[0:00]so I did not realize just how close the
[0:02]other Campground is from where I am now
[0:04]it's only an hour drive I called them um
[0:08]they said I can come anytime tomorrow
[0:09]you know as long as somebody doesn't
[0:10]book it today and they don't see that
[0:13]happening so whenever I have to leave
[0:16]here at least I can just drive straight
[0:17]there um I know that like you know like
[0:21]I just pictur Carolyn
[0:24]um she just lives in her her camper same
[0:28]size as mine and just go everywhere does
[0:31]everything in it and I just wish I could
[0:32]do that I
[0:34]don't
[0:35]um cuz yeah I I I I I'm hearing myself
[0:39]it's like okay this thing only goes to
[0:42]campgrounds but that's not how that's
[0:44]supposed to work right I think it's
[0:46]partly cuz I'm towing my Jeep though
[0:48]it's like I
[0:49]just not very comfortable with it yet
[0:52]I've only driven it Towing my Jeep once
[0:54]now like I think it'll get better over
[0:56]time I just I don't really know like
[1:01]what you can do with it where can you
[1:02]take it
[1:04]like I mean are there activities that I
[1:06]could go and do and
[1:09]like I just don't know any of this um I
[1:13]feel so unprepared I feel so
[1:15]unknowledgeable about all of
[1:17]it but you know so I just think that'll
[1:20]get better like with time like cuz
[1:22]that's partly the reason for going to
[1:24]Nevada like
[1:26]every every two days I'm going to going
[1:30]to be somewhere else and so I'll get
[1:32]very used to driving it I'll get very
[1:34]used to Towing it I'll get very used to
[1:36]navigating different situations because
[1:38]I'm just going to face them they're just
[1:40]going to come up and I'm just going to
[1:41]face them and it'll get
[1:43]easier that's what I'm hoping for like
[1:46]that's that was kind of my thinking like
[1:48]okay let's go all the way to Nevada
[1:50]probably like 2,000 miles
[1:52]away by the time I get there I should
[1:55]feel very comfortable that's that's what
[1:57]I'm hoping for um going to show you guys
[2:00]what I'm doing out here
[2:02]so um the cats went inside out here just
[2:07]me um campsite looks like this right now
[2:09]so these things take up way too much
[2:11]space I love them but they take up too
[2:13]much space so what I'm thinking is they
[2:15]live outside and then on travel days you
[2:18]know you just put them inside the camper
[2:20]and the little space that you have you
[2:22]know when you bring your slide in and
[2:24]then they come back outside when you get
[2:26]somewhere else I mean it just it has to
[2:27]be that way cuz I need the space
[2:30]so cuz they were living in this little
[2:33]space over here and so now I've got my
[2:36]camping gear in there um and then
[2:39]there's like those things it's I don't
[2:41]know what you call them they're they're
[2:43]Jacks I don't know if they're called
[2:45]jacks or not like they hold they prevent
[2:48]you from dying if the thing falls down
[2:52]um you know just emergency I have
[2:55]emergency stuff like like okay so first
[2:57]of all I'm not I don't guys I don't know
[3:00]why I sound like this um let me just try
[3:02]to slow down so I don't know why I'm
[3:04]even taking this because I can't Camp
[3:06]not not while I have cats but I don't
[3:09]know I kind of think like you you have
[3:11]to take that stuff so and then there's
[3:14]these
[3:16]ones these ones are hard to keep open
[3:20]so and you know they will fit two of
[3:22]those and that's basically it like
[3:24]that's my space here you can probably
[3:27]get some stuff above it like I I could
[3:29]get a little bit creative and I'm going
[3:31]to have
[3:32]to but you know that's basically that's
[3:35]my personal stuff and we come over
[3:39]here and that's you know everything that
[3:41]the camper needs and just like more
[3:44]emergency stuff because there's the real
[3:46]Jack that's why I couldn't you know I
[3:48]don't know what those other things are
[3:49]called those are I think that's called a
[3:51]Jack and then those are something else a
[3:54]tire repair kit back there you know um a
[3:56]little pump for for um
[4:00]you know putting air on your tires all
[4:02]my stuff that I just just stuff that you
[4:04]need for your camper on the outside I
[4:06]guess you could say that's it that's all
[4:09]my storage oh and then
[4:11]this but you know I misusing the space
[4:14]right now because I just can't let this
