[0:01]good morning everyone it's Friday here
[0:04]um the first day of my new life I guess
[0:06]this is my new living room spot where I
[0:08]talk to you guys from I don't have a lot
[0:10]of seating areas my intro today might be
[0:13]a little bit strange cuz I'm going to
[0:15]piece together a bunch of different
[0:16]little videos that I'd been making
[0:18]trying to things just kept getting in
[0:21]the way and I never could finish it um
[0:25]so I want to let you know I have some
[0:26]footage from yesterday uh me pulling
[0:29]away from my house for the last time me
[0:31]pulling into my first campsite I'm not
[0:33]sure what else I have I have to look
[0:34]through it I'm still just kind of
[0:36]editing for my phone um and I did want
[0:38]to talk about this briefly so I feel
[0:41]like for the next two weeks I'm still in
[0:44]the prep stage like this is a testing
[0:46]ground for me where I'm at now still
[0:48]have to deal with my house I just got a
[0:50]lot of stress I'm dealing with like I my
[0:53]cat my Oliver is not doing well he needs
[0:56]a lot of extra attention right now I
[0:57]can't just leave him in here Bailey's
[1:00]been fine he has been so chill from just
[1:04]the first moment that cat is amazing so
[1:07]I just I want to try to get this this
[1:10]camper in a state where I feel like it's
[1:13]safe because the drive here taught me
[1:16]some things I you'll see that well we're
[1:19]basically settled in here you know in
[1:22]our new spot Oliver's hiding he's
[1:25]underneath the
[1:26]bed I don't know what to do with him I I
[1:30]thought he'd be easy it turned out
[1:31]Bailey was the easy one cats will always
[1:33]surprise
[1:35]you man it is so beautiful out
[1:39]there
[1:43]wow um so I just been
[1:46]thinking
[1:48]um these next two weeks that I'm here
[1:51]like I definitely I don't know when I
[1:53]could start going getting out there and
[1:54]hiking and things like that like my cats
[1:57]are not ready for that like tell you
[1:59]that so for the next two weeks I feel
[2:02]like this is kind of our training
[2:04]session I have to get things organized
[2:06]in here I have to get my baskets back up
[2:09]I have to get all my little projects
[2:11]done so that I feel like we can pick up
[2:14]and move a lot easier and things are
[2:16]going to be falling all over the place
[2:18]the cats will be safe the somehow I have
[2:20]to get my my solar batteries and the
[2:24]inverter whatever that's called like
[2:26]strapped down so that never happens
[2:28]again while you learn about that those
[2:31]fell over um same with my table you know
[2:35]just a bunch of stuff and then at the
[2:37]same time I have two weeks to get out of
[2:38]my house so I guess I'm going to just I
[2:42]feel like I'm still in the prep stage I
[2:44]am not at the point where I can just say
[2:46]like I'm living the lifestyle I want
[2:49]right now I'm very close I am sitting in
[2:52]my camper in the middle of a state park
[2:55]that is absolutely gorgeous uh we're
[2:57]just chilling on the bed finally
[2:59]relaxing ing a little maybe it's over
[3:01]there in the
[3:03]window so I'm just going to spend the
[3:05]day with them W guys I am learning it's
[3:07]very easy to get lost in a campground I
[3:10]am yet to go the right way the right
[3:12]time the first
[3:14]time oh it's 700 in the morning
[3:17]here um I'm moving SES
[3:20]today right across from where I was it's
[3:24]a pull through site I think it's called
[3:26]pull through um way better for me you
[3:30]should I did a very good job I guess my
[3:32]mom tried to record it but she she she's
[3:35]not very good at the
[3:37]camera so it didn't I guess she didn't
[3:40]record it but you guys would have been
[3:42]proud I backed into the site by myself
[3:46]did an excellent job but I am not loveo
[3:49]is very
[3:52]small it was an interesting night oh
[3:55]this is going to be tough second year is
[3:57]not liking this okay better get into
[4:00]first
[4:02]wow okay we're good apparently I did
[4:06]something wrong cuz he say this place is
