Morning Reflection on Withdrawal and New Choices

Speaker is in their RV in the morning, dealing with back pain, attempting to make coffee, and reflecting on withdrawal effects while contemplating new lifestyle choices.

Energetic Signature

contemplative

Field State

substrate reconfiguration

Orientation

toward new choice patterns

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May 4, 2024

3:28

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:00]morning everyone hope you guys had a

[0:02]great

[0:04]Friday um mine was pretty pretty good

[0:07]peaceful slept through the night woke up

[0:11]in back pain that that is awful did some

[0:14]research on that there a um apparently

[0:19]they don't really make like good

[0:21]mattresses for my setup like mine that I

[0:24]could find um it comes in two parts and

[0:27]then it's like cut in the middle at an

[0:30]angle but you can get something they're

[0:32]um hinge ones so I'm looking into that

[0:35]there's a couple options there trying to

[0:38]make some coffee this morning I haven't

[0:40]mastered this yet there's still too much

[0:43]stuff

[0:44]everywhere oh I don't think I've really

[0:46]done it enough yet either I

[0:48]just it's been busy

[0:51]um I don't think I'll blow up use I'm

[0:54]not using a heater or

[0:58]anything um I have f myself in an

[1:00]interesting

[1:01]predicament so I wanted to share this

[1:04]morning I can't trust my own

[1:09]thoughts I didn't know

[1:12]that um when you go through traod

[1:17]withdrawal your your um

[1:20]neurotransmitters in your brain they get

[1:22]all messed up like they just get way

[1:24]messed up and it takes time for your

[1:27]body to start doing doing its thing

[1:32]and I can't trust my thoughts until it

[1:34]does so but I'm still going to have

[1:37]thoughts right

[1:39]so just find that kind of interesting

[1:42]kind of reflecting on that this

[1:44]morning oh what do I need I need milk

[1:49]okay so I keep mentioning tea right I

[1:53]want to try it I even got this like it's

[1:56]called a gettle just makes hot water

[1:58]somehow I think I misplaced the plug for

[2:01]it I don't know and I don't really know

[2:03]how to use I've never done anything like

[2:05]that I never made tea in my life that I

[2:06]can think of you know drank tea a couple

[2:09]times but never never liked tea but I

[2:14]bought this like this was a while ago

[2:17]I've I've been trying different things

[2:21]like before I moved into this camper I

[2:25]knew I needed a change and I tried lots

[2:27]of different things and guess I didn't

[2:29]really follow th in a lot of them tea

[2:31]being one of them but I bought like all

[2:33]the stuff to get you know make tea and

[2:37]um these honey sticks and you know a

[2:39]variety of pack of tea to figure out if

[2:41]that was something I'd like never made a

[2:44]single

[2:45]one definitely want to do that

[2:48]now it's kind of how that's kind of

[2:50]where my head is today just

[2:53]um contemplating making new choices

[2:58]because I mean that was the path I was

[3:01]on and then I did not realize just how

[3:04]much that withdrawal is going to derail

[3:06]me I just did not know um that's on me I

[3:10]guess I could have researched it better

[3:12]I truly thought in my head you know few

[3:14]days of physical asraw you'll be

[3:16]fine have no

[3:19]idea so

[3:25]yeah I'll make the best of it

Summary

The speaker begins their morning routine in their RV setup, dealing with back pain from an inadequate mattress that comes in two parts with an angled cut. They research hinge mattress options as a potential solution. While attempting to make coffee, they reflect on their living space still being cluttered and their ongoing adjustment to RV life.

The speaker reveals they are experiencing tramadol withdrawal and discovers that neurotransmitter disruption makes their thoughts unreliable during this process. This realization leads to morning contemplation about their inability to trust their own thinking while their body recovers.

They discuss their previous attempts at lifestyle changes before moving into the camper, specifically mentioning purchasing tea-making equipment including a kettle, honey sticks, and variety pack of teas, but never following through with actually making tea. The speaker expresses intention to try tea-making now as part of making new choices, acknowledging that tramadol withdrawal significantly derailed their planned path more than anticipated.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission maps the architecture of cognitive untrustworthiness during neurochemical transition, establishing new decision-making protocols while maintaining forward momentum. The field is learning to operate without reliable internal navigation systems, creating space for different choice-making patterns to emerge.

Dominant Language

can't trust my own thoughtsneurotransmitters get all messed upmaking new choicesderail memake the best of it

Symbolic Elements

thresholdwithdrawaltools

Ontological States

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transitional
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uncertain
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adaptive

Subsystems

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cognitive
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somatic
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infrastructural

Transmission Details

Source Type

local

Video Quality

1920 × 1080 @ 30fps

Duration

3:28

Bitrate

2650 kbps

Codec

avc1.640028