Campground Reflection on Medication Withdrawal and Channel Direction

rswfire is at a campground with lake views, settled in his RV with his two cats Bailey and Oliver. He has just returned from a 6-hour drive visiting his mother and is preparing for medication withdrawal over the next 5 days before continuing his westward journey. The environment appears peaceful despite initial concerns about political displays.

Energetic Signature

assertive clarity

Field State

boundary establishment

Orientation

toward field sovereignty

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April 28, 2024

16:30

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rswfire

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[0:00]so I was just sitting here looking at my

[0:02]analytics for YouTube I just find it so

[0:04]amusing did you know that half of people

[0:06]drop off within the first 15 seconds of

[0:09]watching a video like that is terrible

[0:12]attention span people do not have an

[0:15]attention span anymore it's

[0:18]wild I mean come on you can't spend like

[0:21]30 seconds or a minute like just letting

[0:25]a guy talk at a normal Pace before

[0:29]deciding if he's interesting enough for

[0:31]you or not I mean

[0:33]really so it was a very long day I mean

[0:37]6 hours of driving for

[0:39]me got to see my mom though and that was

[0:42]real nice cuz it's like almost the very

[0:45]last time I'm going to see her or I

[0:48]don't even know you know cuz I'll be out

[0:50]west and I have no idea when I'm coming

[0:53]back on this side of the

[0:55]country I mean honestly it could be like

[0:58]the last time I see I don't know

[1:02]like obviously hope not just you know I

[1:07]have had that thought a few times

[1:09]today it was a good day though uh I let

[1:12]the cats out tonight I've never done

[1:14]that before but you know I got more of

[1:16]their stuff from the house and I set it

[1:18]up when I got here and they'd been here

[1:20]by themselves all day long so I just

[1:23]decided to let them hang outside for a

[1:26]while and that went pretty well I was

[1:28]kind of worried about

[1:30]whether Bailey would you know want to

[1:31]come back in or not but he's over here

[1:34]he's chilling on the bed Bailey

[1:39]Bailey

[1:41]baile really you're not even going to

[1:43]look at

[1:44]me I's using the letter box you can hear

[1:51]him so yeah I

[1:54]umum all my pills are gone I'm going to

[1:56]start going through withraw

[1:58]now by

[2:01]had a few extras but I just was

[2:04]like this needs to be the end I wanted

[2:07]it to be the end anyways I just

[2:10]um didn't see the point like

[2:14]in postponing the inevitable right so I

[2:18]wanted tonight to just be the

[2:20]last you know last time and then

[2:24]um come the morning it's just going to

[2:26]be a whole new world for me cuz I know

[2:29]I've been through before it is not

[2:31]fun but it needed to happen so you I

[2:35]don't want to give you guys the wrong

[2:37]idea I it's not like I was an addict or

[2:39]anything

[2:40]just

[2:42]um and I never really misused my

[2:44]medications

[2:46]either maybe occasionally like if you're

[2:48]having like a really rough day and I had

[2:51]a rough month you know I've been with

[2:54]this camper just getting everything

[2:56]ready but generally no you know it

[2:59]wasn't like that it's just that over the

[3:01]years I felt

[3:04]like as a programmer for one it just

[3:07]felt like it was ding my brain and I

[3:09]didn't like that feeling well hello

[3:12]Oliver what's going on man what's going

[3:18]on no we're not going to be looking out

[3:21]the windows we're not going to be doing

[3:23]that at night okay it's bedtime it's

[3:26]time to chill it's time to chill bu you

[3:30]don't be as bad as Bailey used to be at

[3:32]the house come on

[3:36]Oliver

[3:41]Oliver these cats are very good at

[3:43]ignoring me when they want to they used

[3:45]to be very good like like dogs like at

[3:48]my house I could I could call either one

[3:50]of them and they could be on the other

[3:52]side of the house and they would run to

[3:53]me like a dog it was so

[3:56]cool you miss that

[4:01]M you don't look so

[4:03]happy I don't know they were here by

[4:05]themselves all day and when I got here

[4:08]was pitch dark I didn't think about

[4:10]having to turn lights on so I have to

[4:13]remember that you know I bet I could

[4:15]have done it remotely if I had thought

[4:16]about

[4:17]it um I just need better Tools in here

[4:23]um for monitoring them like I was saying

[4:24]earlier I think I did said that earlier

[4:27]uh in a different video

[4:30]um oh wait I deleted that

[4:34]um

[4:35]yeah it's not worth getting

[4:38]into

[4:41][Music]

