Coastal Campground Walk During Medication Withdrawal

rswfire is staying at Salt Lake Campground on the coast in late April 2024, experiencing medication withdrawal and recent life transitions. He's in an RV with two cats, dealing with the adjustment to confined living space and grieving the loss of his previous home situation.

Energetic Signature

tender resilience

Field State

threshold crossing

Orientation

toward embodied sovereignty

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April 29, 2024

20:41

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Author

rswfire

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ARCHIVED

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TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

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[0:01]I just decided to sit over here kind of

[0:04]look at my life from a

[0:06]distance this is what I

[0:08]created the past

[0:12]month New Life Choices led me

[0:20]here it's remarkable

[0:23]honestly it's not a bad thing for

[0:26]sure and that's a good life over there

[0:32]and it will get better I

[0:35]just have to get through this withdrawal

[0:37]it's real tough but I'm trying to have a

[0:39]positive attitude about it doing my

[0:47]best it's my

[0:51]life my cat's

[0:53]Lives real tough with them they're both

[0:56]inside sleeping probably didn't sleep so

[0:58]well last night it was not a good night

[1:00]for any of us it's a very small space

[1:03]nowhere to go

[1:05]and I mean just get away from The

[1:08]Madness of last night it was

[1:10]awful so they're hanging out inside not

[1:14]sure if it's too hot for them or it's a

[1:16]little hot out but that could just be me

[1:21]like yeah it's been

[1:24]tough sure it's beautiful

[1:27]here nice coastline

[1:30]nice spot to just

[1:32]chill couldn't stay longer though uh

[1:35]somebody had booked it so I'll be out of

[1:38]here on

[1:46]Thursday not really

[1:53]sure trying to figure out like what do I

[1:55]really want to do like

[2:08]it's not a day for decisions let's leave

[2:10]it at

[2:12]that today is a day of just embracing

[2:16]every moment and whatever comes just

[2:19]letting your body process it your mind

[2:22]and probably sound ridiculous but I am

[2:26]not clearheaded that's for sure

[2:32]that tree does have a nice

[2:36]spot it's really missing my mom earlier

[2:40]I was chatting with her and just got

[2:42]really

[2:45]sad she spent a lot of time with me at

[2:48]my house I'm going to miss her a

[2:51]lot that's the one part that sucks the

[2:54]most really is I love her so much

[3:00]can't imagine a life without

[3:03][Music]

