[0:00]good morning
[0:02]everyone please pardon my appearance
[0:05]this
[0:05]morning haven't been up very long and it
[0:08]is a day of extreme weather out there we
[0:12]had
[0:13]tornado watches and flash flooding
[0:17]watches and I'm right next to a lake all
[0:19]night
[0:21]long um it's not stopped raining I bet
[0:24]you the flighting out there is pretty
[0:26]bad because it was when I looked at it
[0:27]before I went to bed like it's almost
[0:30]like I was on a moat honestly it's cool
[0:33]but
[0:36]scary so I just want to tell you guys
[0:42]that let me try something
[0:45]here so because of this weather right
[0:48]I'm supposed to move camps today and I'm
[0:50]at my 14-day limit so this is not feel
[0:54]like the kind of weather that you
[0:57]would try to travel in or hook your Jeep
[1:01]up to you and toe right all of that so I
[1:04]feel like I learned something never book
[1:06]a stay for the maximum amount of
[1:09]time just in
[1:12]case um there could be lots of lessons
[1:14]here another lesson could be
[1:16]that you just have to be better
[1:19]at knowing what the weather's going to
[1:22]be um the
[1:25]camp manager stopped by yesterday just
[1:29]to tell me that there was a chance for
[1:32]tornadoes and what to
[1:34]do if she came down in her car with her
[1:38]siren blaring or something because she
[1:40]said that's the only way you're going to
[1:43]know you know I guess I that was early
[1:46]in the day and I thought okay you know
[1:51]like you know this is my new my first
[1:54]experience in a
[1:56]camper with weather right like so that's
[1:58]kind of interesting
[2:01]but I didn't obviously she knew you know
[2:05]and that
[2:06]was like I don't know 12 to 16 hours in
[2:11]advance like good long period to
[2:13]probably like 12 hours
[2:15]and so if I had understood what she was
[2:20]telling me maybe I would have just
[2:22]prepared Camp then and then you
[2:25]know so the point of all of this is to
[2:29]say that
[2:33]I'm trying to share with you my
[2:35]authentic
[2:36]experience but to a lot of people that
[2:39]sounds like complaining that's not what
[2:41]I'm doing I'm not complaining I'm just
[2:46]processing what I'm going through in the
[2:48]moment with you guys which isn't
[2:50]something I would normally do as as an
[2:52]infd I'm a very private
[2:56]person but I'm trying to show you that
[2:58]you can just kind of my process and that
[3:01]you can navigate challenges you can
[3:03]overcome
[3:04]things and I don't feel like that's the
[3:06]message that's coming across on my
[3:08]channel it just sounds like
[3:10]complaining it even kind of sounds like
[3:12]that to myself even though I know that's
[3:14]not what I'm
[3:16]doing normally I these are just these
[3:19]are my private thoughts this is how I
[3:21]navigate the
[3:23]world and I have just been super open
[3:26]with you guys and just allowed myself to
[3:30]share that with you that
[3:34]process and I just I don't think it's
[3:36]working
[3:38]so I'm not saying you know goodbye I
[3:42]mean it's not what's happening here but
[3:43]it does mean that I have to really think
[3:46]about what I'm sharing with you how I'm
[3:49]sharing it all of that and it might take
[3:51]me a while to figure that out I mean
[3:54]that's really all you know that's that's
[3:56]all I'm doing here so
[4:01]yeah I don't as far as today I have no
[4:03]idea I'm going to maybe see if I can
[4:05]extend my stay by day just because of
[4:07]the weather this really does not feel
[4:09]like safe weather to be driving in to be
[4:11]trying to break
[4:14]camp but I don't know we'll see how the
[4:17]day goes I
[4:18]guess it might be a while before I post
[4:21]I honestly don't know I feel
[4:23]like the message I'm trying to share
[4:25]with you is not the one that's
[4:27]resonating and
[4:31]I just don't see how that's helpful I
[4:32]mean it takes a lot for me to do this
[4:36]and if what I'm trying to share is not
[4:38]the thing that people are
[4:40]seeing then it's probably best for me
[4:43]honestly
[4:45]to to just not do that and maybe find a
[4:49]different way of sharing with you so I
[4:52]hope you guys have a good morning thank
[4:54]you