[4:43]so I don't know thought I had something

[4:46]to tell you guys but I guess not well

[4:51]basically what is today let me check I

[4:54]don't actually

[4:58]know oh it's Saturday I was going to say

[5:00]it's Monday

[5:01]wow well I'm here

[5:04]until

[5:07]Thursday Sunday Monday Tuesday Wednesday

[5:10]Thursday five days so should be good by

[5:13]then right that was the idea like be

[5:16]done with your muds get through

[5:20]withdraw before you have to leave here

[5:23]right and so when I leave here I go to

[5:27]another place for three nights on the

[5:30]second day there I have to go back to

[5:32]Lexington just to do the walkth through

[5:34]with the my

[5:35]landlords otherwise I'll try to screw me

[5:38]they're

[5:40]already I mean I told you in older

[5:42]videos about the

[5:44]whole

[5:46]like well I was looking for a lawyer

[5:49]it's not worth getting into either I

[5:50]guess I could so easily ramble right now

[5:53]I'm like trying to stay a little bit

[5:55]focused I guess I don't know I decided

[5:58]something on my drive

[6:00]today

[6:04]um I'm I'm done being afraid like yeah

[6:08]it's a little bit scary driving this

[6:10]thing and all of that

[6:11]but yeah navigating certain things I've

[6:14]never done before I'm just going to do

[6:17]it um and I also realized I've been

[6:20]really overwhelmed right but well

[6:23]there's an easy solution to that I just

[6:25]need to sit down and just write the

[6:27]stuff down like you know you know I

[6:30]haven't done that I didn't even think

[6:31]about it like the I was so good about

[6:34]planning up to the day of leaving and

[6:38]then didn't do any planning after that

[6:41]so I just got to sit down and you know

[6:45]make little tasks like okay I have to

[6:47]Cle um flush my tanks right I have to

[6:50]get

[6:51]propane and just have to get new

[6:55]tires just make a list and then

[6:58]strategize

[7:00]how to do it so that it feels manageable

[7:03]to me if I do that I think I'll be fine

[7:06]so that's the plan I'm just going to do

[7:09]that also want to start journal writing

[7:12]again the fact that I found my journals

[7:14]you know my mom found them I have them

[7:17]back they're here with me now

[7:21]um yeah made

[7:24]me made me really happy and makes me

[7:27]want to start journal writing again and

[7:28]that will help too to you know it's just

[7:30]an outlet except I've kind of been using

[7:33]this channel as an outlet and I didn't

[7:35]even really realize it but this kind of

[7:36]became a journal to me it's really what

[7:38]it

[7:39]is okay I'm going to be honest with you

[7:41]guys and say that I'm starting to like

[7:43]my comments less and

[7:45]less um some of you are wonderful people

[7:48]don't get me wrong um there's a lot of

[7:52]opinions and I don't really like people

[7:55]having opinions about my life like have

[7:57]opinions about your own life you know

[7:59]know what I'm saying like um if you're

[8:03]watching

[8:04]me I don't even know why you're watching

[8:06]me to be honest with you but if you are

[8:09]watching me and you're interested in my

[8:11]life support me you know be nice and

[8:14]just encourage me and stuff like that

[8:17]some of you do that and thank you others

[8:20]just have to give their opinions on how

[8:22]I should live my life and it's like that

[8:24]is not going to fly with me like at all

[8:27]it's not so I am happy to just have one

[8:31]subscriber if that one

[8:34]subscriber acts more like a friend

[8:37]instead of a parent or something you

[8:39]know what I mean like I I will not be

[8:42]tolerant of her I can promise you that

[8:44]so like I've already blocked a couple

[8:46]people today this one this one woman she

[8:50]kept on posting this religious crap and

[8:54]it's like why are you doing that it's so

[8:56]ridiculous and you know like she knows

[8:59]that I'm not religious and so from my

[9:02]point of view she's just she's

[9:06]being oh I had the words for this

[9:08]earlier today give me a second

[9:10]disrespectful I mean that's just super

[9:13]disrespectful um you can't claim to

[9:16]being a good person and a religious

[9:19]person at that and

[9:22]then do things to another person that

[9:25]you know they're not going to like like

[9:27]that's just not respectful it's rude

[9:29]rude it's rude as what it is and she