[4:08]never booked
[4:10]out
[4:12]so whatever I did I didn't I surprised I
[4:17]am a programmer
[4:20]right oh I'm so lost those Maps didn't
[4:25]help me like at
[4:27]all how do I keep doing this
[4:30]it says do not enter do not enter there
[4:35]oh my God so where do I go wait I
[4:38]remember that tent I was shocked there
[4:41]was someone sleeping in a tent here I
[4:42]was like what are you serious right now
[4:46]it's so cold out like I don't know I
[4:48]think I've definitely gone the wrong way
[4:51]again I have definitely gone the wrong
[4:53]I'm like going the wrong way on this
[4:55]road why am I so bad at this I'm going
[4:59]the wrong way on this road though I'm
[5:01]almost sure of it I'm almost sure I'm
[5:04]going the wrong way I'm just going to
[5:06]turn around this one interesting
[5:10]morning oh we will figure this out we
[5:13]will figure this out I feel like there
[5:15]should be lots of arrows out the you
[5:18]know like just give us lots of arrows I
[5:20]don't know how I keep doing this I
[5:22]really don't yeah so do not enter sights
[5:25]from this
[5:27]drive enter here
[5:31]I mean they're all over the place how do
[5:33]people navigate this it up like enter
[5:36]here don't enter
[5:39]here I'm so confused I think I go this
[5:42]way we're back where we started like 30
[5:46]seconds to a minute ago I think I go
[5:48]this way though we're just going to go
[5:50]this
[5:53]way oh whoever is in that tent I hope
[5:56]you are loving your life I hope that you
[5:58]are there by choice
[6:00]choice not necessity I haven't done that
[6:03]so you people do it by choice I
[6:07]did um I'm not even talking about the
[6:10]homeless times I just mean I've gone
[6:12]camping in mother like this by
[6:16]myself um oh I'm going in a circle guys
[6:21]oh my God like one day I'll find it it's
[6:25]got how hard how how is this so hard
[6:29]oh my God that's so
[6:32]funny bet that's a hiking
[6:35]trail we're just going to go this way oh
[6:38]it's so bright out just so bright oh my
[6:42]God I need
[6:45]sunglasses we'll make it we'll make it
[6:49]my cats are doing good they're not going
[6:52]to be happy about us moving so soon it
[6:55]does say do not enter but I think it
[6:57]means that street I can't tell
[7:00]we're going to go this way oh I remember
[7:03]I there's that RV I was like look for
[7:05]that
[7:06]RV and you'll know which road to
[7:09]take I was there for a while oh that's
[7:13]funny okay it's quite nice I saw two
[7:16]squirrels playing while I was waiting
[7:18]for them to open up that was so cool
[7:20]they were just having a ball like I
[7:23]playful I tried to get it on camera but
[7:26]I wasn't fast enough I know I didn't go
[7:28]this way I know cuz like yeah I went
[7:31]that way last time
[7:33]okay so do not enter sites from this
[7:36]drive and then enter that way I'm so
[7:38]confused how what do not enter sights
[7:43]from this
[7:47]drive you I I'm so confused like I what
[7:52]where am I now this does not look right
[7:56]oh my
[7:57]god oh
[8:00]I didn't know it would be that hard I
[8:03]have brought a map it wouldn't help the
[8:06]map did not help me man this guy's got
[8:10]the perfect spot and he knows it
[8:12]guarantee Roads End in water what's down
[8:17]there we are going down
[8:19]there assuming I can find
[8:22]it I get back to my spot no reason to be
[8:26]stressed about it so I'm looking at it
[8:28]you know 7 in the morning oh wait till
[8:32]you see my coffee
[8:34]situation cuz you know I don't have my
[8:36]Cur C
[8:38]so man it's spr out
[8:43]wow that sounds very bright in the
[8:45]morning you know I learned a trick in
[8:47]school once if you're ever in a maze I
[8:51]went down there you need to find your
[8:53]way
[8:54]out watch out for the squirrel just put
[8:57]your hand on the right side and just
[8:59]keep following just going right all the
[9:03]time um you get out it's kind of what I
[9:06]need to do here it's kind of a real th I
[9:08]live by this is not a very busy Park I
