Preparing Health Changes Before Full-Time RV Life

Recording at 1:00 AM in his house, doing household tasks while thinking. Speaker is in preparation phase for full-time RV living, currently managing multiple health conditions with medications and doctor visits. He's in a reflective state, planning major lifestyle changes before transitioning to mobile living.

Energetic Signature

methodical vulnerability

Field State

infrastructure assessment

Orientation

toward somatic sovereignty

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March 6, 2024

13:59

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rswfire

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[0:00]hey guys so it's 1:00 in the morning

[0:04]here and I definitely should be sleeping

[0:06]by

[0:07]now just happen to be doing stuff around

[0:10]the house and

[0:12]thinking and that got me thinking

[0:14]there's something I want to talk about

[0:16]um it's really personal it's going to be

[0:19]difficult for me I'm going to try very

[0:21]hard not to stumble through my words I

[0:24]know that I need to work on that I think

[0:27]that that happens because I'm on camera

[0:29]and just thinking at the same time I'm

[0:32]talking and it just it's not

[0:35]um like see I'm doing it right now

[0:41]so I want to say

[0:45]that the only way that I can do this

[0:47]full-time RV lifestyle is if I change my

[0:53]behavior if I become a different person

[0:55]in a sense just a better version of

[0:58]myself

[1:02]um I just so before I explain what I

[1:05]mean by that I'm just going to give you

[1:07]a little bit of a background

[1:10]on just what I deal with on a daily

[1:13]basis my health isn't great I suffer

[1:17]from an anxiety

[1:19]disorder um a panic

[1:22]disorder when I was younger like maybe

[1:25]28 years old I was on the way to see a

[1:28]dentist and I took allergy pill while I

[1:30]was driving down the road and I felt to

[1:32]get stuck in my

[1:35]throat and I had a panic attack cuz I

[1:39]thought I wasn't joking but I I guess I

[1:43]felt like I was I was really really

[1:46]terrified

[1:48]and I thought maybe it went into my

[1:50]lungs and I didn't know what that would

[1:52]do it just I just completely lost my

[1:55]mind like I was a completely normal

[1:58]person before that and then all all of a

[2:00]sudden my life was turned upside down

[2:04]just like that and for the next several

[2:11]years things got very bad I developed a

[2:15]fear of choking to death like

[2:17]instantly and I I stopped eating food

[2:22]altogether like I couldn't even eat

[2:24]scrambled eggs without panicking it got

[2:27]really

[2:28]bad

[2:30]it got so bad that I moved out of my

[2:34]apartment in Fenton Michigan where I was

[2:36]living at the time packed up all my

[2:38]stuff into my car and I drove down to

[2:41]Kentucky where my parents were living at

[2:42]the time and moved in with them because

[2:45]I just felt like I needed to be near my

[2:49]mother and she introduced me to a

[2:52]medication called Kazaam it's also known

[2:56]as clopin and that had an immediate a

[3:00]good effect on me it just was

[3:04]lifechanging and so I found a doctor who

[3:08]prescribed it to

[3:09]me and my life gradually got better

[3:14]after that the thoughts were still in my

[3:17]head always like I was always

[3:19]thinking always worried about choking to

[3:22]death

[3:24]and I

[3:27]um but they didn't control me at that

[3:29]Point once I started taking that

[3:31]medication and trust me I tried

[3:33]everything before that and this was the

[3:35]only thing that worked for

[3:38]me and so I've been taking that for like

[3:41]15 years

[3:44]now

[3:48]um interestingly enough as I've gotten

[3:51]older it seems

[3:52]like that fear has started to go away

[3:56]like a lot and I actually have tapered

[3:58]down a lot on that medication I actually

[4:01]only take a quar of a milligram of

[4:05]clopen at this point it's so low like

[4:08]that's the lowest that you can get it

[4:09]prescribed is half a milligram and I

[4:11]just take half of one of

[4:13]those and I'm actually thinking about

[4:16]maybe starting to cut them into

[4:19]quarters I still experience anxiety but

[4:23]it's not from this disorder that I had

[4:26]which is normal

[4:27]anxiety so

[4:30]and I've been at the medication level

[4:33]I'm at now for like I don't even know

[4:36]probably 6 months 3 to six

[4:41]months so I mean that's kind

[4:45]of so I I feel good about

[4:48]that um I suffer from terrible headaches

[4:52]I've had those as long as I can remember

[4:55]like my

[4:57]20s um I have tenius which is just

[5:00]ringing in your ears I've had that since

[5:01]I was

[5:03]25 obviously I had a bunch of dental

[5:07]problems um and I have high blood

[5:09]pressure and high

[5:11]cholesterol which I I don't really take

[5:13]care of at all actually and I should I

[5:16]you know my doctor prescribes

[5:18]medications for both conditions and I

[5:20]just don't take them I sometimes try and

