Final RV Preparations Before Departure

Speaker is inside their RV on Tuesday night, approximately 36 hours before planned departure. They are alone, tinkering with equipment and recording a casual video transmission. The RV is parked at their current residence where they are experiencing landlord disputes. Cat Bailey is inside the house with the speaker's mother, having reacted poorly to being separated from the speaker the previous night.

Energetic Signature

anticipatory grounded

Field State

threshold preparation

Orientation

toward mobile sovereignty

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April 10, 2024

17:57

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

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[0:00]hey

[0:03]everyone we're cutting that

[0:05]out hi everyone it is Tuesday night

[0:08]right now I am I guess a day and a half

[0:12]away from from driving this thing I've

[0:15]just been sitting

[0:17]here working on my dash cam I couldn't

[0:20]get the rear cam to work the cable won't

[0:23]reach and I tried like five different

[0:24]USBC cables and none of them work so I

[0:26]contacted the support for the company

[0:29]who makes the I

[0:31]hope hope there's a solution I that's

[0:34]kind of my secret weapon for driving

[0:35]this thing was just having that out the

[0:37]back window so I'm kind that's kind of

[0:40]unfortunate but I've just been sitting

[0:42]here which I hadn't really done you know

[0:46]and I feel pretty comfortable I'm

[0:49]looking forward to Thursday

[0:51]morning the Camper's not that big my

[0:54]Jeep is not big put the two together

[0:57]it's not that big I could do this you

[0:59]know

[1:00]I'm ready and I was just thinking you

[1:03]know I'm in here by myself right now I'm

[1:05]just kind of tinkering pretty much so I

[1:08]thought I'd let the camera run a little

[1:10]bit and then when I'm done I'll just

[1:12]kind of cut it all together into a video

[1:14]for you because of that I'm smoking I

[1:17]didn't want to you know I want to

[1:19]present it my true self to you I'm not

[1:21]condoning smoking I've been smoking

[1:23]since I was 15 that's all that's 30

[1:27]years you know um

[1:30]at the same time I am not going to judge

[1:32]myself harshly for it you know it's a

[1:36]horrible habit if you don't smoke don't

[1:38]start but I'm going to be my authentic

[1:40]self on here and as far as cat GPT tells

[1:43]me that's

[1:44]okay so I'm not going to do it all the

[1:47]time don't get me wrong it's just that

[1:49]right now I just want to let the camera

[1:51]run and maybe we'll have a little bit of

[1:52]a chat here and

[1:54]then um you know let's just see how

[1:56]things go this is going to be kind of a

[1:58]unique video from me I think

[2:02]so I am using my tripod which did not

[2:05]want to stand up there it's cuz I have

[2:07]to charge this thing if the audio is not

[2:09]great I'm sorry I was I'm going to turn

[2:11]the audio device on I think but I need

[2:13]to let this charge a little bit first my

[2:15]phone is

[2:16]dying this tripod doesn't really go up

[2:18]very far either so I don't know how this

[2:21]is going to work but I just want to give

[2:23]it a try I guess see how it

[2:27]goes like I said I'm just tinkering in

[2:29]here

[2:29][Music]