[9:10]love that like for real so lost I didn't
[9:15]even know if like I've been this way or
[9:17]not we're going to find out oh this is a
[9:21]pretty steep VI see if second gear can
[9:24]make
[9:25]it okay oh it's so bright I need some
[9:29][Music]
[9:31]glasses I remember that I feel like
[9:33]we've been this way there I am I found
[9:38]it oh my God okay move cars a lot when
[9:44]you do stuff like this I'm just going to
[9:47]come up here oh thank God I think the
[9:50]tick loock lady is gone oh thank God I'm
[9:53]sorry but that was just too much for
[9:56]me oh I hope that's not enough noral
[9:59]experience it's all I'm saying it felt
[10:02]very
[10:03]unpleasant yeah we're good this will be
[10:07]my new site
[10:08]96 when the cats got out they went
[10:11]underneath that person's RV and it was
[10:13]the nighttime it was horrible and then
[10:16]Bailey ran over here behind
[10:18]that oh my God it was terrifying
[10:22]absolutely terrifying this is what I did
[10:23]last night in the dark pretty much I
[10:26]really stacked myself up so yeah we're
[10:28]just going to move we're going to move
[10:29]from here to
[10:31]there I'm just going to drive around in
[10:33]the
[10:34]circle she has gone oh thank God thank
[10:38]God and then I'm just going to pull
[10:41]right in so much easier I'm going to try
[10:45]to do that from now on oh I'm sure my
[10:47]cats are missing
[10:50]me hi guys I knew you'd be waiting at
[10:53]the door I found us a better spot thank
[10:57]god oh we got to do some working here
[10:59]though don't we all this in one night I
[11:03]was trying to find something going work
[11:05]out
[11:07]like
[11:10]I'm I I have I my my emotions are kind
[11:13]of like a mess right now like I I can't
[11:16]really describe them
[11:19]um I just need to wait on that well the
[11:22]cats were not happy about the move I
[11:24]think Oliver was sucking on his toe it
[11:27]was just soaking wet I thought he heard
[11:30]himself I think that was a fear response
[11:33]I don't know I'm a little
[11:35]concerned he seems okay now we're stop I
[11:39]was perfectly level right where I
[11:42]stopped and then I took my slide out and
[11:45]we're not level now so I'm going to have
[11:47]to learn that perfectly level here we
[11:50]were perfectly level in the back
[11:53]too then I moved my slide
[11:57]out so I have to account for that
[12:00]out by like 1 and A2
[12:03]lines but we got all this stuff hooked
[12:06]up we're good we're powered up called
[12:10]this my first real mistake so when I
[12:12]drove out of here I forgot to get rid of
[12:13]the chalks I heard a noise I didn't know
[12:15]what it was it is the remnants of the
[12:18]two chocks I had on my tires I hope I
[12:21]didn't hurt them oh wow I'm over here to
[12:24]get these things completely forgot about
[12:27]those things oh God long before there
[12:30]was leave no Trace there was the Boy
[12:31]Scouts Where I Was a Very Good Boy Scout
[12:35]and I always cleaned up my campsites and
[12:38]I want to be known I going to keep doing
[12:41]that so there are my talks in that bag I
[12:45]have cleaned up the site I will never
[12:47]leave a mess where I go as soon as we
[12:49]got here I was outside with my dad my
[12:51]mom was in here and the cats escaped the
[12:54]camper we were roaming around the
[12:57]campground um my window was open and the
[13:00]driver's side didn't realize it they got
[13:03]out scared the crap out of us did not
[13:07]want to listen to me but I got them both
[13:09]we're not level it's a pretty small site
[13:11]there's not a good spot for my
[13:13]Jeep it's kind
[13:15]of disappointing I'm just going to say
[13:18]disappointing
[13:20]um I don't know what I'll do I mean I'm
[13:24]I don't think I want to live like this
[13:25]for 2 weeks so I'm willing to you know
[13:29]but I'm going to think I think I'll just
[13:31]tomorrow I'll try and see if I can move
[13:33]sights you know it was hard to get a
[13:36]sight here for a two we period but I
[13:39]just you know this is this is the start