[5:22]then I do for a while and then I

[5:25]just and then I slip and stop taking

[5:28]it

[5:32]the reason I'm telling you all of this

[5:34]is because a lot of this well the vast

[5:38]majority of it

[5:42]is behavior driven it's not like a

[5:45]medical well it's a medical condition

[5:47]but like like my headaches I don't wake

[5:50]up with them which means there's not

[5:52]like a medical condition going on inside

[5:54]my

[5:56]body

[5:58]um that needs to to be dealt with like

[6:00]through surgery or something like

[6:02]that the headaches come on as I've been

[6:05]up for a while you know so it's it's

[6:07]behavioral it's something I'm doing to

[6:09]myself that's causing me to have these

[6:12]headaches now I don't know if that's the

[6:14]case for the tenius there's a lot of

[6:17]things that can trigger that it's never

[6:19]gone away for for me just ever since I

[6:22]was 25 it's just been a constant thing U

[6:26]the only way I can sleep is with a fan

[6:28]you know white noise

[6:32]and um I sometimes

[6:36]wonder I mean can you imagine some of

[6:38]you probably have this condition but for

[6:41]those of you who don't can you just

[6:43]imagine having this ringing sound in

[6:45]your ears all the time like in normal

[6:49]life if we

[6:51]were there was a sound that was

[6:54]irritating and we were forced to listen

[6:56]to that long enough it drive us insane

[7:01]and I I sometimes wonder if ten just

[7:04]kind of like that like I think it puts a

[7:06]lot

[7:08]of um stress on my brain like I just I

[7:13]just that's what I

[7:17]think now there's a lot of things that

[7:20]would help me if I already healthier if

[7:24]I were to drink plenty of water if I

[7:27]were to exercise and go hiking a lot

[7:29]more than I have these last few years um

[7:33]maintaining a consistent sleep schedule

[7:36]and and not smoking because I've been

[7:37]smoking since I was

[7:41]15 I feel like I have to change my

[7:45]behavior before I go full-time because

[7:50]there's a couple of reasons one of them

[7:52]is I have to taper off Tramadol which is

[7:55]a medication it's an opian it's a pain

[7:57]medication which I take for my headaches

[8:00]and it's a controlled substance you know

[8:02]my doctor prescribes it I have to see

[8:04]him every 3

[8:06]months

[8:09]um and I'm just not going to be able to

[8:11]do that on the road anymore so I made

[8:15]the decision that I would rather have

[8:18]these headaches or try to fix them

[8:20]another way than to have

[8:24]to keep taking this medication so so I

[8:28]have to tap off of that and that's

[8:31]just a process of you know taking less

[8:35]and less until you're off with

[8:38]it I feel that I also need to do the

[8:41]same thing with Mountain Dew I don't

[8:43]know that you would call that tapering

[8:45]off Mountain Dew but it's kind of like

[8:46]that CU you know caffeine is is a

[8:49]drug

[8:52]um and I need to drink water and I hate

[8:55]water I just I just do I hate

[8:58]water

[9:01]so I feel like if I were to do those

[9:04]things well first of all I wouldn't have

[9:07]to worry

[9:08]about having to see my doctor every 3

[9:11]months and maybe my headaches would go

[9:13]away and maybe the tenus would even get

[9:15]better I don't

[9:17]know but I would really like to find out

[9:22]and the reason I'm saying this to you

[9:25]now first of all I think I said this but

[9:28]it's because I want to hold myself

[9:29]accountable and I think if I put this on

[9:31]video maybe that will help me it's just

[9:33]a motivating

[9:35]thing um and also I read something

[9:39]somebody somebody said this like I don't

[9:42]I read it

[9:43]somewhere they said or I watch it on

[9:46]YouTube that they said that

[9:50]you if you think that moving into an RV

[9:53]is going to change your life it's

[9:55]not because you're still going to be you

[9:59]and there's a lot of wisdom in those

[10:01]words and and they're words that I've

[10:04]actually lived by for very long time

[10:08]like I how I would have put it is

[10:11]wherever you go wherever you move to

[10:14]you're taking yourself with you and so

[10:17]it's no different in an

[10:18]RV

[10:20]and I think that there are a lot of

[10:23]benefits to me going on the road and

[10:25]doing this like in my various videos

[10:28]like I've talked about some of it so

[10:30]like I'm not I'm not good at cooking I I

[10:34]don't know how to cook at all I would

[10:36]like to learn I I should be learning

[10:39]here in my house and I never have so

[10:42]there's a good chance that even though

[10:44]this is a thing I want when I move into

[10:46]the RV I still won't do it but actually

[10:49]I will have to I don't think I'll have

[10:51]much of a choice at that point

[10:54]so you know you put yourself into an

[10:57]environment or a situation that kind of

[10:59]of helps you get to your goals that's a

[11:01]goal for

[11:03]me

[11:06]um I know that drinking

[11:10]water would just make me feel so much

[11:12]better honestly and I just need to