[4:16]stuff go yet I just
[4:19]can't kind of mad at myself for it to be
[4:21]honest that goes nowhere that goes
[4:22]inside that's just you know all
[4:25]insulation oh my God what are the cats
[4:27]doing they're listening to me
[4:30]guys I know you just knocked a bunch of
[4:32]stuff off my
[4:37]desk anyways
[4:40]um that's all my storage except for just
[4:42]one over
[4:45]here
[4:47]um and I don't you know I was thinking
[4:50]this is where you would put things that
[4:51]you want to have outside with you when
[4:53]you're just like you're just you're out
[4:55]here and you're chilling and you just
[4:56]you're I don't know what exactly what
[4:58]but but just tools now all
[5:02]tools I don't know I'm working on it I'm
[5:05]trying to get organized
[5:07]here um and then as far as my my so I'm
[5:11]thinking okay my Jeep is going to have
[5:13]to store stuff obviously it will store
[5:16]my solar
[5:18]panels This thing collapses it's a t I'm
[5:21]starting to wonder if I even need that
[5:22]because you know you've got you got
[5:24]benches over there
[5:26]and this chair was a mistake it is too
[5:29]big um I don't even know where to put
[5:31]the grill
[5:32]honestly but it's just going to go
[5:36]behind um oh I got some trash in here
[5:39]cuz I'm going to take it down to the
[5:40]trash thing but so there's just um in
[5:42]there there's just um that 10x10 that
[5:45]thing I told you about and then the
[5:47]solar panels will sit on that the chair
[5:49]will sit on that and I guess this stuff
[5:52]cuz this stuff was originally in the
[5:55]spot where I put my
[5:57]books this is what I was trying to use
[5:59]as a um a shelf under my table it just
[6:02]didn't work
[6:04]so um this is me buying a bulk and my
[6:07]mom's like you're really going to want
[6:08]your stuff and I'm was like well there's
[6:10]no room for it so I don't know um just
[6:15]guess I do sound a little bit frustrated
[6:17]I'm not as frustrated as I sound I'm
[6:20]just trying to figure it out and I think
[6:22]I'm getting close
[6:23]so um it is a little bit messy inside so
[6:27]I'm not going in there to show you um um
[6:29]it's not real bad I'm I'm getting close
[6:32]I feel like I'm getting close I feel
[6:33]like I'll be ready before we have to
[6:35]go
[6:39]um I am just really excited to get to
[6:42]the point
[6:43]where this just feels normal where I can
[6:46]just do this and not feel stressed about
[6:50]it it's so weird to be on camera when
[6:52]like somebody's driving by he's like you
[6:54]just look so dumb like I look so dumb
[6:56]right now I'm just talking to a camera
[7:00]but this is the world we live in now
[7:01]isn't
[7:02]it it's so nice out here so
[7:06]peaceful I absolutely love
[7:16]this it's kind of sad this is day 14 and
[7:19]I didn't go anywhere I didn't go hiking
[7:21]nothing but it's cuz I've been dealing
[7:22]with my house I've been dealing with my
[7:24]cats I've been dealing with my space
[7:25]like and I knew it would be like that
[7:28]like I didn't expect this to be like
[7:29]like the start of my adventure this was
[7:31]like okay I have to get out of my house
[7:33]I made a promise I would leave on my
[7:35]birthday and I wanted to I didn't want
[7:37]to be in that house it was a lot nicer
[7:39]to be here that's for sure just being
[7:42]here made a difference with with my just
[7:45]how I feel about
[7:47]everything
[7:49]so I don't regret it um it's just you
[7:53]know I just spent 2 weeks at a
[7:55]campground and didn't go anywhere except
[7:56]on my campsite didn't even build to
[7:59]fight like
[8:01]nothing but that's going to change it's
[8:03]just I just I'm trying to get
[8:05]comfortable trying really hard to get
[8:09]comfortable I don't know why it's so
[8:11]hard it kind of aggravates me that it's
[8:13]not easier for me like why does it have
[8:16]to be so hard for me like I I see people
[8:18]doing it all the time why is this so
[8:20]hard for me it's
[8:22]ridiculous um and it wasn't hard for me
[8:26]when I was younger so why is it hard now
[8:28]like what happened to
[8:30]me I used to Camp all the time by myself
[8:34]all the time I used to hike all the time
[8:37]all the time every single day for years
[8:39]and years
[8:42]like and it's not just that I'm older
[8:45]it's not that cuz
[8:48]like it's not that it's something else
[8:51]something in my head it's
[8:54]just I guess I'm a little aggravated
