Experiencing Medication Withdrawal Symptoms Return

Speaker is in an RV, having moved there with intentions to change his lifestyle completely. He's dealing with recurring withdrawal symptoms and reflecting on decades-long medication use. Currently taking minimal doses of prescribed medications and planning to eliminate them entirely.

Energetic Signature

resolute frustration

Field State

institutional rupture processing

Orientation

away from medical dependency toward natural sovereignty

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May 5, 2024

8:16

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

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[0:02]I'm having physical withdrawal symptoms

[0:04]again I can't believe it I asked chat

[0:07]GPT about it and it's apparently normal

[0:10]it's been over a week and they just

[0:13]decided to come back because there's

[0:15]probably an imbalance in my brain of you

[0:18]know my

[0:19]neurotransmitters I am just frustrated

[0:23]like I did not

[0:27]know that this this would happen you

[0:29]know

[0:31]and I I'm just sitting here thinking

[0:32]like I didn't tell you guys what it was

[0:35]like those first three days were

[0:38]terrible I didn't sleep at all and you

[0:41]just lay in your bed and you go through

[0:43]all these physical symptoms and you just

[0:45]sit there

[0:46]and just want to sleep you know I tried

[0:50]everything I would put on like you know

[0:53]music from YouTube That's meant for

[0:55]sleeping and like you're on all these

[0:58]you know over the- counter medic ations

[1:00]to manage symptoms

[1:03]and um you're taking sedatives to try to

[1:06]sleep nothing's

[1:08]working and you know by the second night

[1:12]you're

[1:13]like you're just desperate for

[1:16]sleep and you still don't get it and

[1:19]then the third night you're just you're

[1:20]just absolutely frustrated because

[1:23]you're still not sleeping and you just

[1:25]just need it you just need to sleep

[1:30]that's what I went through it was

[1:31]horrible I hated it I was so glad when

[1:34]that was over and now it's back I'm just

[1:37]like

[1:39]what I mean obviously you know it isn't

[1:43]like you know 3 days of not sleeping

[1:45]it's just you know I should have been in

[1:47]bed a couple of hours ago

[1:50]but I didn't know they would come back I

[1:53]didn't know that was possible I

[1:56]feel I feel so uninformed

[2:00]and so I was thinking about my doctor

[2:02]and how he told me that this was just a

[2:07]very mild

[2:10]opian and very easy to get off of I mean

[2:14]those are his

[2:14][Music]

