[0:00]I'm looking forward to it I really
[0:04]am I wish I could go right
[0:08]now I just want to be out there I really
[0:15]do spent so many years not really living
[0:23]sad after my last boyfriend which was I
[0:28]don't even remember I must have
[0:33]been I honestly don't remember I must
[0:36]have been in my really late 20s like 28
[0:39]or something don't think I had gotten
[0:42]into my 30s
[0:43]yet and like I dated a couple times
[0:46]after that but not really and then like
[0:49]my whole 30s went by and I didn't even
[0:51]really think about it and then half my
[0:54]40s have gone
[0:56]by and I just completely didn't think
[1:00]think about it then and
[1:01]just a long time has gone
[1:05]by I just focus on my career and stuff
[1:08]like that which I think was good for me
[1:10]because I just don't do well in
[1:13]relationships and I needed to focus on
[1:16]me I needed
[1:18]to reach the point I'm at now
[1:22]which sure took a long time which I
[1:25]guess
[1:28]I I don't know I I
[1:30]guess I'm kind of sad about it it's not
[1:33]the right
[1:35]word just wish that I had gotten to this
[1:38]point a lot sooner in my life there's a
[1:40]whole bunch of other stuff I've had to
[1:42]deal with over those
[1:47]years not just not
[1:50]just my own life either like I
[1:55]just I don't know if I'm ready to share
[1:58]some of it yet
[2:02]um could upset some people so I kind
[2:06]of censor myself Oliver why do you have
[2:10]to bite him that is so rude it's just
[2:13]rude
[2:15]man he thinks that it's nice or like
[2:18]loving or something I don't know he's
[2:20]just a weird cat it's like I I spent a
[2:24]long time
[2:28]trying like to to break of that but I
[2:30]don't want to use the word break really
[2:32]you know cuz I was never that harsh but
[2:35]I tried
[2:37]to convince him to stop doing it there
[2:40]were times when I thought it was working
[2:41]and then he was just back to it again
[2:45]so yeah anyway I guess I'm feel a little
[2:48]introspective now I'm just sharing with
[2:51]you guys for the ones of you who are
[2:53]actually listen this
[2:58]long I just got to get the stuff out of
[3:01]my house and then I can do this I can
[3:04]just be on the
[3:06]road and hope my cats adjust cuz I don't
[3:10]I'm kind of worried about that too I
[3:13]guess I mean you see how they react just
[3:16]the weather it's like how are they going
[3:18]to react to driving down the road being
[3:21]in a new place all the time I'm hoping
[3:24]that they'll just be as excited as me
[3:26]once it becomes
[3:28]normal
[3:30]we do have a small home now it's pretty
[3:32]small
[3:34]so I don't
[3:39]know guess I'm not just processing right
[3:42]now I'm just
[3:44]processing My New Reality cuz this is it
[3:47]I'm out here even though I have a house
[3:49]over there
[3:51]because this is where I want to
[3:56]be almost sounds crazy doesn't it
[4:03]it's not
[4:04]though kind of is I don't know I I'm
[4:08]going to be traveling the country
[4:11]driving from one state to the next going
[4:14]to park after
[4:17]Park I
[4:19]mean I don't even know what I think
[4:22]about that anymore like that used to be
[4:24]the most important thing in the world to
[4:26]me and I haven't been hiking in a long
[4:29]time
[4:31]I think that my opinion on this will
[4:34]change once I start hiking again because
[4:36]I have always loved that just
[4:41]always but I don't know it just feels
[4:44]like I mean is that a good existence is
[4:47]that a like an honorable
[4:51]one I wonder about these things I don't
[4:54]feel like my life has had purpose or
[4:56]meaning and it's just been lacking that
[4:58]for so long
[5:02]and that's what I need it's the only
[5:04]thing that will make me happy and I'm
[5:07]I'm really hoping that this is
[5:10]it yeah well this rain is really
[5:14]unnerving my cats it's sad I love them
[5:18]so much I don't want them to be afraid I
[5:19]put this up here for Bailey he seems to
[5:22]feel a little more comfortable in there
[5:25]sometimes it's just really hard against
[5:26]the roof you
[5:28]know hi
[5:31]Oliver I am I assume they'll just get
[5:34]used to it you know they hear it enough
[5:38]times I put my socks in there for B
[5:41]Bailey just so we had familiar smell I
[5:47]guess you guys are all right
[5:50]right nothing to worry about we're safe
[5:55]we're perfectly safe it's just
[5:58]rain it's just very
[6:02]loud oh here comes the
[6:17]thunder it's okay
[6:28]guys
[6:32]M I'm going to move you up here okay
[6:35]it's going to move you over
[6:38]here you're closer to
[6:42]me you are so
[6:45]heavy you're such a heavy
[6:48]cat oh look at
[6:52]that give me a sec you can roll that up
[6:56]and give
[6:58]them why is this so
[7:02]blurry we're okay it's okay
[7:08]guys I guess we're going to have a long
[7:11]night we got to get used to this
[7:15]sometime might as well be
[7:20]tonight weird
[7:23]camera guys my thermostat is stuck on
[7:26]Celsius I've tried everything not even