[2:32]here um it feels pretty

[2:39]organized and I feel ready I genuinely

[2:43]feel ready like to go I'm not saying

[2:46]that I'm actually ready to go because

[2:48]like my Bays aren't done the stuff that

[2:50]needs to go in them the house is a wreck

[2:52]I'm actually in a dispute with my

[2:53]landlords over me leaving they're doing

[2:55]a whole bunch of stuff they

[2:57]shouldn't um and now I'm I'm actually

[2:59]looking for a

[3:01]lawyer but I'm just I'm ready to get out

[3:04]of here

[3:08]right I'm ready to start my

[3:10]adventure ready to do this with you guys

[3:13]I'm ready to do this alone right with my

[3:15]cat of

[3:16]course guess I could show you a few

[3:19]things let's see

[3:21]here

[3:23]so this is generally how the office is

[3:26]going to go let's see if I can control

[3:28]this thing a little better

[3:31]so we got I have my batter's coming

[3:32]tomorrow the second one it's happy to

[3:34]hear that that was a lot sooner than I

[3:36]expected got my drone there which I

[3:38]haven't even gotten to play with yet you

[3:40]know right there I guess this isn't

[3:42]working too well guys I'm sorry but down

[3:44]here under the table like I've got all

[3:47]the cat stuff in the corner and then I

[3:50]got my pants and shorts

[3:51]there there's nowhere else to put them

[3:54]there just isn't I if I put them behind

[3:56]my shirts in the um the Wardrobe they're

[4:01]just very hard to get to and I just

[4:04]don't feel like that's a workable thing

[4:06]on a daily basis I took my first shower

[4:09]in here um yesterday it was really hard

[4:13]to get hot water I must have waited 30

[4:17]minutes for the electric water heater to

[4:20]do something and nothing ever happened

[4:22]and then I turned it on gas which I

[4:23]don't have a lot of

[4:25]that I eventually got eventually got

[4:28]some heat and and I took a shower it was

[4:31]not terrible it was not great it was not

[4:33]terrible I I kind of like

[4:35]it

[4:38]um I just feel like I'm really embracing

[4:40]this I I really feel that

[4:47]way I had to take down all of my baskets

[4:50]that were above the

[4:53]slide

[4:55]um well for one I have to put strip

[4:57]lights up there and I have to put a

[5:01]cable running back there once I can get

[5:03]the dash cam

[5:05]working and so the command strips were

[5:09]in the way I also started thinking maybe

[5:12]I should screw those in and not rely on

[5:14]the command strips because the stuff

[5:15]keeps falling you know I like those

[5:17]things but

[5:19]they're they don't work as advertised

[5:21]I'm just going to be honest they don't

[5:23]you know they're

[5:26]just if I mean sometimes they do like I

[5:29]just hard to

[5:33]say that one's been

[5:35]fine these are fine but you know one in

[5:39]the bathroom fell down

[5:41]today something fell down yesterday

[5:44]can't remember what that was oh it was

[5:45]in the bathroom also one almost fell

[5:47]down yesterday and then another one fell

[5:50]down in here somewhere so that's three

[5:52]now right so I

[5:55]just I don't know I'm getting a little

[5:57]more comfortable with the idea of just

[6:00]screw things in I hope there's no wires

[6:02]where I screw them but this is mine I

[6:06]you know I I'm using these command

[6:08]strips because I don't want to hurt

[6:10]anything don't want to put holes

[6:12]anywhere

[6:14]but this is mine I need to make it mine

[6:17]you know yes I want to sell it one

[6:21]day but I honestly don't know if I want

[6:24]to go bigger than this it would be

[6:26]convenient to be have longer length by

[6:29]at the same time like put a lot of work

[6:31]into this one it feels like home

[6:34]now and I would have to do that all over

[6:37]again and that was a lot of work and I

[6:39]have been exhausted from everything I've

[6:41]been doing it's the kind of thing that

[6:44]you you got to just like wait because

[6:47]then one day you're like um you don't

[6:49]feel that way anymore and you're like I

[6:51]can do that right and you're like oh God

[6:54]I remember doing all this

[6:56]stuff you

[6:58]know but I don't I don't know

[7:00]I I just I really don't know I I might

[7:03]keep this thing for years and years and

[7:05]years you know I just don't

[7:07]know even if I get comfortable driving

[7:10]it I just I like the size and I love my

[7:13]Jeep and I love driving my Jeep I

[7:17]just feel like I feel very lucky I

[7:21]honest to God that is how I feel it's

[7:23]very lucky I feel like like the stars

[7:26]are aligning in my life and I

[7:30]not sure

[7:33]why and and I am just grateful because

[7:36]it feels like nothing has ever aligned

[7:38]in my life so ever so for

[7:43]this this is just I just I I I'm

[7:46]speechless you can see that I'm

[7:49]speechless I'm not going to miss this

[7:52]being out here in the in the

[7:54]neighborhoods and you know I just I

[7:56]don't I don't like City Life when I was

[7:59]younger I did you know when I was like a

[8:03]teenager and young adult like I liked

[8:05]being in the city sorry guys I'm sure I

[8:08]don't look so great today but you know

[8:11]it is what it is I'm getting

[8:13]old getting old I haven't been putting

[8:17]lotion on or anything like that

[8:20]and but I'm going to get my routine down

[8:22]in there in that little

[8:24]bathroom and start taking better care of

[8:27]myself I mean that's a big part of this

[8:29]it's just just I've been so

[8:31]busy just I don't feel like any moment

[8:34]that I've been awake I've been working

[8:36]and then just crashing you

