Beginning RV Life Journey Documentation

Speaker is at home in Kentucky, February 2024, two days before scheduled dental implant surgery. He is in the early planning phase of transitioning to RV life, having recently made the decision after a failed land purchase attempt in December. He has been isolated at home since COVID began and is preparing to sell household possessions.

Energetic Signature

raw determination

Field State

threshold crossing

Orientation

toward authentic embodiment

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February 25, 2024

15:44

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Author

rswfire

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[0:01]hi everyone I have a story to share with

[0:04]you I haven't really thought this

[0:06]through I don't know what I'm going to

[0:08]say

[0:11]um I hope you'll stick it out with me

[0:13]and see if this is something that

[0:14]interests you didn't want to wait cuz I

[0:16]want you to see this from the

[0:18]beginning um so let me just start off by

[0:21]saying as you can see I have no teeth

[0:23]I'm 46 years old I lost my teeth from

[0:26]drinking Mountain Dew my whole

[0:28]life there's no amount of money in the

[0:30]world it's going to save you from that

[0:31]so keep your kids away from that stuff I

[0:34]still drink it you know I I I hope that

[0:38]changes hopefully soon right um I'm

[0:41]getting Dentures I I have bottom ones

[0:45]and some temporary top ones but I just

[0:47]can't wear them doesn't work for me I

[0:49]get this gag reflex I actually have a

[0:51]surgery in two days to get implants on

[0:53]the top few months after that from

[0:56]healing I should be able to wear them

[0:59]and I

[1:00]hope you know I'll look like the rest of

[1:02]you

[1:03]then so I want you to know what I'm

[1:07]about to do cuz I'm making some big

[1:09]changes in my

[1:11]life I am about to embark on the biggest

[1:14]journey of my life

[1:16]I'm I am selling all my stuff I have a

[1:21]house full of stuff to get rid of buying

[1:24]a camper and I'm going out there and I'm

[1:26]living the RV

[1:27]lifestyle I wish I had done done this 20

[1:30]years ago and I almost did uh

[1:33]something I wanted to do even 20 years

[1:36]ago I just wanted to visit all the

[1:39]national and state parks and blog about

[1:42]those and encourage people to get out

[1:44]into

[1:45]nature because I think it's the most

[1:47]wonderful thing a person can do in the

[1:51]world I find so much Solace there I

[1:54]always have since I was a

[1:56]child

[1:58]um

[2:01]I bought a pop-up camper and I had like

[2:04]I think it was probably my first Jeep

[2:06]then I had some on my fifth one now but

[2:08]back then it was probably my first Jeep

[2:11]and I drove that thing to New Jersey in

[2:12]wintertime was a pop-up camper winter

[2:15]time cuz I had I had a client there

[2:18]you'll learn more about what I do

[2:20]later

[2:22]um and that just didn't work for me you

[2:24]know was

[2:25]cold pop-up camper that I had I don't

[2:28]really know a lot about them I couldn't

[2:30]you know I don't think I had really the

[2:31]ability to cook

[2:32]anything um nowhere to shower I did have

[2:36]like a a toilet that I never used it was

[2:40]just

[2:41]a like a mobile toilet you know so I

[2:43]just I never used that so I was

[2:45]showering on the campgrounds in the

[2:47]middle of winter and it just wasn't a

[2:49]good experience and I gave up on my

[2:51]dream after that I wish I hadn't but I

[2:55]did and for the next 20 years I have

[2:58]just been living a normal life like

[3:00]everybody else does um just doing my

[3:04]best to get through the world right it's

[3:06]it's very hard isn't

[3:08]it it can be a challenge I think it can

[3:11]be very hard to be human like it's just

[3:15]it's not easy we all struggle we all

[3:18]struggle with different things I

[3:21]mean

[3:22][Music]