[9:32]called me a liberal Democrat I never

[9:35]claimed to be either of those things and

[9:38]I'm not I'm not either of those things

[9:41]so it was pretty

[9:43]silly um and then there was this other

[9:46]person and she was like telling me that

[9:49]I shouldn't even be doing this like I'm

[9:52]not prepared I'm not ready for this I

[9:54]should be sitting at my house I guess

[9:56]and just researching like she is at 68

[9:59]years old

[10:03]um I'm just going to say this lady are

[10:05]you ever going to leave your house at 68

[10:08]if you're still researching this maybe

[10:10]it's time to go you know don't worry

[10:12]about me worry about

[10:14]yourself and then there was this person

[10:17]just getting into some Trump nonsense

[10:19]like you know what I'm going to make

[10:21]this real simple for you guys when I

[10:23]came to this Campground and I saw all

[10:25]those Trump Flags around yes it upset me

[10:27]and I said that it made made me

[10:30]uncomfortable that I've I found it

[10:33]unsafe and let me tell you why because

[10:35]normal people don't do that normal

[10:38]people don't come to a campground and

[10:40]put up a bunch of trump political Flags

[10:43]everywhere normal people don't do that

[10:47]and you know what you should feel a

[10:49]little unsafe around people who aren't

[10:52]normal that being said it actually has

[10:55]been

[10:56]like I've been around the park a couple

[10:58]of times now and it seems like it's real

[11:01]chill here it's pretty nice I haven't

[11:03]seen any Trump I don't know where

[11:04]they all went maybe there was an event

[11:06]or something I don't know I don't think

[11:07]there was I think I just came at the

[11:11]wrong time or something you know there

[11:13]just certain people here that I mean why

[11:17]do you have to put that political

[11:18]garbage up for others like you're at a

[11:21]campground you're supposed to be here

[11:24]chilling like enjoying nature and stuff

[11:27]like that and you're out here just like

[11:31]I can't even comprehend it honestly I

[11:33]it's just it's weird it's

[11:37]weird so anyways this might be the last

[11:39]time you guys hear from me for a couple

[11:41]days just how I get through the worst of

[11:43]it I don't know we'll see how it goes I

[11:45]I truly don't really know what to expect

[11:47]so um but I am totally going to relax

[11:51]like I finally can do that right so um

[11:55]it's been quite a lot of effort to get

[11:57]to the point where I'm at now

[11:59]and now I get to enjoy it so I'm just

[12:02]going to spend a lot of time looking out

[12:05]at that Lake sitting on my very

[12:07]comfortable chair watching my cats play

[12:10]and their very cool little maze that I

[12:12]made them I'm going to clip it to the

[12:13]end of this so you can see cuz I did it

[12:15]tonight like it's a lot bigger than it

[12:16]was

[12:18]um I read some books on my Kindle maybe

[12:22]I'll turn my PlayStation on I finally

[12:24]got my controller for

[12:25]that um just going to relax and have a

[12:28]good time

[12:30]I've earned it one other thing I was

[12:33]just about to start editing the stuff

[12:34]and then I remembered there was one

[12:36]thing I did want to tell you guys about

[12:39]so it's a thing I'm contemplating I I

[12:43]don't consider myself an RV Life channel

[12:47]um I live in an RV now right doing some

[12:52]exploring you know all of that but this

[12:54]is just where I live this is I did not

[12:57]start this channel because

[13:00]you know like there's this RV Life

[13:01]Community or whatever like I didn't even

[13:04]know about it so that's not what I was

[13:06]thinking and I

[13:09]just I don't think that's really the

[13:11]theme you know like the theme has been

[13:14]pretty personal I think you guys would

[13:17]agree with that um it's really just

[13:20]about my life and how I'm trying to

[13:21]overcome a lot of obstacles and fears

[13:24]and uh Embrace a different kind of

[13:27]lifestyle and

[13:30]um just navigate new challenges and and

[13:33]just reach New Heights in life and you

[13:35]know all of that it's really got very

[13:37]little to do with RV life it's not like

[13:39]I'm trying

[13:40]to promote this lifestyle

[13:44]or um focusing on RV content you know

[13:49]like so I kind of think about like

