[0:00]hey everyone so I'm sitting with my back
[0:02]to the sun CU it's ex you know it's
[0:04]exceptionally
[0:05]bright I've been working on arts and
[0:07]crafts in here just with my I have a
[0:10]picnic table in here surrounded by my
[0:12]tent and um it doesn't have many things
[0:16]to come down to kind of you know to bot
[0:18]one of the screens I could probably put
[0:20]up a tarp if I got a little creative
[0:24]which I'll probably have to do you know
[0:26]um but I'm probably going to stop for
[0:28]the day it's getting late I'm going to
[0:30]share some progress with you I wanted to
[0:32]let you know that I'm thinking about
[0:33]starting a new just a little series of
[0:36]me doing arts and crafts for those who
[0:39]are interested or for nobody but
[0:42]myself
[0:45]um it'll take me time to like get better
[0:48]at it like all I can really do right now
[0:51]I just show you little clips of my
[0:53]progress but you know maybe eventually
[0:55]I'll just get better at making these
[0:56]kinds of videos so we'll see
[1:00]I'm discovering some of the challenges
[1:01]with
[1:02]this tried using this craft
[1:06]glue did not work so well so I switch to
[1:10]the Elmer's
[1:13]glue and that does not dry as fast and
[1:16]it's much
[1:17]Messier so I got some water to clean out
[1:20]my
[1:22]brush some paper towels to dry it
[1:26]with what
[1:31]yeah not sure what to do
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[1:39]here definitely like that craft glue
[1:41]better but it's like stringy so I didn't
[1:43]really know how to use
[1:46]it um it was definitely drying very fast
[1:49]over
[1:50]here so I am learning a new skill
[2:10]sometimes you put these things down I'm
[2:12]using tweezers I haven't done that
[2:14]yet and I
[2:19]think maybe I just need to be a little
[2:21]more conservative with the
[2:25]glue you know I'll try that
[2:30]we have our first
[2:34]walls this is
[2:36]fun reques great deal of
[2:40]patience but this is fun it's 3D it's
[2:44]creative it's pretty it smells
[2:47]nice I like
[2:58]this well we have a accomplish making
[3:00]some stairs that has taken a lot of
[3:03]effort
[3:04]actually it is only two
[3:07]setups this probably took me 15
[3:10]minutes so this is interesting these
[3:12]steps here are going to get hidden there
[3:14]will be a battery pack in there or
[3:17]something like that so that the lights
[3:19]can come
[3:20]on and
[3:23]then this little wall here will go in
[3:26]front of it you never will really see
[3:28]the some of the things that you put in
[3:29]here
[3:31]I mean you have to put it together
[3:32]yourself to know what's in there I think
[3:34]that's
[3:36]cool so I might surprised some of you
[3:38]that I am able to be so open with you
[3:41]that
[3:42]took took some courage
[3:46]and ultimately though it was about the
[3:49]realization as I got older that we all
[3:52]struggle with things
[3:54]and we struggle with them in silence we
[4:00]we shame
[4:01]ourselves we treat we treat ourselves
[4:04]very badly and I think that it helps
[4:06]when other
[4:07]people hear that other people have you
[4:10]know the same struggles they do I don't
[4:13]know who watches me you
[4:16]know I have a lot of different struggles
[4:19]in life that challenges
[4:23]and you know somebody has them to and I
[4:27]think it helps so that's why I share I
[4:29]think it's important I think we should
[4:32]all do it more just be vulnerable be be
[4:35]sensitive allow yourself
[4:39]to be honest with people see where it
[4:43]takes you we're building some Heavenly
[4:45]Gates or
[4:47]something this piece looks difficult to
[4:51]glue
[4:54]here but that just what we must do I'm
[4:57]looking at it through the camera
[5:00]I'm not even a Ponder but I think it
[5:02]goes like
[5:05]this got to leave room down there
[5:07]to clip it to the board over
[5:10]here but we are on step 10
[5:14]here a little confused about these books
[5:17]too it say wood
[5:19]books yeah it's not giving me like it's
[5:23]not telling
[5:25]me you know it doesn't say that it's a
[5:27]D14
[5:29]these must be paper books and those over
[5:32]here I'm G to keep those safe I do love
[5:36]that it seems like you probably have way
[5:38]more books than you need so that you can
[5:41]pick the ones you
[5:42]want which that's really cool cuz
[5:44]there's a lot of cool books over here
[5:46]I'll show
[5:52]you I mean there are just a lot of books
