[0:00]hey everyone so it's 3:00 in the morning
[0:03]I'm in from the
[0:04]rain um I took a really long nap today I
[0:08]just came inside and slept on my normal
[0:10]bed cuz that other bed was just terrible
[0:14]but I and I ended up taking a really
[0:15]long nap I think I woke up at like it
[0:18]was late I think it was dark out
[0:21]so yeah I just wanted to say I realized
[0:25]that I started using this YouTube
[0:27]channel a little differently than I
[0:28]intended so I want to correct that
[0:31]before it goes
[0:32]anywhere so first of all thank you for
[0:34]following me there's like nearly 60 of
[0:37]you which is just mindblowing to
[0:40]me um when I started this channel though
[0:43]I said that I really don't care like if
[0:47]I only have a few followers um who want
[0:49]to follow my journey for me this is kind
[0:52]of cathartic I can just share my
[0:55]thoughts I can look back on them and
[0:57]just you can share my journ with me and
[1:01]you you know we can help each other just
[1:03]all of that
[1:05]stuff um and I didn't know I was doing
[1:09]this I just realized this so in YouTube
[1:12]Studio it tells you a bunch of stuff it
[1:14]tells you
[1:15]like like the average length that
[1:17]someone watches your videos so and I
[1:20]noticed that you know it tends to be
[1:21]about half like people watch about half
[1:24]of it and then stop watching and so that
[1:26]got
[1:27]me it changed my behavior I didn't
[1:30]realize it like I was like okay then I
[1:33]should just make shorter videos try to
[1:35]stay on topic like like all of that and
[1:39]but that's not what I'm trying to do
[1:40]here I'm not trying to grow a super big
[1:43]audience I'm not trying to capture your
[1:45]attention that's a thing I think is just
[1:48]wrong um with social media you know like
[1:52]it's just destroying society as far as
[1:54]I'm concerned so I'm not trying to
[1:56]capture your attention and keep it every
[1:58]moment
[2:01]um I just want to be myself and just for
[2:06]those of you who want to stick around
[2:07]and and and do that with me you know I
[2:11]mean wonderful hi
[2:14]Bailey um so yeah I I'm trying so hard
[2:18]not to fall victim to doing
[2:22]what what others do or what YouTube
[2:25]wants you to do or what it looks like to
[2:27]be successful on here because I mean I'm
[2:29]not trying make this a career either
[2:31]like it's
[2:32]just um just not so yeah um you guys I
[2:36]hope you have a good night um guess I'll
[2:40]end it there I mean otherwise I will
[2:42]start rambling but it'll be just totally
[2:44]pointless rambling have a good night