Journals Found While Traveling to Walmart

Speaker is driving to Walmart in Carthage, Tennessee from a campground near a lake. Poor cell service in the area. Cats are back at the camper. Planning to return to his house tomorrow to collect journals and packages.

Energetic Signature

recalibrating

Field State

threshold crossing

Orientation

toward embodied sovereignty

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April 26, 2024

9:26

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:00]so I just got the most amazing news I

[0:02]could have ever gotten my mother just

[0:04]called me and told me she found my

[0:06]journals they were in a box in my cat's

[0:09]room in an Alienware box um which is

[0:11]probably where I put them when I took

[0:14]them out of that black bag so I have all

[0:16]my journals I'm so happy so I was going

[0:19]to record a message here anyways I just

[0:20]got to the Walmart in some place called

[0:22]Carthage

[0:24]Tennessee um there is terrible cell

[0:26]service out here my map program got all

[0:28]crazy on me I didn't even know if I make

[0:30]it here but I just wanted to say that um

[0:34]you know a lot of you haven't been

[0:35]following me since the beginning so I

[0:37]just want to clear something up um I

[0:40]tend to process my emotions like

[0:43]um how am I going to explain this like

[0:47]just be patient with me because I'm

[0:49]going to I'm going to irritate you guys

[0:52]just because I'm you know trying to when

[0:55]I get frustrated it comes out

[0:58]and um it may s like that I'm not happy

[1:01]about the life that I'm trying to live

[1:02]it's not the case I'm just just working

[1:05]through all of this and it's it's a lot

[1:08]to work through um I also wanted to

[1:10]knowe there's this new trend happening

[1:12]with me I'm talking to myself a lot

[1:14]lately I'm talking to myself in the car

[1:16]I'm talking to myself in the

[1:17]camper um I don't think that makes me

[1:20]crazy I've asked chat GPT about it um I

[1:24]just it seems like I have I'm just I'm

[1:27]pushing myself so hard way outside my

[1:29]comfort zone that

[1:31]I you know I have to do that I'm doing

[1:33]whatever I have to do

[1:36]to um Embrace

[1:39]something completely new to me I mean I

[1:42]did live on the internet I love saying

[1:44]that because it's true and I

[1:47]didn't I didn't

[1:50]um I didn't Embrace Life out here for a

[1:53]very very long time and I'm trying to

[1:55]and it's hard and it's frustrating and

[1:58]everything feels difficult to me and I'm

[2:01]just trying my best I'm doing my best

[2:04]and that's going to come out like if you

[2:07]have been following me since the

[2:08]beginning you would know that I um I was

[2:12]terrified of everything I was doing but

[2:14]I did it anyways because I knew there

[2:16]was a payoff at the end and it's going

[2:18]to be the same with this so I'm going to

[2:20]go in there and get some groceries for

[2:22]me and the cats and make some chili

[2:24]tonight um tomorrow I'm going to go home

[2:27]you know to well not home but to my

[2:30]house and my mom's got a couple packages

[2:33]for me I'm gonna get my journals that is

[2:35]so cool

[2:37]um and just clean out that house get

[2:40]done with that house and then

[2:43]um just keep moving forward so I had

[2:46]recorded another video um as I was

[2:49]leaving the campground I'm going to cut

[2:51]some of that out but I'm going to I'm

[2:53]going to share it with you basically I

[2:56]um trying to embrace all kinds of new

[2:59]things and that part of it kind of funny

[3:01]because I was thinking about fishing but

[3:03]what would I do if I caught a fish right

[3:05]so

[3:07]um I

[3:09]just I want to embrace life you know and

[3:14]I'm

[3:14]trying sorry guys I know it's sideways

[3:17]but you'll

[3:18]manage just traveling through the park

[3:21]on my way to the

[3:22]store it's pretty nice here U it's a

[3:26]nice Lake it goes it's a lot bigger than

[3:28]um what I was seeing

[3:31]um somewhere around here you can you can

[3:34]play with your drone and I've never done

[3:36]that so I'm going to try it like I think

[3:37]it might be where I am now this is just

[3:39]some little area

[3:41]here

[3:43]um I don't know I'll don't figure it out

[3:46]I'm going to find out cuz I would like

[3:47]I'd like to try that and um there was a

[3:50]man out there

[3:51]fishing um I'm going to Walmart and like

[3:54]maybe you guys well it's probably you

[3:57]know I probably should shouldn't be so

[3:59]imp

[4:00]but I was just thinking

[4:02]maybe um maybe I buy some fishing gear

[4:07]continue straight you know I want to try

[4:11]fishing yeah that's too impulsive cuz

[4:14]what if I caught a fish I wouldn't know

[4:15]what to do with it what I so better wait

[4:18]on

[4:19]that

[4:21]um yeah I'm feeling pretty good now I

[4:24]had a nap like I'm not a napping kind of

[4:26]guy but lately I guess I just have not

[4:28]been sleeping enough because yeah in

[4:31]half a mile turn right to stay on slick

[4:33]Park Lane um you know without those like

[4:37]clearly I guess sleep is what's

[4:39]affecting my

[4:41]mood like a lack of it doing good now

[4:45]cats are back there you know at the

[4:47]camper of course still debating what to

[4:50]do with them because like I can't like I

[4:53]got to go EMP the tanks but I you can't

[4:55]just give them benad drill and then have

[4:57]them be sleepy all day long just cuz you

[4:58]got to go to the front of the

[5:00]Park I don't know what to

[5:04]do I think I'm here at the front of the

[5:06]par it's so hot in here turn the AC on

[5:11]real

[5:13]um they lock you up in here you have to

[5:17]like you know use a gate code and

[5:19]everything how does this

[5:22]work you need to what does this work

[5:24]hold on guys I don't know I do I have to

[5:26]enter a code here to get out

[5:31]no

[5:34]way can't possibly work that way oh it

[5:38]just comes up okay

