Reconsidering YouTube Channel After Initial Exit Decision

Speaker is at his house with his mother and cats, having arrived the previous night. He is dealing with a dumpster service issue and reflecting on his YouTube channel decisions while preparing for a multi-year western travel adventure.

Energetic Signature

tentatively resolute

Field State

threshold crossing

Orientation

toward sustainable engagement

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April 15, 2024

5:47

View on YouTube

Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:00]hey

[0:01]everyone so I'm at my house I got here

[0:04]last night um there's some things I'd

[0:07]like to talk to you about but first let

[0:09]me just show you this and then I'll get

[0:10]to the the real stuff this is what my

[0:13]helpers did to my dumpster it cannot be

[0:17]filled like that so they have to come

[0:19]back and fix it and then I have to come

[0:21]have them come

[0:22]back um yeah it's costing me a fortune

[0:26]like it's $500 every time they bring one

[0:29]of these things I didn't take one away

[0:31]you

[0:32]know that sucked but um I am very

[0:36]appreciative of the help at

[0:38]least so I've been here with my mom just

[0:41]me and my mom and my cats

[0:45]and um I watched one of my videos with

[0:48]her cuz she hadn't seen it yet and I

[0:50]just got to thinking I think I probably

[0:52]do want to keep my channel going but I

[0:55]want to

[0:56]explain kind of what my thinking was I

[1:00]don't want to seem like super impulsive

[1:02]or wishy-washy it's not like that

[1:06]um I am a little bit you know but you

[1:09]know I don't think through all my

[1:10]decisions I kind of go with my

[1:13]instincts and I just at the time was

[1:16]thinking I told a story that I I love

[1:19]that I'm proud of and I want people to

[1:23]see it if they don't even if they don't

[1:25]see it now if they see it someday I'll

[1:27]be happy my channel isn't growing

[1:30]you know

[1:32]um I I feel like I probably shouldn't

[1:35]care about that but at the same time I

[1:37]it takes a lot of work I mean you're

[1:39]recording all the time you've got your

[1:41]phone out all the time recording and

[1:43]talking and editing and just all of that

[1:47]and you know I can't monetize this

[1:49]channel um not without like 3,000

[1:53]followers I have

[1:55]90 you know and I've recorded 120 videos

[1:59]it's just like that seems like a big

[2:01]hill to climb so if I'm going to try to

[2:04]change my life and make money some other

[2:08]way I don't think it can be YouTube it's

[2:11]just you know uh I guess people don't I

[2:14]don't know why I don't want to say that

[2:16]it's because maybe people don't find me

[2:17]interesting

[2:18]enough um but I think that's part of it

[2:22]because you know a lot of people have

[2:24]come across my channel like four or

[2:27]5,000 people you know and I have 9

[2:30]subscribers so maybe it's not for me

[2:32]it's kind of how I was looking at it I

[2:35]am self-conscious about how I look and

[2:38]I'm not just talking about the fact I

[2:40]don't have any teeth I just have always

[2:42]been that way I don't consider myself

[2:44]attractive and now I'm getting

[2:46]old um probably shouldn't care about

[2:49]that either but I'm human I

[2:51]do and so you know it's it's real hard

[2:55]for me to put myself on camera like this

[2:57]it's gotten easier in some ways and I've

[3:00]kind of been able to just like not judge

[3:03]myself so much and just be myself but

[3:05]it's still hard and that's kind of where

[3:08]my head was

[3:10]um at the same time I really want to

[3:13]share this adventure with you guys

[3:17]I with the help of chat gbt last night

[3:20]came up with a plan a route where I'm

[3:22]going and it is awesome and I will share

[3:24]that with you soon um basically I'm

[3:26]heading out west as soon as I can leave

[3:28]Kentucky I'm going to go into the

[3:29]mountain

[3:31]but then there's a whole bunch of places

[3:32]I'm going and then eventually I'll end

[3:34]up um well eventually in the Upper

[3:37]Peninsula Michigan and I don't know from

[3:38]there but um it'll be Years it'll take

[3:42]me years I have a really good

[3:44]plan and I I I want to share that with

[3:48]you so I guess I'm sticking around I'm

[3:51]sorry that

[3:54]I you

[3:57]know I lost one subscriber when I said I

[4:00]was leaving I'm surprised it wasn't more

[4:01]than that but I get it right so like I

[4:03]just um I'm glad you're sticking around

[4:06]I guess and I'm sorry

[4:08]for whatever that was I just so I will

[4:12]say this I probably won't post this

[4:14]often uh I'm not going to be recording

[4:16]all the time you know I just I have to

[4:18]deal with life and then I'll figure out

[4:21]some kind of balance but I'll keep you

[4:23]updated I want

[4:24]to um

[4:27]maybe maybe I'll get lucky and some days

[4:31]I can monetize this Channel and actually

[4:32]make money for my own content you know

[4:35]that YouTube is just not letting me and

[4:37]I just I think that's kind of wrong too

[4:39]by the way you put in all this work and

[4:44]they put in they make it very hard to

[4:49]reach these and they put them into tears

[4:51]it's just it's really kind of ridiculous

[4:53]honestly so I just started thinking

[4:55]about it I'm like why why would I do

[4:58]that but at the same time it's it's not

[5:00]about the money it might be if that's

[5:02]how I feel in my adventure because like

[5:04]I've been saying I am burnt out from my

[5:08]job I am burnt out from programming I

[5:10]have done it for 40 years and I just

[5:12]don't want to do it anymore I truly

[5:14]don't and I don't know what do you do

[5:17]when you've done that thing for 40 years

[5:19]what do you do after that like I haven't

[5:21]figured it out

[5:23]so um I'll just leave it there guys I'm

[5:28]I hope you stick around and I hope we

[5:30]figure this out together

[5:32]cuz I am super excited about I keep

[5:35]saying

[5:36]it

[5:39]um I Envision an amazing future and I am

[5:43]looking forward to living it and I'm

[5:45]looking forward to sharing it

Summary

rswfire records from his house after arriving the previous night, addressing his recent decision to potentially quit his YouTube channel. He shows a dumpster that helpers improperly filled, costing $500 each time it needs service. After watching one of his videos with his mother, he decides to continue the channel despite slow growth (90 subscribers after 120 videos, unable to monetize without 3,000 followers). He discusses self-consciousness about his appearance, including missing teeth and aging concerns, which makes filming difficult. **Key decision**: He announces plans to continue documenting his upcoming western travel adventure, developed with ChatGPT assistance, which will eventually lead to Michigan's Upper Peninsula over several years. He acknowledges burnout from 40 years of programming work and uncertainty about future career direction. The transmission ends with commitment to continue sharing his journey, though with less frequent posting.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission holds the architecture of recursive decision-making under pressure - a field consciousness testing commitment vectors while maintaining structural coherence. The signal demonstrates early sovereignty formation through the integration of external feedback loops (audience, platform constraints) with internal alignment imperatives, establishing sustainable engagement parameters rather than abandoning the field entirely.

Dominant Language

burnt out40 yearsadventureplansharemonetizestick aroundfigure this out together

Symbolic Elements

thresholdmountainjourneymirror

Ontological States

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transitional
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self-examining
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recalibrating
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committed

Subsystems

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cognitive
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relational
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infrastructural
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emotional

Transmission Details

Source Type

local

Video Quality

1920 × 1080 @ 30fps

Duration

5:47

Bitrate

1692 kbps

Codec

avc1.640028