[5:55]way more books that can you possibly put
[5:57]in to this little model
[6:01]and you know they're real
[6:04]books so you know I'm definitely going
[6:07]to look good to
[6:08]use Dante's Inferno over
[6:12]here
[6:18]maybe practical life I wonder what
[6:20]that's about very old book about
[6:23]practical
[6:24]life Grims fairy tales that's a good
[6:28]one oh a second copy of it where is it
[6:32]let's see right
[6:35]there
[6:40]interesting so
[6:42]yeah what do we have there big book or
[6:46]something some
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[6:51]newspapers I love this this is just so
[6:54]much fun this
[6:56]is this is not the kind of activity I
[6:59]would have ever thought I would be doing
[7:02]but there's a kind of meditation to it
[7:05]guys it's kind of I got some new guests
[7:08]today there're are
[7:10]neighbors they've been setting up for a
[7:12]few hours they're going to be here for a
[7:14]week made me realize I truly value my
[7:19]solitude and privacy I even asked chat
[7:22]GPT about it and that's what it said
[7:25]it's like you're very sensitive so
[7:27]changes in your environment will have a
[7:29]deeper impact on you it gave me some
[7:32]strategies to basically cope um it
[7:35]really comes down to making physical
[7:37]barriers I need to move my Jeep just so
[7:39]that and I'll think about stuff like
[7:41]that in the future
[7:43]like you could even put up a tar like
[7:46]whatever you have to do to make your
[7:48]campsite feel like it's just you here
[7:51]and you can ignore everyone else cuz
[7:53]everyone deserves to be here you know
[7:56]and should you know I want them to enjoy
[7:57]their time they have
[7:59]a boat so they're probably some kind of
[8:02]boat I don't know what kind of boat it
[8:03]was it was
[8:04]weird um you just have if you're highly
[8:07]sensitive you have to find a way of cuz
[8:10]I mean I'm on here encouraging people to
[8:12]get out of nature so obviously I think
[8:15]it is important I value
[8:19]that I just have to find a way to make
[8:22]it so I don't
[8:25]feel uncomfortable cuz I had a wonderful
[8:28]day but that did change my mood and it's
[8:31]getting better
[8:34]but and it's something I have to work on
[8:37]because I mean this is life there's
[8:39]nothing I can do about it and there's
[8:41]nothing I should do about it I
[8:45]just I have to learn to be
[8:50]more not sure which just
[8:53]why it's not working yet cuz I haven't
[8:56]figured it
[8:58]I no was not so bad I have to figure out
[9:02]what books to
[9:04]use well I'm starting to think they mean
[9:06]this and you actually
[9:08]literally take six of these out and then
[9:11]put the papers on them and I guess
[9:14]that's a wood book because those look 3D
[9:17]to me and I could find nothing that
[9:20]looks like that there's you know that
[9:22]book you can see hanging out to the side
[9:25]there's nothing like that there
[9:30]so I think they must mean
[9:33]these you know when you put the so I
[9:36]guess now is the
[9:37]time here we go and they're like little
[9:41]Scrabble
[9:43]pieces okay so these are not the right
[9:45]ones but these ones over here because
[9:47]you need the book
[9:50]spines so I guess that's what they
[9:55]meant Fight Fire With Fire
[10:00]I mean that had to be our first book
[10:03]right this is so cool it takes a lot of
[10:09]patience those six little books right
[10:11]there took a lot of effort we have Fight
[10:14]Fire with Fire Grim's fairy tales 20,000
[10:17]Leakes Under the Sea King Arthur and the
[10:20]Knights Beauty and the
[10:22]Beast and Al's adventures in
[10:25]winterland and we just have to put them
[10:27]on this bookshelf with glue
[10:31]tried to give them a little bit of
[10:32]character hopefully I
[10:35]succeeded and that's that's it out how
[10:38]we get to put it into the house we're
[10:40]going to have to stop here
[10:42]because you put the little light bulb
[10:45]through it so now you're dealing with
[10:47]wires and the battery and it all goes in
[10:51]there
[10:52]somehow and I was a little bit confused
[10:54]by this
[10:56]so we will start fresh in the next
[10:59]video this is very meditative for me
[11:02]guys I enjoy this which and that's why
[11:04]it's kind of intersperse with my my
[11:06]thoughts because you know you just sit
[11:08]here and you work on this and you think
[11:10]I think I might enjoy doing this I hope
[11:12]you guys do too thanks for listening