[0:01]good morning guys it's 4:30 a.m.
[0:04]here I went to bed at midnight and I
[0:08]just I've woken up twice now from bad
[0:10]dreams I just wanted to share that with
[0:12]you before I went back to
[0:16]sleep uh I'm just having bad dreams
[0:19]about RV life about just being on the
[0:22]road managing my
[0:25]resources just stuff like that I
[0:30]I know what's happening I don't see it
[0:32]as a bad thing I'm things just got real
[0:36]for me you know I'm so close to owning
[0:38]an
[0:39]RV and living this life that now my
[0:42]subconscious is like trying to protect
[0:45]me
[0:46]and think of all the different scenarios
[0:48]that I might
[0:50]encounter and
[0:53]just keep me safe by working
[0:57]out the experiences that I could have
[1:01]it's just fear I
[1:03]mean it's this is one of the ways that
[1:06]we learn
[1:09]um I just find it
[1:11]fascinating I wanted to share it with
[1:13]you because this was the kind of
[1:17]experiences I thought you know were
[1:19]worth
[1:20]sharing when you're transitioning
[1:24]from like normal life to RV
[1:28]life I didn't expect this so it's I just
[1:32]think it's very
[1:34]interesting uh I have woken up twice now
[1:37]though he like every two hours I'm
[1:39]waking up and it's something to do with
[1:41]RV living
[1:44]so that's
[1:46]interesting um I'm having some fear also
[1:51]just about getting financed I'm trying
[1:53]to finance like
[1:54]$84,000 that's a
[1:56]lot the most I've ever tried to finance
[1:59]in my life life I was able
[2:03]to finance my first
[2:08]RV um you know the one in December it
[2:11]was like
[2:12]40,000
[2:13]40,000 so this is a little bit more than
[2:16]twice
[2:18]that and it's just you know it's the
[2:21]most expensive thing I've ever tried to
[2:22]finance the first one was really
[2:25]easy they didn't even like try to
[2:27]confirm anything but my credit was super
[2:30]good at the time it was like 780
[2:34]and you know just from recent activity
[2:37]including financing that RV which is
[2:40]still showing on my credit as an open
[2:43]account um it's paid off but it's
[2:46]showing us open until it
[2:49]Cycles uh my score went down quite a lot
[2:52]it's like around 740 right
[2:54]now so I just have a little bit of fear
[2:57]wrapped up in that too because if I
[2:59]can't find Finance this I'm not sure
[3:01]what I'm going to do am I going to buy
[3:02]one that's 20 years
[3:05]old
[3:07]um because I think that's that would be
[3:09]where I would be at so I mean they told
[3:12]me they didn't see an issue I asked them
[3:14]to try to finance it with the same bank
[3:17]that financed it the first time and
[3:18]that's what they did I saw them pull my
[3:21]credit while I was on my way home it was
[3:24]after the RV place had closed the
[3:26]dealership had
[3:28]closed so so I don't know I think they
[3:30]probably have an answer from them but I
[3:33]just don't know what it is yet they
[3:35]might not know until you know when they
[3:37]get in in the
[3:38]morning so I mean you take all of that
[3:42]and combine it
[3:45]and this just doesn't surprise me at all
[3:48]like this I'm just working
[3:53]out it's just things got real I'm so
[3:57]close to doing this and my
[4:00]my brain is saying whoa this is
[4:05]crazy like you're going to be managing
[4:07]your resources on the road all the time
[4:10]Propane fuel finding places to stay like
[4:14]all of that and it's a lot
[4:18]so and because I've never done it before
[4:21]because you know it's all
[4:24]new it's just you know those I you might
[4:28]have to expect those kinds of dreams it
[4:30]doesn't bother me I I love dreams
[4:33]whether they're good or bad I just just
[4:35]find them fascinating so I'm good I want
[4:39]you to know that I'm I'm doing good I'm
[4:42]I'm still super
[4:44]excited um but there you know I've got
[4:47]some fear right now some
[4:49]anxiety about life on the road about
[4:51]getting this
[4:53]financed and it's
[4:56]just that's where I am at the moment
[4:59]this is my reality
[5:03]today I hope I'll know more tomorrow I
[5:05]think I will so I will update you when I
[5:09]know more have a good night
[5:12]bye