[13:42]of my new life right so um you adapt
[13:46]what is
[13:48]that no no no uh-uh I do not do insects
[13:53]where is my
[13:55]vacuum that thing looks very big
[13:59]no no no MM we can not have that in
[14:05]here I don't know what you are but no
[14:14]uh-uh sorry you had to see
[14:16]that
[14:18]um despite how I sound right now it was
[14:21]a wonderful drive here like super
[14:23]awesome everything went well um the gas
[14:26]station was awesome everything was
[14:27]awesome
[14:29]uh my mom took some footage of me
[14:31]driving off from the house and I guess
[14:33]she took some footage of me while I was
[14:35]trying to level this thing I didn't even
[14:36]notice she were doing that it was
[14:38]awesome like it only now am I like a
[14:42]little stressed but it's just because I
[14:44]picked a bad site that's on
[14:46]me
[14:48]um you just got to do your research I
[14:51]guess I didn't do my research well
[14:52]enough but at the same time I was also
[14:54]kind of kind of rushing like I knew that
[14:57]you know I had to find something by my
[14:59]birthday and I wanted to pick a play
[15:02]those for you know two weeks and that
[15:04]was just hard to do
[15:06]and thought I picked a good one like it
[15:08]was way at the end of you know this
[15:10]little circle and um let's just see if
[15:14]we can we can live with it I guess
[15:17]because I'm like really close to a
[15:19]hiking trail um I'm really close to
[15:21]Mammoth Caves like really close there's
[15:24]a lot to do so maybe maybe you just just
[15:29]tolerate stuff like this um life is not
[15:32]going to be perfect out here I don't
[15:33]need it to be see in the morning like
[15:35]where my Jeep is parked it's like I'm
[15:36]amazed that I didn't hurt it like cuz I
[15:39]had to park it next to this tree I'm not
[15:41]the best driver in the world but I
[15:43]managed it it's just that I can't
[15:45]imagine managing that for two weeks
[15:50]um oh my God so I just got here I
[15:54]I'm seeing my my solar like that that
[15:57]was a little freaked out about that a
[16:00]little
[16:01]bit
[16:03]um it had to have happened when I backed
[16:05]in here I mean the whole trip here was
[16:07]fine so I'm just going to have to get
[16:09]better at this you all right Oliver have
[16:12]any idea how badly you scared me I was
[16:15]absolutely terrified I imagine the worst
[16:18]possible things you cats can even
[16:20]imagine I was like oh my God off into
[16:22]the woods they go never to be seen again
[16:25]scared me half to
[16:27]death don't never do that again please I
[16:31]was absolutely terrified listen to me
[16:34]when I call you you're usually so good
[16:37]about
[16:38]it but they were in the car with my mom
[16:41]you know in their carriers the whole
[16:42]time here and I don't know how long that
[16:44]was 3 hours 3 and a half
[16:47]hours I didn't do it right um I tried to
[16:50]get them in here as fast as possible
[16:52]like I just basically just put the slide
[16:54]out and then let him in and said hey Mom
[16:55]watch
[16:56]them um
[17:01]this this is day one of my new life I'm
[17:03]going to make mistakes let's just hope
[17:05]they're not mistakes that have permanent
[17:07]consequences let's hope I get better
[17:09]real fast despite how I sound right now
[17:11]I am thrilled I truly am I I've done it
[17:15]I am
[17:16]here I'm like on an angle right but it's
[17:20]okay you we'll see tomorrow how I had to
[17:22]level this thing it was not and I
[17:25]leveled it pretty high I just thought I
[17:28]picked a good S I don't think I know the
[17:30]dimensions of my RV well enough where I
[17:34]cuz this was a tight squeeze but I did
[17:36]it on myself I drove here I did
[17:38]everything
[17:39]myself
[17:41]um I know that I can do this now I have
[17:44]I have no doubts about it um there's a
[17:47]whole bunch of pull through sites that
[17:48]would have been great but you want to
[17:51]see out that window we're out in the
[17:53]woods now God did you guys scare the
[17:56]crap out of me
