Morning Check-in from Campsite with Fog

Early morning (6:00 AM) at a campsite location with heavy fog conditions. The speaker is in their RV dealing with sleep deprivation from an uncomfortable mattress and processing recent experiences with online therapy services. They're in an active transition period, implementing various health changes while adjusting to mobile living.

Energetic Signature

steady recalibration

Field State

early stabilization

Orientation

toward embodied sovereignty

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May 7, 2024

11:01

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:28]for for

[1:15]good

[1:16]morning 6:00 here

[1:19]again woke up around like 5:45 I think

[1:24]didn't want to get up going to be

[1:27]honest I don't think I'm getting enough

[1:29]sleep

[1:33]that bad is a a

[1:35]challenge because I know how you guys

[1:37]are you're very sweet I'm just going to

[1:40]say don't worry I'll figure it out um I

[1:43]just

[1:45]haven't there's a couple options I just

[1:48]haven't pursued them full

[1:50]yet but I'm going to try to find a

[1:52]temporary one because I actually have

[1:53]back pain I've never had back pain in my

[1:55]whole life it is the worst bed ever I

[1:59]can't believe that Manu I mean I knew

[2:01]they were bad but wow they're bad

[2:04]they're

[2:05]awful so when I go to Walmart which I'm

[2:08]going to do this morning I will find

[2:11]something to just temporarily help

[2:15]maybe cuz I want to get the right

[2:17]mattress you have to measure the thing

[2:19]and you know it has to be hinge at a

[2:24]certain spot and based on

[2:27]your you know your your and how much

[2:30]space you have like it's just got to

[2:33]work through some stuff that I'm just

[2:34]not real good at

[2:37]so

[2:40]um yeah I mean you spend that much money

[2:43]on a camp for you should have a better

[2:45]bed it's crazy worst beted I've ever SLE

[2:48]I bet I'd sleep better on the floor

[2:49]truly I think I would I even thought

[2:52]about it it's really that

[2:55]bad so I'd say I'm doing pretty good um

[3:00]I'm just briefly going to share a

[3:02]interesting story with you so I signed

[3:05]up for better help I told you guys I

[3:07]would

[3:08]and then immediately cancelled like the

[3:11]next day I was like no I don't want to

[3:13]do this actually and I got matched with

[3:16]a therapist this morning

[3:19]and wow she was rude to me like in her

[3:22]very first message I could not believe

[3:24]it it was really bad she made therapy

[3:28]about herself instead of about me cuz I

[3:30]had mentioned I have a YouTube

[3:32]channel it's just a thing I started

[3:34]doing when I embarked on this new change

[3:38]in my life this new

[3:40]chapter and she said something like she

[3:43]can and won't be on YouTube you weren't

[3:46]going to me why therapy is supposed to

[3:50]be about

[3:51]me now I can understand why to set a

[3:54]boundary like that but the way it was

[3:56]worded the way it was said was not not

[3:59]good like I could already tell I would

[4:01]not like this the therapist

[4:04]so

[4:07]um if I learned something in therapy

[4:10]yeah I'm going to talk about it right

[4:12]why wouldn't I not going to bring up

[4:14]your name why would I do that that just

[4:17]it's crazy to

[4:20]me I think that's more about her own

[4:23]insecurities than

[4:24]mine and it just got me think cuz I was

[4:27]debating like maybe

[4:30]because they have the service for a

[4:31]month now there's really nothing I can

[4:32]do about

[4:34]it um might as well give it a try see if

[4:38]it works out it's kind of expensive

[4:40]though I feel like for what they're

[4:44]offering

[4:46]um I don't know I mean I guess you know

[4:49]I don't know enough about it to really

[4:52]but it didn't feel

[4:54]like it just felt like any online tool

[4:57]that you know

[5:00]it didn't feel like better help to me I

[5:02]just it really didn't so I just

[5:03]immediate was like this is probably not

[5:05]for me this is if I'm going to find a

[5:07]therapist maybe needs to be more

[5:11]traditional I just that's my honest

[5:13]opinion you know that's what I share

[5:16]here

[5:19]so this is a very interesting

[5:23]morning I haven't seen it like this

[5:25]before all this fog

[5:29]really know what causes

[5:35]fog you know cuz it rained last night

[5:38]like it's rain many nights

[5:42]so I don't

[5:44]know so I'm trying to quit smoking

[5:48]decided

[5:49]yesterday you know but I'm replacing it

[5:52]with vaping so it's not

[5:54]like um and I did that the whole way

[5:56]home 3 and a half hours

[6:00]I did that once before it actually

[6:01]worked for me then I got a little

[6:04]freaked out by all the kids that were

[6:05]going to the hospitals until they

[6:06]figured out what that was about but I

[6:09]didn't know I learned about that like a

[6:10]year later or something like when they

[6:13]discovered what was really going

[6:16]on I do think it's a healthier option

[6:19]it's just a step towards quitting you

[6:20]know completely I was thinking maybe if

[6:22]I started doing that and I was just

[6:25]vaping then I could start wearing a

[6:28]patch and then maybe I would Vape less

[6:30]and

[6:31]then maybe I could quit like