[8:56]about it cuz I I want this life and I'm
[8:58]just not going to let whatever is
[9:01]happening inside of this head of mine
[9:02]stop me like I'm just not anyways I'm
[9:06]going to leave it there I'm not going to
[9:08]post anything else today I'm just going
[9:10]to chill deal with this and you know
[9:13]enjoy the night I guess you know how I
[9:16]am I say that and then I end up posting
[9:17]something maybe I'll post something
[9:18]tonight I don't know um but yeah for the
[9:22]rest of the day I'm just going to chill
[9:24]and just try to have a really good day
[9:27]um it is so nice out here just being
[9:29]here is just so nice absolutely love
[9:33]this by the way I'm a big fan of trees I
[9:35]don't know if I've told you guys that
[9:36]yet I love trees like I just love them
[9:40]like they
[9:42]are they're everything to me just being
[9:45]under a tree just being in the woods
[9:47]under trees like that's what I love I'm
[9:49]not into flowers I'm not into animals
[9:52]I'm not into Birds I'm not like none of
[9:54]that none of that like I love
[9:56]trees trees just bring me life
[10:02]joy I love looking at
[10:04]trees they have such long lives compared
[10:07]to
[10:10]ours so I'm a big fan of the I don't
[10:12]know why I'm just rambling but I'm a big
[10:14]fan of the and game series if you guys
[10:16]haven't read that the the first book Is
[10:18]you know basically for kids but the
[10:19]other ones aren't they're it's more
[10:21]adult
[10:22]themed and there's this these books that
[10:27]on this planet and these people who live
[10:29]there I can never pronounce it right
[10:31]because he mixes English with another
[10:34]language and I don't know I think like
[10:36]paninos or something like that um is
[10:39]what he calls this species of people and
[10:43]they have a third life like when they
[10:45]die they literally turn into trees like
[10:48]it is so
[10:49]cool I just I love those books I read
[10:53]them a few times I'm going to read them
[10:54]again soon I know I am I'm just going to
[10:57]sit out here somewhere you know here
[10:59]somewhere
[11:02]in Bailey is very
[11:05]upset Bailey you I am trying to teach
[11:08]you you've got two choices pick one just
[11:12]pick one you know you guys have an
[11:15]excellent day please I hope you
[11:28]do for
[12:04]this is generally the most playful I've
[12:06]seen Bailey in
[12:09]years this is so wonderful to see
[12:36]Oliver finally decided to join us
[12:38]outside I'm so
[12:41]happy so I am almost out of space on my
[12:45]phone I hope they don't F ain't so
[12:47]worried about it I'm almost out of space
[12:50]I have 11 minutes of video I can record
[12:52]I'm going to have to fix that today
[13:11]or does he love to destroy
[13:15]things ol you're so cute dude but you're
[13:19]very
[13:22]destructive B's over here
[13:26]chilling just watching his brother be
[13:28]silly
[13:29]what you're doing isn't it Bailey you're
[13:31]just watching him be silly why is he
[13:33]doing that why is he doing that right
[13:37]what is he doing
[13:44]there I'm going to have to put some toys
[13:46]in
[13:47]here I should do that right now actually
[13:50]so they were fighting over their toys a
[13:52]little bit but hopefully it'll be all
[13:53]right literally have 10 minutes of
[13:56]storage on my phone now going to dump it
[13:59]onto my
[14:01]computer and we'll start
[14:04]over just leave these guys alone and
[14:07]hope they get along you guys be nice it
[14:09]seems like they have a problem when they
[14:10]get to the tunnels CU they can't get
[14:12]around each other and that leads to a
[14:15]fight oh I hope they work it
[14:18]out I hate separating them it's just not
[14:21]a thing I like to do plus you know that
[14:24]just makes everything
[14:25]harder guys play with each other your
[14:28]your brother Brothers they're not
[14:29]techically Brothers I just call them now
[14:32]they were raised together
[14:34]basically especially Bailey Bailey was a
[14:36]little tiny child Bailey's mom abandoned
[14:39]him when he was a day old and this woman
[14:41]in Michigan her name is gay she's
[14:43]awesome she took him in raised him for 6
[14:46]weeks and then then I went up there and
[14:48]I got him we might
[14:50]halfway
[14:53]um and then he came back with me and I
[14:55]had already had all for like maybe two
[14:57]weeks so they basically grew up together
[14:59]at least in my
[15:01]house they're Brothers