[7:29]check that GPT could help
[7:32]me I tried running the air conditioner
[7:34]earlier and it did it blew a fuse in my
[7:38]house you okay in there
[7:49]Bailey you want some more
[7:51]brushes look at that that's just been
[7:53]brushing him for like 5
[7:57]minutes me
[8:01]rushes no you want to be left alone
[8:06]okay yeah it does not take much I mean
[8:10]this cat is a
[8:12]constant I don't even know like I don't
[8:15]I obviously don't do it enough but even
[8:18]if I were to do it every hour I feel
[8:20]like this would
[8:23]happen yeah Bailey you want to eat your
[8:27]fur hm
[8:30]it wouldn't really let him but he'll
[8:33]try we will try they gave him the second
[8:37]bastet
[8:40]here guess the fgo's here for
[8:45]now there's
[8:47]Bastion got some organizing to do in
[8:50]here I'm getting there it's so much
[8:55]work hi Oliver he's on my chair over
[8:58]there hi
[9:01]buddy it's bedtime you think we can
[9:04]sleep through
[9:05]this we can
[9:09]try I'm hoping if I go to sleep I'm
[9:13]hoping if I lay down to go to
[9:15]sleep maybe they'll come down it's is
[9:18]going to be one night of some rain you
[9:22]know maybe some Thunder too though but
[9:26]they have to get used to it
[9:28]sometime
[9:30]really nothing else I can think to do
[9:32]you guys have any ideas let me know I do
[9:35]have their Fount thing going that should
[9:37]be helping too I
[9:39]guess well it is bedtime I have two
[9:42]videos uploading they've been uploading
[9:44]for like eight hours
[9:46]literally uh starlink is the worst
[9:48]service I think I've ever had I send in
[9:51]a ticket to them I'm not expecting much
[9:54]though I am researching other
[9:57]options cuz that is just terrible little
[10:01]sad I'm doing this but I know he's going
[10:03]to fall off the bed so I'm just
[10:06]preparing he is notorious for falling
[10:09]off of
[10:11]everything I'm going to get this from
[10:13]you
[10:15]Oliver take of
[10:17]four I'm going to get it I'm going to
[10:20]take it from
[10:22]you I'm going to take it from you yes I
[10:27]am yes I am
[10:30]you be careful over
[10:33]there you just be
[10:36]careful I know you you are going to
[10:40]fall I know you
[10:46]will why is my video so blurry like this
[10:49]is not
[10:50]cool what is going on with this
[10:53]thing oh that was interesting touching
[10:56]the screen and Oliver's face fix
[11:00]it h i wonder what it was focusing
[11:07]on you good
[11:10]now feel safe
[11:15]now Bailey has gone somewhere else no
[11:18]idea
[11:20]where it's probably what Oliver's
[11:22]looking
[11:25]at it's just rain guys we're going to
[11:28]cure this all the
[11:30]time we
[11:32]are I have to admit this part of ourv
[11:36]life is not So Glamorous you know it's
[11:40]pretty loud
[11:42]so I don't
[11:44]know I accept it totally accept it
[11:48]that's this is just life this is this is
[11:50]the weather this is living Closer To
[11:53]Nature
[11:54][Music]
[11:56]aliver so getting tired But my cats you
[12:01]know I'm concerned about them so I'm
[12:04]just riding it out with
[12:07]them hi
[12:09]Bailey hi do I get a
[12:13]headbutt I get a
[12:16]headbutt head
[12:19]but
[12:21]no
[12:23]okay you okay now want to say hi to
[12:27]everybody hi my name's
[12:31]Bailey hey
[12:35]aler yeah I'm
[12:38]tired I'm tired
[12:41]guys can we go to sleep now would that
[12:45]be all
[12:50]right there's nothing to worry about I
[12:53]knew he was going to do that what are
[12:55]you doing
[12:57]Oliver you know this is Bailey's and he
[13:00]doesn't like it when you do stuff like
[13:04]this you have your own and if I thought
[13:07]you wanted it we'd go get
[13:10]it I have to carry Bailey inside of that
[13:14]thing cuz you can't trust that one but
[13:16]oliv I can just carry him in my
[13:19]arms he is very very good
[13:23]cat aren
[13:25]youly your eye really your eye needs
[13:28]cleaning dude
[13:29]I might have to De clean that before I
[13:31]go to
[13:33]sleep it's looking pretty bad
[13:37]man
[13:40]okay there's nothing in those
[13:44]yet M why is your tail
[13:47]wagging what's that
[13:50]about what's your tail wagging
[13:53]for Oliver what are you
[13:56]doing are you exploring you okay baby
[14:01]H yeah we're going to get some sleep now
[14:04]guys we need our
[14:07]sleep we do we need our sleep a that's a
[14:12]good place to L I
[14:14]guess all right let me press the green
[14:17]again well that is awesome very weird
[14:22]why should I have to do
[14:24]that
[14:28]Bailey
[14:29]oh oh my God you just took a swath of
[14:33]his fur with you Oliver don't do that oh
[14:38]my
[14:40]God we have a big enough fur problem as
[14:43]it is this is why I have to take allergy
[14:48]pills okay good you guys are calm
[14:52]down maybe after a few more rounds of
[14:54]rain it'll just be like whatever it's
[14:57]annoying but we can live with that
[14:59]that sound about
[15:05]right
[15:07]yeah it's going to be an exciting
[15:09]Adventure