy tales that's a good

[6:28]one oh a second copy of it where is it

[6:32]let's see right

[6:35]there

[6:40]interesting so

[6:42]yeah what do we have there big book or

[6:46]something some

[6:48][Music]

[6:51]newspapers I love this this is just so

[6:54]much fun this

[6:56]is this is not the kind of activity I

[6:59]would have ever thought I would be doing

[7:02]but there's a kind of meditation to it

[7:05]guys it's kind of I got some new guests

[7:08]today there're are

[7:10]neighbors they've been setting up for a

[7:12]few hours they're going to be here for a

[7:14]week made me realize I truly value my

[7:19]solitude and privacy I even asked chat

[7:22]GPT about it and that's what it said

[7:25]it's like you're very sensitive so

[7:27]changes in your environment will have a

[7:29]deeper impact on you it gave me some

[7:32]strategies to basically cope um it

[7:35]really comes down to making physical

[7:37]barriers I need to move my Jeep just so

[7:39]that and I'll think about stuff like

[7:41]that in the future

[7:43]like you could even put up a tar like

[7:46]whatever you have to do to make your

[7:48]campsite feel like it's just you here

[7:51]and you can ignore everyone else cuz

[7:53]everyone deserves to be here you know

[7:56]and should you know I want them to enjoy

[7:57]their time they have

[7:59]a boat so they're probably some kind of

[8:02]boat I don't know what kind of boat it

[8:03]was it was

[8:04]weird um you just have if you're highly

[8:07]sensitive you have to find a way of cuz

[8:10]I mean I'm on here encouraging people to

[8:12]get out of nature so obviously I think

[8:15]it is important I value

[8:19]that I just have to find a way to make

[8:22]it so I don't

[8:25]feel uncomfortable cuz I had a wonderful

[8:28]day but that did change my mood and it's

[8:31]getting better

[8:34]but and it's something I have to work on

[8:37]because I mean this is life there's

[8:39]nothing I can do about it and there's

[8:41]nothing I should do about it I

[8:45]just I have to learn to be

[8:50]more not sure which just

[8:53]why it's not working yet cuz I haven't

[8:56]figured it

[8:58]I no was not so bad I have to figure out

[9:02]what books to

[9:04]use well I'm starting to think they mean

[9:06]this and you actually

[9:08]literally take six of these out and then

[9:11]put the papers on them and I guess

[9:14]that's a wood book because those look 3D

[9:17]to me and I could find nothing that

[9:20]looks like that there's you know that

[9:22]book you can see hanging out to the side

[9:25]there's nothing like that there

[9:30]so I think they must mean

[9:33]these you know when you put the so I

[9:36]guess now is the

[9:37]time here we go and they're like little

[9:41]Scrabble

[9:43]pieces okay so these are not the right

[9:45]ones but these ones over here because

[9:47]you need the book

[9:50]spines so I guess that's what they

[9:55]meant Fight Fire With Fire

[10:00]I mean that had to be our first book

[10:03]right this is so cool it takes a lot of

[10:09]patience those six little books right

[10:11]there took a lot of effort we have Fight

[10:14]Fire with Fire Grim's fairy tales 20,000

[10:17]Leakes Under the Sea King Arthur and the

[10:20]Knights Beauty and the

[10:22]Beast and Al's adventures in

[10:25]winterland and we just have to put them

[10:27]on this bookshelf with glue

[10:31]tried to give them a little bit of

[10:32]character hopefully I

[10:35]succeeded and that's that's it out how

[10:38]we get to put it into the house we're

[10:40]going to have to stop here

[10:42]because you put the little light bulb

[10:45]through it so now you're dealing with

[10:47]wires and the battery and it all goes in

[10:51]there

[10:52]somehow and I was a little bit confused

[10:54]by this

[10:56]so we will start fresh in the next

[10:59]video this is very meditative for me

[11:02]guys I enjoy this which and that's why

[11:04]it's kind of intersperse with my my

[11:06]thoughts because you know you just sit

[11:08]here and you work on this and you think

[11:10]I think I might enjoy doing this I hope

[11:12]you guys do too thanks for listening

Summary

The speaker is working on assembling a dollhouse model kit while camping in a tent with a picnic table setup. He documents his progress building walls, stairs, and a bookshelf, experimenting with different types of glue and learning the craft through trial and error. The model includes miniature books with titles like 'Fight Fire With Fire' and 'Dante's Inferno', and will eventually have lighting installed.

Midway through the session, he reflects on how new campers arriving nearby affected his mood, describing himself as highly sensitive to environmental changes. He consulted ChatGPT for coping strategies and plans to create physical barriers for privacy in future camping situations. Despite the interruption, he finds the model-building meditative and plans to continue the series, noting this type of detailed craft work requires significant patience but provides mental benefits.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission demonstrates the construction of both physical and psychic infrastructure for sustained solitude. The field is learning to build protective barriers and meditative practices while navigating the tension between openness/vulnerability and the necessity of energetic boundaries for highly sensitive systems.

Dominant Language

meditativepatiencevulnerablesensitivesolitudestrugglehonestbarriers

Symbolic Elements

thresholdbookslightbarrierscraftmeditation

Ontological States

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transitional
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sensitive
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building
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vulnerable

Subsystems

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somatic
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emotional
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infrastructural
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cognitive

Transmission Details

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youtube

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