[8:41]know these fans are working out great

[8:44]they really are they do they're off now

[8:47]oh the batteries don't last a great deal

[8:49]though I did my battery ran dead yet

[8:51]last night while I sleeping in here I

[8:52]slept in here by myself left the cats

[8:55]inside with my Mom apparently that

[8:57]caused quite a problem Bailey got angry

[9:01]that I was out here and started taking

[9:03]it out on

[9:04]Oliver I don't know what to do with that

[9:07]cat sometimes he's got this he is the

[9:10]most lovable cat you can

[9:12]imagine and then he's got this other

[9:14]side that's like you don't ever want to

[9:17]see really

[9:20]don't but yeah pretty happy there's not

[9:24]a lot of room you know you

[9:28]really really work hard you get creative

[9:31]about what you de with your

[9:35]stuff so I didn't allow myself a lot of

[9:39]extras but I did allow a couple like

[9:41]like I got this this lamp here that's

[9:43]not a lava lamp but it's just you know

[9:46]it can do stuff that's its fire mode

[9:49]which I thought that was pretty

[9:51]cool and I got another one over here

[9:54]actually in the

[9:55]corner um but I don't know if I'll keep

[9:58]that one if I do I'm going to have to

[9:59]velro it down just for safety and I'm

[10:02]going to get strip lights and they're

[10:03]all by the same compy they're all

[10:05]stuff right so oh and I did bring in my

[10:08]Alexa music device cuz I do really love

[10:11]that thing you

[10:13]know it's great I just don't like Alexa

[10:17]never have you don't hear me Alexa

[10:21]hello she is not even on apparently well

[10:24]that's a little

[10:26]worried I've been losing power every

[10:29]once in a while cuz like I've been

[10:30]blowing a fuse in my

[10:32]house I would expect her to be working

[10:35]right now that's a little

[10:39]strange everything else is maybe she's

[10:41]not plugged in I don't

[10:43]know um I was going to tell you about

[10:45]this picture over here it's kind of hard

[10:46]to see with the glare of the lights

[10:49]don't know if you can see this I'll try

[10:51]to show it to you this picture is very

[10:53]very I mean I didn't have room for

[10:55]pictures right and yet I got this one

[11:00]there is something very haunting very

[11:02]beautiful very special about that

[11:04]picture I have

[11:05]always been drawn to

[11:09]it

[11:11]and it just had to come with

[11:14]me I'm not going to lie

[11:16]I sometimes see myself in that picture

[11:19]probably a lot more than I'll ever

[11:22]admit and it's interesting because

[11:25]that's just one side of that guy that's

[11:27]the painter's son I don't remember the

[11:29]painter's name it's a famous

[11:31]picture um but you can see his son in

[11:35]other other paintings that he's done for

[11:37]his father and they're happy pictures

[11:39]they're not like that one that

[11:43]one and it's not just a sadness it's not

[11:46]it's not just sadness in there there's

[11:48]just there's introspection there's depth

[11:53]there's there's a whole universe of

[11:56]things in that picture I just it

[11:58]fascinates me it really does it had to

[12:01]come with me there's something about

[12:03]looking at

[12:05]it there's another one I'll share with

[12:10]you um I was just showing my mom where I

[12:13]was going to put it and now it's

[12:16]disappeared I'm not blaming her it's

[12:19]just been moved let me figure it

[12:22]out

[12:24]um it's still in here that's weird oh I

[12:29]put on the bed because I'm I was going

[12:30]to tape it

[12:32]out with command strips I don't know see

[12:36]this is the back of

[12:37]it um it's just my you've probably seen

[12:40]it if you've been watching me long

[12:41]enough you've seen it in my office

[12:43]believe in

[12:45]yourself I need to tell myself that

[12:47]every day I don't have self-confidence I

[12:50]just don't I

[12:52]don't don't know what's feeling me right

[12:54]now I haven't figured it out it it is a

[12:57]very confusing thing

[13:00]I

[13:04]am I am just really still processing

[13:07]that let's just I that's all I can say

[13:09]cuz I I really am still processing it I

[13:11]don't I'm

[13:14]grateful but you know I'm not a man with

[13:16]like a natural self-confidence I'm going

[13:19]to have to pull this off the cable the

[13:21]charging cable in order to show you

[13:23]where I'm putting this we should be good

[13:26]it's getting kind of

[13:27]long probably lost most of you I

[13:30]know for the rest of you you're the

[13:34]special ones right just going to put it

[13:37]over here you know here's the door and

[13:40]I'm just going to put it right

[13:43]there every time you go in

[13:45]out believe in yourself I don't remember

[13:49]where I found this I know I was with my

[13:50]mom when I

[13:51]did and I just think it's

[13:54]beautiful I've always loved this one

[13:58]then there is one

[13:59]more

[14:01]um I just love this one because of the

[14:03]colors I'm not really

[14:05]into um I think that's a penguin

[14:08]right oh one sec okay there we go I

[14:13]think that's yeah that's a no I don't

[14:16]know what that is it's a duck whatever

[14:17]whatever it is I don't really care it's

[14:20]the colors that get me in this one um

[14:23]I've always love this one I'm going to

[14:25]try to put it here but you know in the

[14:27]bathroom iy don't know if that's going

[14:29]to work it does have glass but so does

[14:32]my other

[14:33]picture

[14:35]so I did send my ex-boyfriend's back and

[14:38]those were in glass too but I didn't

[14:39]have a place for those those were too