[3:13]her seems like a good

[3:17]night shall we try going for a

[3:21]walk oh I don't have any

[3:25]Pockets I don't let her so

[3:30]guess it stays with

[3:33]me let just go for a little walk shall

[3:37]we let me reset this

[3:42]thing there we

[3:47]go over there are like a probably a

[3:51]shower house go around this corner

[3:53]probably see

[3:56]it I think you can just cut through

[4:04]this place was full this

[4:10]weekend every single spot was

[4:20]taken it's been a while since I did

[4:23]this I have to get better at if I'm

[4:26]taking you along with

[4:28]me oh it's been a while it's been

[4:38]years

[4:41]try

[4:43]I us like every

[4:46]day um there's this place called raven

[4:49]run in Lexington every day four

[4:53]miles sometimes six depending if I took

[4:55]this other Trail pretty difficult I mean

[4:59]for four miles was pretty difficult took

[5:01]2

[5:02]hours um I did it every

[5:05]day one time I went to New

[5:08]Jersey um visit some clients there kind

[5:11]of told you guys about this a little bit

[5:13]I had bought a pop-up

[5:15]camper and cuz I was planning to go and

[5:18]explore the

[5:19]country because all the State national

[5:21]parks make a Blog about it way before

[5:23]anybody else was doing that kind of

[5:26]thing and I was going to call it

[5:28]wanderlust.com

[5:29]I had that in no main for a

[5:33]while I think this is the boat ramps

[5:36]actually so should bring my drone out

[5:39]should

[5:40]I anyway so this is kind of funny

[5:45]story I remember going on a trail there

[5:47]cuz you know I was really into hiking

[5:49]back

[5:50]then got on this

[5:53]Trail um it was up a

[5:55]mountain I was so out of breath by the

[5:57]time I got halfway up that thing I could

[5:59]barely

[6:00]move I made it to the top start coming

[6:02]down and I see this old man with a dog I

[6:06]mean I'm talking old this man was

[6:08]old he's just walking up that thing like

[6:11]it was nothing to him and I was like Wow

[6:15]and I thought I was in shape

[6:17]right I don't

[6:21]know I really liked him you know he

[6:23]seems so cool because he must have been

[6:25]doing that like

[6:27]forever he just made me think like

[6:32]like we can do a lot more than we think

[6:35]we

[6:37]can seems like most people are inside

[6:40]it's pretty hot out today but I need to

[6:42]be

[6:44]outside here's a lot of boat ramps

[6:46]around

[6:47]here no

[6:50]boats oh my God could you see me getting

[6:53]a boat and towing that off my Jeep or

[6:56]something I would love that

[6:59]then everywhere I go I'd have to have a

[7:01]lake with

[7:03]me and learn how to use a

[7:06]boat if I do that

[7:09]someday

[7:12]maybe

[7:15]hi pretty

[7:19]dogs let's go look at this map up

[7:23]here this does not look like a place for

[7:25]showering it's more like a place

[7:28]to just here has a

[7:32]restroom I don't

[7:34]know somewhere here you're allowed to

[7:36]you're allowed to play with drones one

[7:40]spot it's not on the map though I

[7:46]looked see what we got

[7:49]here Salt Lake

[7:53]Campground okay restroom and Sh in like

[7:56]a Canan blue oh way up here

[8:01]okay so only one oh there's one here too

[8:04]though

[8:06]okay see where are

[8:10]we I am on site

[8:15]77 right

[8:19]here we didn't travel far well that's

[8:22]okay so it's other way it's yeah it's

[8:25]one right across from me okay cool

[8:29]all

[8:31]right so if I keep

[8:35]going is that where's the boat dog like

[8:38]are we down

[8:39]here no we can't

[8:45]be we're up here I bet yeah we're up

[8:49]here other way oh I'm heading towards oh

[8:53]right I am this is how I take my

[8:56]Jeep okay that's the dumping station

[8:59]there

[9:01]definitely been planning to go

[9:07]there so yeah that's the other

[9:11]way what is this thing

[9:13]here dumpster

[9:17]okay I Ed

[9:24]that I mean there's lots of stuff to do

[9:26]around here guys

[9:29]this don't feel

[9:43]ready interesting sightway over there

[9:46]right on the lake like me

[9:48]but also near the boat

[9:53]ramps I think I smoke more than I used

[9:56]to definitely making it it's hurting the

[10:00]house got to do something about

[10:03]that I'm going to get out here I'm going

[10:06]to start

[10:08]hiking I think it's the greatest

[10:10]activity on Earth don't ask me why I

[10:13]just do

[10:30]I'm really not a people