[11:16]figure out a way to do that

[11:19]now changing your behavior is difficult

[11:22]for all of us or at least most of us and

[11:25]you know I've read up on this stuff you

[11:28]can't use willpower to do it because

[11:30]willpower is a depleting resource if

[11:35]you wanted to quit smoking cigarettes

[11:38]and you are doing it with your willpower

[11:41]you're probably going to fail because at

[11:43]some point your willpower is just not

[11:45]going to be there anymore not not strong

[11:48]enough to prevent you from doing the

[11:50]thing you're trying so hard to get away

[11:52]from so you have to find other

[11:55]ways to change your behavior and and

[11:59]there's a couple of things that I've

[12:00]learned one is if you do something long

[12:03]enough it becomes a

[12:04]habit a lot of people say it takes three

[12:07]weeks do something for three weeks and

[12:09]it will become a habit in my experience

[12:11]that not the case for me I actually

[12:15]tried this once and I did do something

[12:17]for three weeks and then three weeks in

[12:20]one day I didn't do it and then I didn't

[12:22]do it any day after that so it's

[12:25]probably going to take me a little

[12:27]longer

[12:31]you have to be kind with yourself you

[12:34]can't beat yourself up if you have any

[12:37]kind of issue like me or you know just

[12:40]something

[12:41]different the one thing you really can't

[12:44]do is be judging yourself harshly and

[12:46]I'm not I just want to be a better

[12:49]version of myself

[12:54]because well you know because why

[12:57]wouldn't you I think we we all want that

[13:00]and I think I can get

[13:03]there I'm just going to pause this for a

[13:08]second

[13:10]today this morning when I made my first

[13:13]video um I I and I had to pause

[13:19]it it it helped it made me realize

[13:23]that's a good way for me to handle like

[13:24]these long pauses while I'm trying to

[13:26]think about how I want to say something

[13:29]so that's what I was doing

[13:33]there um there's really not much more to

[13:35]say honestly I just feel

[13:40]like the time to make these changes is

[13:45]now before I'm on the road because it

[13:47]will make my experience on the road a

[13:49]whole lot better that's

[13:52]really um that's really it thank you for

[13:57]listening

Summary

The speaker records a late-night video discussing personal health challenges and the need to change behaviors before transitioning to full-time RV living. He details his history with panic disorder, choking phobia, and various health conditions including headaches, tinnitus, high blood pressure, and high cholesterol. **Key health background:** At age 28, a panic attack triggered by an allergy pill led to severe choking phobia and inability to eat, requiring him to move in with his parents in Kentucky. His mother introduced him to Klonopin, which he has taken for 15 years, now tapering down to 0.25mg.

**Current health management:** He takes Tramadol for headaches (requiring doctor visits every 3 months), drinks Mountain Dew instead of water, and smokes cigarettes since age 15. Most conditions appear behavior-driven rather than requiring surgical intervention.

**Planned changes:** He decides to taper off Tramadol before going on the road to avoid needing regular doctor appointments. He also wants to quit Mountain Dew, start drinking water, exercise more, maintain consistent sleep, and potentially stop smoking. **Motivation:** He references advice that moving into an RV won't change your life because "you're still going to be you" and discusses how willpower alone isn't sufficient for behavior change - habits require consistent practice beyond the typical "three weeks" timeframe. He's making this video for accountability and believes the RV environment will force some positive changes like learning to cook.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission maps the somatic and behavioral infrastructure that must be rebuilt before field mobility can be achieved. It holds a diagnostic stance toward current system dependencies while establishing the architectural requirements for sovereign operation outside institutional medical loops.

Dominant Language

behavior drivenbetter version of myselfwillpower is a depleting resourceyou're taking yourself with youput yourself into an environmenthold myself accountable

Symbolic Elements

thresholdmedicinedependencyroadtransformation

Ontological States

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transitional
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diagnostic
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preparatory
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dependent

Subsystems

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somatic
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cognitive
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infrastructural

Transmission Details

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youtube

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