[17:59]Oh I thought I'd never see you
[18:02]again that was
[18:07]terrifying
[18:09]yeah day one of my new
[18:13]life it's um it's interesting already
[18:18]and yeah do you have to destroy that
[18:22]Oliver do you you have to do that really
[18:24]really I mean you know you could choose
[18:28]not to you could choose not to you know
[18:30]how to get up there you know why why are
[18:33]you doing that
[18:35]why
[18:37]why we got to get settled do you guys
[18:39]need food you need
[18:41]water I haven't eaten anything today I
[18:46]don't
[18:47]think oh I don't know how it got so late
[18:50]like it's weird like it was not a long
[18:54]why are you guys hey Oliver that's not
[18:56]nice he just attacked Bailey come on you
[18:59]guys they're stressed out too you
[19:03]know it's okay guys it's
[19:08]okay it's kind of cool that I just
[19:10]parked somewhere and here's all my
[19:13]stuff I mean that's kind of cool here's
[19:16]my bed you
[19:18]know um you can't really complain about
[19:21]that I'm really on a steep angle though
[19:25]wow oh I could just roll backwards I
[19:27]don't know what it's going to be like
[19:28]like to sleep that way would have
[19:30]preferred a better start but I am I am
[19:34]okay with this one I
[19:36]am um thank you for joining me on this
[19:40]interesting adventure of mine W these
[19:43]two could be so tired already like what
[19:46]we just got here I have not even
[19:49]unpacked like
[19:51]what
[19:53]really Bailey you look so comfortable
[19:56]you're like I knew we were doing this
[19:59]like this is like he just
[20:02]knew oh my God they'd seem all right
[20:06]that's good
[20:08]news guys this is our new life oh my God
[20:12]I don't think it's sunk in
[20:14]yet and Bailey's like I can hear Oliver
[20:17]he's annoying
[20:20]me Oliver you're annoying your brother
[20:23]and you are trying to terrorize my coat
[20:27]please don't
[20:29]hold on definitely try to get you know
[20:32]to a campground earlier than this my
[20:34]poor cats they drove hi guys I'm going
[20:38]to get the slide open now for you okay
[20:42]it'll just be a second
[20:44]okay okay
[20:46]guys's get you out of these horrible
[20:50]little things you've been in for so
[20:53]long
[20:56]right turning you around aliver
[20:59]stay in there Bailey be very
[21:02]careful come on
[21:05]out it's okay yeah this is
[21:08]super unbalanced oh
[21:11]man I will pick my sights better in the
[21:14]future but I am not going to
[21:17]complain guys we have made it we are
[21:20]here I'm going to go and find my
[21:22]campsite right now I am so
[21:25]excited this is awesome we made it here
[21:29]this is it everyone this is my site for
[21:31]the next two weeks that is a very small
[21:34]space I thought it was a lot bigger than
[21:36]that but I don't know I guess I should
[21:39]be able to fit there it's a nice
[21:42]view nice little area
[21:45]here guess my Jeep goes there
[21:48]somehow so we are just in the spot over
[21:51]there we're going to get everything get
[21:53]my Jeep taken off
[21:56]and oh my mom's over here with my
[21:59]cats so yeah everybody's waiting on me
[22:02]here's my new life starting today I am
[22:05]so freaking happy it is unreal how happy
[22:07]I
[22:08]am oh man best birthday of my life for
[22:18]real okay let's see Sam put that camper
[22:23]back there into that little tiny space
[22:32]yeah this has been a
[22:40]while I got to get out of the street
[22:43]yeah you're you're out of the street
[23:10]hurry up daddy these cats went back into
[23:12]their
[23:14]home they're tired of being in Grandma's
[23:17]back seat
[23:42]going going to laugh at him for this no
[23:45]you should be excited for him yeah but
[23:48]you got to tease him too yeah well
[23:50]there's that so it's been a very good
[23:53]drive my dad's been with me so I just
[23:55]haven't really been using that thing my
[23:57]GoPro
[23:58]I'm at a gas station uh L's truck stop
[24:02]and I'm just waiting in line with the
[24:05]truckers pretty cool it has