[10:37]person it's not off

[10:41]here sure there's lots of nice people

[10:43]around

[10:44]here I have lots interesting stories

[10:48]like that woman's camping next to

[10:50]me and I'm curious about her

[10:55]life cuz you know

[10:57]she's got a done just for using as a

[11:00]restroom like I mean she's

[11:03]really got her life worked out drive a

[11:07]truck set up

[11:09]camping she had a campfire going last

[11:12]night got my windows down on that side

[11:15]just to give her

[11:20]privacy that I suspect she's got a very

[11:23]interesting story to

[11:25]tell but I also think she wants to be

[11:27]alone so I left her alone

[11:35]it's been so long he to do this all the

[11:38]time when I was

[11:39]younger just looking at tree

[11:42]lines it's such a wonderful

[11:47]thing truly

[11:50]is

[11:51]always trying to find that part of me

[11:54]again guys trying so

[11:56]hard cuz that always made me happy

[12:04]always I don't know

[12:07]why I don't know I think Modern Life

[12:09]just really screwed me

[12:12]up you know and I'm going through this

[12:15]grieving process now and this medication

[12:21]withdraw it's a little hard

[12:24]to drum up some positivity but I'm

[12:27]trying

[12:29]doing my best I

[12:32]am here's my site over here I mean it's

[12:36]pretty freaking awesome isn't it I mean

[12:39]wow what kind of what a

[12:42]life with my cats super hard with

[12:47]them it is going to go this way away

[12:50]from the

[12:51]car

[12:54]um you know it's just a small space and

[12:58]I also want make sure they're

[13:00]happy why is this guy turning here

[13:04]trying to get away from

[13:07]you it's Park

[13:14]management

[13:21]hello maybe

[13:25]not way over here is that some kind of

[13:28]envir thing I don't

[13:33]know but

[13:35]yeah I got to embrace this look at that

[13:38]I got my Jeep I got my

[13:41]camper I want to embrace

[13:44]this how could I

[13:46]not it's so

[13:52]awesome I want my cat to be

[13:56]happy really do

[13:59]I want them to love this just wonder if

[14:02]they'd be happier with my

[14:03]mom they seem pretty okay over

[14:07]there just don't

[14:09]know such a hard

[14:11]decision you want to do what's best for

[14:17]them just don't

[14:19]know wish that that answer would come

[14:24]soon but here's my leveling job I

[14:27]thought I was so unlevel should have

[14:29]just looked right like uh like like

[14:32]visually instead of relying on the

[14:34]bubble

[14:36]thing I maybe I would have realized I'm

[14:38]not that

[14:40]unlevel oh she's

[14:43]gone oh wow I didn't realize

[14:48]that well guess I'm not going to hear a

[14:52]story whoever you are I hope that you

[14:54]are living living a blessed life I think

[14:57]that you probably are though

[15:01]so I guess it's just us

[15:04]now

[15:09]um just want to check out what the

[15:11]shower situation is

[15:13]like so I have this blue bag that I

[15:17]found at Walmart with my mom it was so

[15:19]beautiful I just had to have it and I

[15:22]thought it'd become my main it's like a

[15:23]duffel bag I thought it' become my main

[15:26]bag I carried with me everywhere

[15:29]couldn't find a use for it and then

[15:31]today I realized that's probably my

[15:32]shower

[15:33]back put some stuff in there cuz you

[15:37]know I mean if I'm on a campground I

[15:39]might as well make use of it

[15:42]right

[15:45]um it's a little intimidating you know

[15:48]public

[15:49]showers I remember those experiences

[15:51]from the Boy Scouts and I didn't like

[15:55]them but

[15:59]and from moving from Michigan to Arizona

[16:03]with my parents fourth

[16:05]grade a school bus we drove down there

[16:09]stayed on koas

[16:12]and wasn't an experience I

[16:14]liked that part you know the public

[16:19]restrooms um I don't know don't know

[16:23]what it is with me and people I can talk

[16:25]to you through a

[16:27]camera and I can talk to one-onone put

[16:30]me in a group though or some kind of

[16:31]setting

[16:32]that's it'ss

[16:35]hard for

[16:38]me um what a cool

[16:41]tree big

[16:44]tree very big

[16:54]tree well you can't tell me this isn't

[16:56]peaceful I mean look at this

[16:59]wow

[17:00]I'm living on a

[17:03]campground be right back it's just me in

[17:07]here and that giant

[17:13]mosquito

[17:14]yeah I remember this life you don't even

[17:18]have

[17:19]like oh okay there