[6:34]do guess the wrong the same lines I'm

[6:37]thinking about switching to Pepsi so out

[6:40]do my parents drink Pepsi and so it's

[6:43]like been a part of my households like

[6:46]my whole life my whole life definitely

[6:50]and like I don't hate it it's just not

[6:52]my favorite thing but it

[6:54]is I think it is not as bad as Mountain

[6:57]Dew there's just something about

[6:58]Mountain Dew that is

[7:01]even

[7:02]more toxic like it's

[7:08]just I think I I think I would like that

[7:11]change and

[7:13]then I'm not going to keep working on

[7:15]that though I want to give up pop

[7:16]completely

[7:20]but oh this is cool

[7:35][Music]

[7:44]you know what's the I mean that's

[7:46]just a cool

[7:49]image good morning I assume that's a

[7:52]fisherman or fisher

[7:58]woman this is is an adjustment

[8:01]guys this is a different way of

[8:04]living change is

[8:07]slow like I'm doing a lot

[8:10]but they're just impulses I haven't

[8:13]turned them into

[8:19]habits I don't know why I couldn't do

[8:20]this at home I literally had to get out

[8:23]of my

[8:26]house couldn't do it change wouldn't

[8:28]come I tried like feel like this is

[8:33]different even in the fog the sun's

[8:36]pretty bright I love thinking about the

[8:38]sun cuz I mean everything's powered by

[8:40]it everything the

[8:43]planets

[8:45]it you know everything on Earth

[8:49]is needs it everything

[8:55]does giant ball of energy just it's

[8:58]pretty cool

[9:00]it's just solid fire

[9:03]right the sun is

[9:10]awesome so yeah this is just

[9:15]a another new beginning new

[9:18]day and my mind is

[9:22]still focused on getting

[9:27]better and

[9:31]it's

[9:34]definitely where my mind needs to be I

[9:37]don't have to have all the answers yet I

[9:39]don't know what I'm doing with my life I

[9:41]truly have no idea but it's

[9:44]okay those trees are beautiful and my

[9:46]camera does not do this stuff

[9:49]Justice look these trees they're just

[9:52]beautiful

[10:06]I wasn't tell yesterday I was like wow

[10:08]my camera really is

[10:10]not ideal for filming

[10:16]nature you know so which is not you know

[10:19]I guess it's not real

[10:22]surprising why I'm not a professional

[10:24]photographer right

[10:26]so I want you to see it the way I see it

[10:29]get this camera doesn't do that don't

[10:33]know what to do about

[10:35]that truly doesn't I really discovered

[10:38]that yesterday everything I was looking

[10:40]at and then I'd look at the screen I'm

[10:42]like they just not even close not even

[10:50]close so I'm just going to get my day

[10:53]started I hope you guys have very good

[10:55]Tuesday thanks for listening

Summary

The speaker begins their morning at 6:00 AM after waking at 5:45, reporting sleep difficulties due to an extremely uncomfortable RV mattress that's causing back pain for the first time in their life. They plan to visit Walmart to find a temporary mattress solution while researching proper RV mattress specifications.

They share an experience with BetterHelp, having signed up and immediately cancelled, but received a therapist match who made an unprofessional first impression by focusing on herself rather than the client, specifically regarding the speaker's YouTube channel. The therapist stated she wouldn't appear on YouTube, which the speaker found inappropriately worded and self-centered.

The speaker discusses health changes they're implementing: switching from cigarettes to vaping as a step toward quitting completely, potentially adding nicotine patches, and considering switching from Mountain Dew to Pepsi as a less toxic option before eventually eliminating soda entirely.

They observe heavy fog around their campsite, noting it as unusual, and spot what appears to be a fisherman in the distance. The speaker reflects on being in an adjustment period, acknowledging that change is slow and they're working on turning impulses into habits. They express that they couldn't make these changes at home and had to leave their house to create change.

The transmission includes observations about the sun as a source of all planetary energy and complaints about their camera's inability to capture the natural beauty they're witnessing, particularly the trees around their location.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission maps the somatic reality of structural change - the body as primary feedback system for alignment assessment. The field is establishing new baseline conditions while maintaining coherent self-observation, treating discomfort as signal rather than problem to be solved.

Dominant Language

change is slowimpulses not habitscouldn't do this at homenew beginningdon't have all the answers yetgetting better

Symbolic Elements

sunfogfirethresholdmirror

Ontological States

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transitional
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embodied
•
coherent
•
integrating

Subsystems

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somatic
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infrastructural
•
cognitive
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ethical

Transmission Details

Source Type

local

Video Quality

1280 × 720 @ 30fps

Duration

11:01

Bitrate

948 kbps

Codec

avc1.4d401f