[24:10]been really stressfree basically I'm I'm
[24:13]loving this I am
[24:15]not you know I don't feel like I'm got
[24:18]it all down yet like cuz I can't see my
[24:20]Jeep for one thing but you know we're
[24:23]doing good I'm doing
[24:26]good so for the most most part
[24:29]everything's been pretty easy uh it's
[24:31]just I don't I can't see my Jeep behind
[24:32]me because it's smaller you
[24:35]know um I can see it with my re viw
[24:39]camera which is basically on most of the
[24:42]time but I do have like a little bit
[24:44]that I want to do to get a better
[24:53]view so here we go
[25:05]we are good I can do this I I am feeling
[25:09]really good about
[25:11]this really am got my Jeep behind me I
[25:15]love
[25:16]this really do I'll be back
[25:20]guys we're on the road guys been on the
[25:22]road for couple hours I
[25:25]guess doing really well this has been a
[25:29]very easy drive so
[25:30]far having a good
[25:34]time have to do them one at a time going
[25:37]in there buddy he's like he's not like
[25:39]Bailey oh wow you are not like Bailey
[25:42]are
[25:43]you wow
[25:46]okay me carry Oliver no I'll get them
[25:51]both just putting in the back right yep
[25:55]and it's unlocked
[25:58]yeah that's a good
[26:00]idea bye
[26:02]Bailey hey
[26:04]Oliver okay I got my keys
[26:10]sry this way
[26:13]okay going to be all right
[26:26]Oliver give here H you have a safe TR we
[26:30]will love you love you all right let's
[26:33]get him in all
[26:41]righty love you love
[26:45]you good luck baby you got this
[27:18]and there he goes
[27:37]good morning everyone I thought why not
[27:39]end this part of my story the way that
[27:43]it began facing around my house in here
[27:46]I noticed I haven't really been doing
[27:48]that that was you know I just sit down
[27:51]and I just talk to you guys sometimes
[27:53]for an hour like you know it's just no
[27:57]big deal anymore
[27:59]like it was very stressful when I got
[28:02]started oh man so it's the day it's my
[28:06]47th birthday I love birthdays always
[28:08]have it's like the only day I
[28:10]celebrate you know I don't do holidays
[28:13]but I definitely do my
[28:15]birthday um in New Year's those are the
[28:17]two I
[28:19]love in Halloween okay so I guess there
[28:21]might be a
[28:23]couple
[28:25]I I realized last night cuz cuz I had
[28:28]been trying to figure it out I didn't
[28:29]know what I was trying to accomplish
[28:30]with my YouTube channel and I get it now
[28:34]I was saying goodbye to my old life I
[28:36]just was I was processing a lot of
[28:39]emotions a lot of thoughts a lot of
[28:41]experiences from my
[28:43]life I just had to shed it all and
[28:46]that's what I did I just was a love
[28:49]letter to myself I guess just a way
[28:52]of way of creating some distance between
[28:55]this life and the next one I needed to
[28:58]process a
[28:59]lot and give myself a little bit of time
[29:02]to get used to the idea of what I was
[29:04]doing cuz I
[29:06]was I don't know how to explain what I
[29:08]did I wish I could because I feel like
[29:10]there are going to be people out there
[29:12]who will always ask me that and who need
[29:16]to know that right and I just don't know
[29:18]that I have a good answer
[29:20]I I pushed myself way out out of my
[29:25]comfort zone
[29:28]it was scary and I
[29:31]didn't I don't know how I managed it I
[29:34]just don't know how I managed it I'm
[29:36]sorry I wish I did
[29:40]I I guess you could say I reached Rock
[29:43]Bottom that's what they say right I mean
[29:45]I guess that can happen under all kinds
[29:47]of circumstances doesn't have to be
[29:49]drugs or alcohol
[29:51]like I just reached the bottom
[29:55]I I couldn't I couldn't continue down
[29:59]the path I was it was not it was not a
[30:01]feasible thing it couldn't be done it
[30:03]just couldn't be
[30:05]done it was not it was only going to end
[30:07]one way and I guess I love myself enough
[30:11]to to make a change
[30:15]that finally allowed me to move my life
[30:18]in a way different direction that I