[5:43]okay oh I guess it makes sense they just

[5:45]that so you don't drive the other way

[5:47]through it I guess

[5:50]okay I'm learning guys whole new world

[5:52]for me I lived on the internet I love

[5:55]saying that cuz it's

[5:56]true now I live in the real world it's

[5:59]not a it's a beautiful place it's not

[6:02]all

[6:04]beautiful we'll put that on a t-shirt

[6:06]one day this is a very big

[6:09]lake can't really see it from here just

[6:12]trees in the way but I'm pretty sure

[6:14]that's water over

[6:18]there

[6:22]yeah I just need time to adjust give me

[6:26]time guys be patient with me I'm going

[6:27]to have moments where you're probably

[6:28]going to get frustated at with me just

[6:30]because I sound frustrated myself and I

[6:33]can be

[6:34]negative take the next right to stay on

[6:36]Salt Lake Park Lane I'm just you know

[6:40]just processing my emotions it's all I'm

[6:42]doing when I do

[6:44]that um cuz I don't leave my emotions

[6:47]inside I don't do that it's I don't

[6:50]consider healthy and I don't think I

[6:53]could do it even if I wanted to so I got

[6:56]like a 30 minute drive continue on Sal

[6:58]Park Lane for half a mile

[7:00]these are some narrow roads I remember

[7:02]driving

[7:04]these that part's hard it's a little

[7:07]scary I'm going to get used to it though

[7:09]cuz I want to I absolutely want to I

[7:12]want to love this

[7:13]life I knew there would be like guys if

[7:16]you've been following me long enough you

[7:17]I me you guys know that you know I

[7:21]scared all along and I still didn't I'll

[7:23]be fine you know some of you are newer

[7:26]because my channel has grown so I'm just

[7:28]telling you this is my process I knew

[7:31]that it would be hard but I also knew

[7:34]that it would be a payoff eventually you

[7:37]know so it's no different now lots of

[7:40]people live back here you know I bet

[7:43]they have like I bet they love it I

[7:47]would one day I want to buy a cabin

[7:49]somewhere you know and it'd be somewhere

[7:51]like this it would

[7:53]be look at that I I noticed some campers

[7:56]everywhere now wow that's a very wide

[7:59]feel sorry for you I haven't known this

[8:04]for in 1,000 ft turn left onto Smith

[8:07]Bend Lane so I think I need to find out

[8:11]how like there's got to be a way to get

[8:14]on that water wonder if you can swim in

[8:16]it I don't know I don't know if I would

[8:18]ever do it but um I want to do things I

[8:22]haven't done in a long time orever so

[8:24]like I Bo left onto Smith Ben

[8:26]Lane I really want to get in a boat

[8:31]just do I want to be in a

[8:36]boat all right am definitely in the

[8:38]wrong gear for that wow good gam

[8:41]continue on Smith Bend Lane for one mile

[8:43]started from basically zero on third

[8:49]gear this place is for sale I like the

[8:53]land you know it's like 70 acres of land

[8:56]like please let me have that

[9:02]well I'm going to get off of here and

[9:03]just um you know I'm going to get stuff

[9:06]at the store I'm going to make chili and

[9:07]getting some stuff for the cats um you

[9:10]know just basic

[9:12]stuff and it's like 30 minutes away but

[9:16]kind of like that like just a different

[9:19]life I want a different I wanted a

[9:21]different life and I have one now

[9:23]so you guys have a very good weekend

Summary

The speaker receives news that his mother found his journals in a box in his cat's room. He's currently traveling to a Walmart in Carthage, Tennessee, experiencing poor cell service and navigation issues. He addresses his audience about his emotional processing style, explaining that frustration will come out as he works through this major life transition from living "on the internet" to embracing physical world experiences.

He describes talking to himself frequently in the car and camper, which he's consulted ChatGPT about and doesn't consider problematic. The speaker acknowledges pushing himself far outside his comfort zone and asks for patience from his followers during this adjustment period.

While driving through what appears to be a state park with a large lake, he considers trying new activities like fishing and drone flying, though he decides against impulsively buying fishing gear since he wouldn't know what to do with a caught fish. He mentions needing to return to his house tomorrow to collect packages and his journals, then continue moving forward with cleaning out the house.

The speaker reflects on wanting a different life and now having one, expressing interest in eventually buying a cabin in a similar lakeside area. He notes the narrow roads are somewhat scary but something he wants to get used to, and mentions cats waiting back at his camper.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission holds the architecture of active threshold crossing - simultaneous rupture from digital embedding and integration into physical world systems. The field is processing disorientation not as pathology but as necessary recalibration, maintaining coherence through transparent signal processing while building new operational infrastructure.

Dominant Language

lived on the internetembrace lifeprocessing my emotionspayoff at the enddifferent lifewhole new worldbe patient with me

Symbolic Elements

thresholdwaterjournalsmirrorgate

Ontological States

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transitional
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integrating
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sovereign
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embodied

Subsystems

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cognitive
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somatic
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emotional
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infrastructural

Transmission Details

Source Type

local

Video Quality

1920 × 1080 @ 30fps

Duration

9:26

Bitrate

1563 kbps

Codec

avc1.640028