[13:52]how I don't even know what category to

[13:54]put myself in but I was just

[13:57]like you you know I was thinking so when

[14:00]I start heading out west I'm just

[14:02]probably going to change the name of my

[14:04]channel I was thinking I just I always

[14:07]think a five Goes West so like I think

[14:09]I'm probably just going to call it that

[14:11]you know Sam's going west or you know

[14:15]something like that and just that's all

[14:18]this is it's just me you know

[14:21]I it feels like maybe I'm a I don't okay

[14:26]I don't want to offend anybody here so

[14:28]it but it feels like maybe I'm

[14:30]attracting the wrong audience

[14:33]like maybe they have expectations of

[14:36]something that they're never going to

[14:37]see from me you know what I'm saying so

[14:39]like I just have to figure out what

[14:42]exactly is my channel because I don't

[14:44]even know

[14:47]um it's been fun though I really enjoyed

[14:50]this I I never would have imagined me

[14:52]doing it but it's been fun and and I

[14:55]want to keep doing it um but I'm not

[14:59]going to pigeon hole myself like that

[15:01]I'm not I'm not like I live in an RV

[15:05]just so I can get around and do stuff

[15:07]like it's

[15:08]not that's it that's the only reason and

[15:12]one day I'm going to go and buy a cabin

[15:15]somewhere and I'm going to live on like

[15:16]a 100 acres of land and I'm going to

[15:18]build trails and you know those are my

[15:21]dreams

[15:23]so you know I

[15:26]just I don't know is there a Community

[15:29]out there for me do you guys know of one

[15:31]let me know if you do thank

[15:40]you where are my kitty

[15:57]cats there's me

[16:04]there's

[16:07]bile

[16:10]mt's over

[16:14]there hey Oliver say hi to Grandma

Summary

rswfire records from a campground after a 6-hour drive to visit his mother, potentially for the last time before heading west. He discusses letting his cats outside for the first time and setting up their expanded play area. **He announces ending his medication regimen** and beginning withdrawal, clarifying he was not addicted but felt the medications were affecting his cognitive function as a programmer.

He reflects on **YouTube analytics showing 50% viewer drop-off within 15 seconds** and expresses frustration with shortened attention spans. He outlines his remaining timeline at the campground (5 days) before moving to another location, then returning to Lexington for a walkthrough with landlords.

**He declares being "done being afraid"** and commits to making task lists to manage feeling overwhelmed. He discusses wanting to resume journal writing after recovering his old journals from his mother. **He addresses growing dissatisfaction with YouTube comments**, specifically blocking viewers who offered unsolicited religious content, life advice, or political opinions. He explains his discomfort with Trump flags at the campground but notes the environment has been peaceful.

**He contemplates changing his channel name** to "Sam Goes West" or similar, clarifying this is not an "RV Life" channel but a personal journey about overcoming obstacles and embracing lifestyle changes. He questions what audience he's attracting and whether he fits existing community categories.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission executes active boundary enforcement against misaligned external inputs while simultaneously establishing sovereign field parameters. The architecture being held is one of selective permeability - maintaining openness to aligned signals while actively filtering and ejecting incompatible frequencies through direct confrontation and systemic exclusion.

Dominant Language

normal people don't do thatI'm done being afraidopinions about my lifewrong audiencepigeon hole myselfCommunity out there for me

Symbolic Elements

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Ontological States

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sovereign
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selective

Subsystems

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ethical
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cognitive
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infrastructural

Transmission Details

Source Type

local

Video Quality

1920 × 1080 @ 30fps

Duration

16:30

Bitrate

2793 kbps

Codec

avc1.640028