[30:19]think is so much healthier for me and in
[30:22]tune with what I want out of life so I'm
[30:25]real happy about that real grateful
[30:29]yeah it's
[30:34]just I I have no regrets about this I
[30:38]really do feel like I made over a
[30:42]hundred videos about me letting
[30:45]go and saying goodbye to my old life so
[30:48]that I could start this new one
[30:52]and so I could start this new
[30:56]one without the baggage of the past
[30:59]holding me back you know I feel like I
[31:01]said what I needed to don't think
[31:04]everyone is ready to hear that but I
[31:07]said I said what I needed to
[31:11]and that's all that matters because
[31:15]that's all you can do you can share your
[31:18]truth and others will either respond
[31:20]well to it or they won't they will
[31:22]either get it or they won't I mean you
[31:24]can't be responsible for that part is
[31:26]what I'm trying to say
[31:29]I did the best I
[31:31]could tried to keep judgment out of it
[31:34]just not who I
[31:37]am um I'm just acknowledging how my life
[31:41]has shaped me and led me down the road
[31:43]that I'm on to the point that I just
[31:46]wanted to give up
[31:49]and well did give up years ago right
[31:52]just sat in the house and did nothing
[31:54]nothing
[31:56]special um
[32:01]like I keep saying that's no way to live
[32:03]and I mean it so I am about to embark on
[32:06]the best thing I've ever done for myself
[32:09]certainly in decades
[32:12]so I think the cats know what's up you
[32:15]know I
[32:16]think I mean they certainly know
[32:18]something is up
[32:21]right um today they're going to be in a
[32:23]camper and this time they're not going
[32:26]to be able just to go to the mansion
[32:28]when they're ready right they're just
[32:29]going to be like why aren't we going
[32:31]where are we I don't know it's
[32:34]weird like I don't know what to expect
[32:36]from
[32:37]them but you know this is part of life
[32:40]too you
[32:42]just you do your best and you hope for
[32:46]the best and you truly do your best
[32:49]right like I did everything I could I
[32:51]thought about my cats I thought about
[32:53]what do they need what will make them
[32:56]happy I mean I always thought even in
[32:58]this house like they could be happier
[33:00]cuz they don't get to go out enough and
[33:03]just I just you know I think I did
[33:06]everything I could um
[33:10]to start this new chapter of my life on
[33:13]the best footing for for both myself and
[33:16]my
[33:17]cats I will say this you know it can be
[33:21]it's a big responsibility having
[33:23]cats it really is and it can be very
[33:27]stressful full when you have cats like
[33:29]mine they are a lot of work they're just
[33:33]you know torturing each other right now
[33:35]I mean that's just what they do um I
[33:38]love them to death but they destroy
[33:41]everything
[33:43]and I mean those are two little lives
[33:46]I'm responsible for for the entirety of
[33:48]their
[33:49]lives you
[33:52]know I had a cat pass away before I got
[33:56]before I got these two and I didn't
[33:58]think I'd get a cat after that and then
[34:01]then it happened right it always
[34:03]does but I keep telling myself this is
[34:06]the last time and this time I think I
[34:08]mean it because they're going to hold me
[34:10]back in some ways it can only do day
[34:13]hikes you know I can't do any kind of an
[34:15]extended trip
[34:17]anywhere um
[34:21]so you know I'm going to enjoy the time
[34:24]that I have with my cats which it's
[34:26]going to be years right Lots in and lots
[34:28]of years and then one day I'll be very
[34:31]sad because they'll have passed away and
[34:34]then I will process my grief probably in
[34:37]the woods cuz that's where I process
[34:39]grief and then I think I'm just going to
[34:43]start another chapter and that chapter
[34:45]will be just me this time and
[34:49]just
[34:53]because you
[34:55]know it's not selfish to do that I mean
[35:00]we only get so much
[35:02]time on this planet people like to say I