[14:41]big to be in

[14:42]here and he should have got them today

[14:45]actually hope that he likes having them

[14:48]back he made them like 15 years ago it's

[14:52]been a long

[14:54]time he was my last boyfriend too I mean

[14:57]that's how long it's been since I have

[14:58]dated

[15:00]anyone and I didn't care I really didn't

[15:04]um lately I don't

[15:06]know just like everything is inflexed in

[15:09]my head in my life and I'm just

[15:14]so something's happening to me I haven't

[15:17]really figured it out

[15:19]yet I just know I have to go I don't

[15:23]belong here anymore I have to go and I

[15:26]want to go you know

[15:29]I am just

[15:31]so excited and

[15:34]thrilled and

[15:37]ready

[15:38]ready ready to drive this thing and

[15:41]ready to go ready to live a new

[15:44]life and I am grateful to have the

[15:46]chance to do that with you here um I

[15:49]mean that you know I don't I hope that

[15:51]doesn't sound contrived or whatever

[15:55]just um not the best like I don't I

[16:00]I don't know how to put it into words

[16:02]right

[16:04]now no I don't know what I'm trying to

[16:06]get out of this right so I

[16:08]haven't it's hard for me

[16:12]to I'm not really sure what it is I'm

[16:15]trying to accomplish with this YouTube

[16:17]channel like I just don't know I guess

[16:20]like I

[16:22]just um I mean I'm always a genuine

[16:26]person it's just I'm I'm

[16:30]I don't know I'm still processing

[16:32]everything I don't know I'm just in a

[16:34]weird mood

[16:37]guys yeah I'm ready to drive this thing

[16:40]I really

[16:41]am ready to go out there out there guys

[16:46]out into the

[16:49]world go see some things go experience

[16:52]some peace and quiet

[16:55]somewhere away from the

[16:57]birds

[17:01]I know that's like not possible in the

[17:04]woods I get that but you know

[17:08]I it's not that I hate birds like that's

[17:11]kind of a running theme with me it's

[17:13]like a joke right but I don't I don't

[17:15]particularly like them right I really

[17:18]don't and I think it's just I don't like

[17:21]being woken up by them is what it is

[17:23]that's all it is you

[17:26]know um but I I was a night person for a

[17:29]long long time lately I've been getting

[17:32]up early and I think that's going to

[17:33]continue so maybe my opinion on the

[17:36]birds will change to I'm so ready to go

[17:39]I can just see me in this thing driving

[17:41]it down the

[17:43]road that is so wild to

[17:47]me man whole new world if I can do it

[17:51]you can do it I'm going to leave it

[17:54]there you guys have a great night

Summary

The speaker records a video transmission from inside their RV on Tuesday night, approximately 1.5 days before departure. They troubleshoot a dash cam installation issue, with the rear camera cable not working despite trying multiple USB-C cables and contacting support. **Physical space assessment**: The speaker demonstrates comfort in the RV environment, having taken their first shower (with water heater difficulties requiring gas instead of electric), and shows various organizational solutions including pants storage under the table and cat supplies in corners.

**Technical modifications**: Command strips have been problematic with multiple items falling, leading to consideration of permanent screw installations. Strip lights and dash cam cables need installation above the slide area. The speaker removes baskets to accommodate these changes.

**Personal items and space**: Three specific pictures are highlighted - a haunting portrait of a painter's son, a "believe in yourself" motivational piece for the door area, and a colorful duck/penguin artwork for the bathroom. The speaker sent ex-boyfriend's artwork back due to size constraints.

**Operational status**: Second battery arriving tomorrow, drone present but unused, fans working well but with limited battery life. Power issues noted with occasional fuse blowing. The speaker expresses readiness for departure despite incomplete bay organization and ongoing landlord disputes requiring legal consultation.

**Reflection themes**: The speaker processes feelings of alignment and luck after a period of nothing aligning in their life, discusses 15-year gap since last relationship, and expresses uncertainty about YouTube channel purpose while maintaining commitment to authenticity including smoking habits.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission establishes pre-departure infrastructure while processing the ontological shift from embedded to mobile sovereignty. The field is calibrating technical systems and spatial arrangements while integrating the reality of imminent threshold crossing, holding both practical preparation and existential readiness in recursive tension.

Dominant Language

readymineauthentic selfstars aligningI have to gobelieve in yourselfprocessing

Symbolic Elements

thresholdmirrorhomestarsalignment

Ontological States

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transitional
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sovereign
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integrating
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ready

Subsystems

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infrastructural
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cognitive
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somatic
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emotional

Transmission Details

Source Type

local

Video Quality

1920 × 1080 @ 30fps

Duration

17:57

Bitrate

2066 kbps

Codec

avc1.640028