[17:21]is like people just walk in on

[17:25]you I don't look so

[17:29]clean

[17:31]right oh

[17:33]God now manage where are a lot of these

[17:38]things everywhere

[17:47]gross well I guess that's why I do my

[17:50]showering though I need to I feel it

[17:54]like I'm just

[18:00]this has got to get easier and this is

[18:02]the withdrawal talking I guess just got

[18:04]to get

[18:06]easier it will pass it will pass I keep

[18:09]telling myself it will

[18:18]pass

[18:26]yeah thinking about changing the name of

[18:29]my channel to the world according to

[18:32]Sam kind of stole that

[18:39]from I'm sorry I can't think of a name

[18:42]right now so

[18:44]terrible

[18:47]um you know who you are you're out here

[18:50]with me I do think about

[18:54]you Carl hi Carl if you're watching

[18:59]kind of stole that from something Carl

[19:01]said about another Channel you saw I'm

[19:04]kind of thinking

[19:05]like world according to Sam or fire or

[19:08]something like that I've always call My

[19:10]Fire online RSW fire RSW my

[19:16]initials um and I've had that same

[19:18]screen

[19:20]name well since the dawn of the

[19:24]internet I'll never change

[19:27]it um

[19:32]yeah I'm going to try

[19:34]to scrun up some bathroom stuff and take

[19:37]a

[19:39]shower I like that I can do that instead

[19:42]of wasting water in my

[19:46]tanks it's not so bad when it's you know

[19:49]weekday maybe I become a weekend

[19:51]boondocker I don't

[19:54]know you know what I could see me doing

[19:57]that why

[20:00]not I stay at the campgrounds Monday

[20:02]through

[20:04]Thursday you know top up my solar

[20:08]and you know and drain my tanks all that

[20:12]kind of thing get fresh water in them

[20:15]whatever yeah and then go somewhere

[20:19]spend Friday through Sunday somewhere

[20:20]else well I guess Sundays you could show

[20:23]up everybody leaves that

[20:25]daybe it's Sunday through Thurs yeah

[20:28]Sunday through

[20:30]Thursday campg grounder and then Friday

[20:34]and Saturday I'm

[20:36]boond trying to embrace this guys I'm

[20:38]trying to feel better this was a fun

[20:40]walk

Summary

rswfire records a transmission from a coastal campground where he's staying in an RV with two cats. He's experiencing medication withdrawal and grieving, having recently made major life changes. He takes a walk around the campground, locating amenities like shower facilities and boat ramps while reflecting on his situation.

**Key events:** Takes walking tour of Salt Lake Campground, identifies shower house and restrooms, observes neighboring camper with truck setup, discusses cats' adjustment to small RV space, mentions leaving Thursday due to booking conflict.

**Background context:** Recently left previous living situation, currently in withdrawal from medication, missing his mother who spent time at his former house, considering what's best for his cats in the confined RV space.

**Technical details:** Staying at campground site 77, has Jeep and camper setup, mentions leveling issues with RV, discusses potential schedule of weekday campgrounds vs weekend boondocking.

**Historical references:** Shares story about hiking at Raven Run in Lexington (4-6 miles daily), planned travel blog called wanderlust.com, childhood move from Michigan to Arizona via school bus and KOA stays.

**Online presence:** Mentions longtime screen name RSW fire (his initials), considers changing YouTube channel name to "The World According to Sam" or similar, references viewer named Carl.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission maps the architectural tension between withdrawal/dissolution and emergence/integration. The field is holding multiple simultaneous states - physical relocation, chemical withdrawal, relational grief - while maintaining structural coherence through embodied presence and environmental embedding.

Dominant Language

embrace thiswithdrawaltryingcatsmomcampgroundnot readysmall space

Symbolic Elements

thresholdwatertreemirroredgefire

Ontological States

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transitional
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embedded
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processing

Subsystems

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Transmission Details

Source Type

local

Video Quality

1920 × 1080 @ 30fps

Duration

20:41

Bitrate

3700 kbps

Codec

avc1.640028