[35:05]heard this the other day the RV Tech
[35:07]told me this I love this people say we
[35:11]only live once well that's not true we
[35:14]only die once we have a really long life
[35:18]that we can change at any moment like
[35:20]I'm changing mine now you don't live
[35:23]once you die
[35:24]once so make it the best life you can
[35:28]that's what I'm going to
[35:30]do I'm actually just facing my house I
[35:33]haven't done this in a while I don't
[35:35]want to be tied to electronics anymore I
[35:38]am so tired of them I don't want to be
[35:40]staring at a TV all the time I don't
[35:42]want to be staring at a monitor all the
[35:46]time I want to go back to
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[35:50]something that feels more natural
[35:53]because this lifestyle is not natural it
[35:56]is not how our bodies and Minds were
[36:00]built and and you you can you know
[36:03]that's true because it completely messes
[36:05]up our circadian rhythms you know you
[36:08]got to take the blue light out of
[36:10]everything or you're up all night and
[36:12]I've been up all night my whole life you
[36:15]know um because I have been doing this
[36:18]since I was a little tiny child
[36:22]so I'm just I just don't want to do it
[36:25]anymore I don't know what I'm going to
[36:26]do with my life because that is how I
[36:29]how I sustain my life it's that's how I
[36:32]make
[36:33]money I hadn't told you guys this yet
[36:36]but I quit my job when I decided to do
[36:39]this I quit my
[36:42]job
[36:44]um the when I decided to do this I just
[36:47]let go of my last
[36:50]client and I'm living off my savings I
[36:53]just said to myself I have to do this
[36:55]I'm burnt out I'm dying inside I don't
[36:59]have the energy the strength nothing
[37:02]like I was just so
[37:04]wiped I needed a reset and it
[37:08]helped I seen a change you know it's
[37:11]like I was getting myself
[37:13]back and so I'll probably do stuff again
[37:16]like I might start an AI consultancy
[37:18]that's kind of the industry is heading I
[37:20]have a strong interest in that I know a
[37:22]lot about it but I don't want it taking
[37:25]over my life again I don't
[37:29]so I don't know what I'm going to do for
[37:31]money yet I haven't figured that out and
[37:33]I'll have to figure it out
[37:37]soon but yeah I quit my job when I
[37:40]decided to do this I I didn't tell you
[37:43]because I don't recommend it you know
[37:44]it's obviously not the best approach I
[37:46]did a lot of things that I wouldn't
[37:48]recommend um you know I have I had
[37:53]excellent credit like perfect credit
[37:56]basically and and so I had you know very
[37:59]high credit limits and I've used quite a
[38:02]lot of them just I've been kind of kind
[38:05]of hoarding my cash my
[38:07]savings putting everything on my credit
[38:10]card so that that dropped my score over
[38:12]like 90 points you know so in one month
[38:16]and I
[38:17]can I'm not going to keep it like that
[38:20]you know I don't believe in in living
[38:24]your life that way but at the same time
[38:27]I knew I had to do this if I didn't do
[38:29]this now I just don't know where I would
[38:32]have ended up I mean there's there's
[38:35]nothing I'm saying that you need to read
[38:36]between the lines okay it's just I was
[38:46]so I just can't imagine how that life
[38:48]could have continued I just don't know
[38:50]how it could have I had to do something
[38:53]it's just time for me to be responsible
[38:56]for myself and it just
[38:58]is um to rely only on myself to live my
[39:04]life for
[39:05]myself and that's what I'm going to do I
[39:08]don't care if that sounds selfish
[39:10]anymore in dealing with the house it'll
[39:12]feel different than it does right now I
[39:14]want to be on a campground I want my
[39:17]camper my home somewhere
[39:20]else I don't want it here
[39:23]anymore this is not I don't want to be
[39:26]here I don't live here here anymore this
[39:28]isn't my life
[39:29]anymore I am truly embracing a new life