[2:16]words

[2:19]I I made a

[2:21]video

[2:23]about um something about being careful

[2:25]about what you tell your doctor if you

[2:27]move into an RV because what happened to

[2:29]me

[2:30]you know it turn he tells me now that it

[2:33]was just a misunderstanding with his

[2:35]staff I don't I don't believe

[2:37]that you know I don't believe that but

[2:40]you know let him you know he's trying to

[2:43]make nice with me for whatever reason

[2:45]and um there's no point in me telling

[2:48]him I don't believe him because I mean

[2:50]what good will that do but I don't I

[2:52]don't believe him

[2:56]and I'm really surprised that this man

[3:00]that I've known for

[3:02]decades he's not incompetent so he knew

[3:06]what he was saying to me wasn't

[3:08]true and I don't know what to make of

[3:11]that and the point I'm trying to get to

[3:13]here though is you know there are a lot

[3:15]of comments on that video that one was

[3:18]one of like my most watched videos just

[3:21]I never would have thought that it just

[3:23]was and um there were a lot of comments

[3:26]from people that I didn't agree with

[3:29]like cuz they would you know it got into

[3:31]conspiracy theorist territory like you

[3:34]know it's

[3:37]like I just don't go down those rabbit

[3:39]holes you know I don't and I didn't

[3:42]respond to them I just kind of left them

[3:45]be but I mean now I'm like in the state

[3:50]I'm in I'm sitting here thinking are

[3:51]they right like are they

[3:55]because I don't know how to make sense

[3:57]of that I truly don't

[4:02]so I'll be fine you know I'll be fine um

[4:06]it's just frustrating that's all it's

[4:09]just really really

[4:10]frustrating from my point of view

[4:14]um to think that you're beyond something

[4:17]and then to discover you're not and to

[4:20]still be managing a situation like this

[4:23]cuz I just want to get back to my old

[4:25]self you know I this is just

[4:28]not I'm I missed the old mean I truly

[4:31]miss the old

[4:32]mean um this has also made me think that

[4:36]I don't want to take any medications

[4:38]ever again ever again

[4:41]because if my doctor was

[4:44]this he wasn't honest with me there's no

[4:47]other way to put

[4:49]that how can I trusted he was honest

[4:52]about anything now you know that's kind

[4:54]of where my head is now you know

[4:57]disclaimer I'm going through a ra I

[5:00]don't know that you can trust anything

[5:01]I'm

[5:02]saying

[5:05]um technically I'm supposed to take a

[5:08]cholesterol and a blood pressure

[5:10]medicine I never really do sometimes I

[5:13]try and you know that might last a week

[5:15]or two and then I stopped taking it and

[5:18]it's always been like

[5:19]that um so that's probably not a problem

[5:24]I'm I'm just going to stop taking them

[5:25]I'm I moved into this camper with the

[5:28]intentions of completely changing the

[5:30]way I live my life so um I'm going to

[5:34]get healthy and I'm going to do it the

[5:35]you know the natural way I know I am I

[5:39]believe that like to the core of my

[5:42]being I believe that that leaves one

[5:44]medication and that's clopin and I'm

[5:47]taking a/4 milligram of that now once a

[5:50]day

[5:53]um and I realized I've been taking that

[5:56]for 20 years 20 years because I was 27

[6:01]years old when I had my first panic

[6:04]attack when I developed a fear of

[6:06]choking to death and I had these

[6:10]thoughts that just completely prevented

[6:12]me from being able to eat anything

[6:14]without thinking I was just going to

[6:16]die and I got on this medication and I'd

[6:20]been on it all of this time two decades

[6:23]now um at at the peak I took 1 and 12

[6:27]milligrams every day I take a qu of a

[6:29]milligram now it's a lot less and I

[6:33]wasn't even trying that just just just

[6:35]happened like over time it just just

[6:37]happened I don't even know how it

[6:38]happened I just when day was like wow I

[6:41]barely take any of this anymore and now

[6:45]the thoughts are gone they're not there

[6:47]anymore even during all the time I took

[6:50]the

[6:51]clownin

[6:53]my the fear was always there the

[6:55]thoughts were always there but they

[6:57]couldn't control me anymore I mean it

[6:58]was like Amer drug to

[7:02]me but those thoughts are gone so I'm I

[7:05]think

[7:06]like it's just time to get off

[7:08]everything I I

[7:10]don't I don't want to take anything

[7:14]but I'd have withdraw from that too you

[7:17]know I've been taking it for two

[7:20]decades I'm not going to compound my

[7:23]problems right now so I don't know what

[7:27]to do but I'll tell you this much I'm

[7:28]never seeing my doctor again I'm never

[7:30]seeing that man again um that is

[7:33]definitely where my head is now and I'm

[7:36]not sure I'll ever see any doctor ever

[7:38]again and I never thought I will be the

[7:41]kind of person who says that

[7:44]truly after this experience I don't see

[7:46]how I could think any differently truly

[7:48]I don't know how I

[7:50]could so that's how I'm feeling very

[7:54]very

[7:55]frustrated and knowing that at some

[7:58]point in the

[8:00]future I'm going to have to taper off of

[8:04]the very last medication I'm taking CU I

[8:07]don't want to take any of them ever

[8:11]again I just want to get back to my old

[8:13]self

Summary

rswfire reports experiencing physical withdrawal symptoms over a week after initial cessation, describing severe insomnia and physical distress during the first three days. He consulted ChatGPT about the symptoms and learned they can return due to neurotransmitter imbalances. He reflects on his doctor's characterization of the medication as a "mild opioid" that would be "easy to get off of," which he now questions given his experience.

He references a previous video about being careful what to tell doctors when moving into an RV, noting it became one of his most-watched videos with conspiracy theory comments he didn't engage with. The withdrawal experience has made him reconsider those perspectives.

rswfire declares his intention to never see his doctor again and avoid all medications in the future. He's currently taking cholesterol and blood pressure medications sporadically, plus Klonopin (0.25mg daily) which he's been on for 20 years since developing panic attacks and choking fears at age 27. He notes the panic thoughts have disappeared but acknowledges he would face withdrawal from Klonopin as well.

He expresses frustration at not being "back to his old self" and commits to getting healthy naturally as part of his RV lifestyle change.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission documents the collapse of medical institutional trust as a catalyst for sovereign self-determination. The field is processing betrayal not as emotional wound but as structural information, using withdrawal symptoms as signal to recalibrate toward complete medical independence and natural health sovereignty.

Dominant Language

I don't believe himnever againget back to my old selfhe wasn't honest with menatural way20 yearswithdrawal symptoms

Symbolic Elements

withdrawalsleep deprivationcamper/threshold spacedecadesold self

Ontological States

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rupturing
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sovereign
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transitional
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integrating

Subsystems

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somatic
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cognitive
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ethical
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infrastructural

Transmission Details

Source Type

local

Video Quality

1920 × 1080 @ 30fps

Duration

8:16

Bitrate

1408 kbps

Codec

avc1.640028