[3:23]um so I don't know I guess that's where

[3:27]my story starts here I want you guys to

[3:29]see see what it's like from the

[3:30]beginning I've recently discovered

[3:33]YouTube you know where um there's quite

[3:35]a lot of

[3:37]RV um not even sure what you call them

[3:40]right just RV lifers or whatever who are

[3:44]documenting their Journeys I don't know

[3:47]if I'll do

[3:49]that um I'm going to try I think but

[3:52]what I really want you to see is what

[3:55]it's like from the beginning from Once

[3:57]the from the time that you've made the

[3:59]decision decision that this is what

[4:00]you're going to

[4:02]do I want you to know what that's like

[4:06]cuz I'm going to experience it and I'm

[4:08]experiencing it

[4:10]now and I haven't seen anything like

[4:12]that and I think I think it's important

[4:15]for people

[4:16]to it helped me to see these other

[4:20]YouTubers living their

[4:22]dreams I was really

[4:25]struggling cuz I I haven't even driven

[4:28]an RV yet I know I'm getting a

[4:30]see I'm scared death to drive it I'm

[4:32]going to be toying my Jeep behind

[4:35]it um you know and i' been really

[4:38]struggling with that how am I going to

[4:39]do this how am I going to go to a gas

[4:42]station

[4:43]um you know driving a big class scene

[4:47]towing a jeep behind it like how how am

[4:49]I going to do that I've never done that

[4:51]you know and I I haven't seen a lot

[4:54]about that um I read a book last night

[4:57]it's pretty short book I I wish wish I

[4:59]could remember the name it was an ebook

[5:01]I read from an

[5:02]RV and he had something to do with um

[5:07]he'd been doing it for seven years and

[5:09]the concept of the book was these are

[5:11]the things I wish I'd known seven years

[5:14]ago and he you know he talked about a

[5:16]lot of things it was a great book U he

[5:19]talked about having to sell your stuff

[5:21]you know all your stuff I've got a house

[5:23]full of stuff just so much

[5:26]stuff um but he never never mentioned

[5:30]the fear of just driving an arvine you

[5:35]know I I I really have trouble picturing

[5:38]me doing that but I know I can you know

[5:43]and I'm going to do it I I'm I've made

[5:46]the decision so that's where I am now

[5:49]I'm I'm at the beginning I'm going

[5:54]to well I have a lot of plans to make

[5:57]basically and I've been I've been doing

[6:00]that um and I got a lot of stuff to sell

[6:03]I have an RV to find I I need

[6:08]to I need

[6:11]to just just so many things right like

[6:14]it's just it's a lot and I want to share

[6:17]that with you I want you guys to see

[6:18]what that's like um cuz I hope it helps

[6:21]somebody else it's a big decision but I

[6:24]think once you make

[6:25]it once you've made that decision you

[6:28]will feel a lot better I I do I

[6:33]I I am so excited to do this like I just

[6:37]know how rewarding it's going to be for

[6:40]me like I just I know that I'm going to

[6:43]love this I know it's going to be

[6:46]challenging I'm not the type of person

[6:51]who um can just

[6:55]ignore the reality of a situation like

[6:58]that's always at the Forefront of my

[6:59]mind mind I know this is going to be

[7:01]hard for me cuz I know me right so I I I

[7:05]just know how much of a challenge it'll

[7:07]be for me to do a lot of things that a

[7:08]lot of people take for

[7:10]granted

[7:11]um you know and and good for them I wish

[7:14]I could it's just that I can't I I I'm

[7:19]an introvert I struggle with being

[7:22]around

[7:23]people um you know it's hard for me it's

[7:25]hard for me to go places it's hard for

[7:27]me just to go anywhere and I've been

[7:29]pretty much locked up in my house ever

[7:31]since covid and that's what four years

[7:33]ago I have not been living it hasn't

[7:36]been a

[7:38]good hasn't been a good way of life and

[7:42]that has to change I had to do

[7:45]something um this wasn't my first idea I

[7:48]was going to buy some land I in December

[7:52]was going to buy some land I wanted to

[7:54]make a campground of my own place for

[7:56]people to come um from scratch I mean

[7:59]that that would have been a big big

[8:01]project fell through I couldn't get the

[8:03]lamb because they couldn't get me a

[8:06]title um but I still had this problem I

[8:10]was

[8:11]unhappy I was unhappy with my job was

[8:15]unhappy with the way I'm

[8:17]living just it wasn't working you know

[8:21]it's just not

[8:25]working I don't know exactly how

[8:30]I decided that RV living was the way for

[8:33]me to go I hadn't been watching anything

[8:36]on YouTube at that point it just was an

[8:38]idea I had

[8:41]um my original idea was that I would

[8:44]find something I could to with my Jeep

[8:45]Wrangler it's a twoo Jeep Wrangler it's

[8:47]a 2023 beautiful it's red it's my third

[8:50]red

[8:51]one I love Jeeps I'm a Jeep guy

[8:56]and I discovered they can't tellw

[8:59]anything they just they can't they can't

[9:01]tellw anything you know well they can

[9:03]tellw a few things right but gener they

[9:05]just they can't tellw much and I have

[9:07]two cats and they're coming with me you

[9:10]know I can't abandon my cats um you'll

[9:12]you'll learn about them because they're

[9:13]going to be a part of this like Bailey

[9:16]he he was abandoned by his mother one

[9:19]day after he was born in winter in

[9:21]Michigan I went up there and got him and

[9:25]you know pretty much raised him from

[9:26]birth

[9:28]he he awesome you know and I mean I

[9:33]still don't understand how how a mother

[9:35]could do that I mean he she just picked

[9:37]up all her babies and went to another

[9:39]porch and left him there this woman she

[9:43]found him out there and took him back to

[9:46]the mother and the mother just rejected

[9:47]it I mean wow right and I'm so grateful

[9:52]and fortunate to have him and then my

[9:55]other cat Oliver

[9:57]he um someone just threw him out of a

[10:00]car here in Kentucky just threw him out

[10:02]of a car into a field I got him on my

[10:05]birthday one year he's I call my

[10:07]birthday cat cuz I just decided I wanted

[10:09]a cat for my birthday so I got him and

[10:11]it was like a few weeks after that that

[10:13]I got

[10:14]Bailey um and since then you know it's

[10:18]been I'm not sure it's been a long time

[10:21]five six years it's about how old they

[10:24]are and you know they're they're my life

[10:27]they have to come with me at to have

[10:29]enough room for them so getting getting

[10:31]back to the point right

[10:33]um my Jeep can only tow 2,000 2,000 lb I

[10:38]I you know I'm thinking wow I have a

[10:40]Jeep Wrangler like this is supposed to

[10:42]be the most rugged vehicle ever made

[10:44]right but you know that's true it's true

[10:47]for you know off-roading things like

[10:49]that it's not true for towing stuff and

[10:53]I I am terrified of

[10:57]towing anything thing um but I thought

[11:01]you know what I could do a a small

[11:04]camper behind my jeep that could work

[11:06]right um no cuz my cat

[11:11]so it just isn't a thing

[11:15]that I have to get over this fear I have

[11:18]get a class

[11:19]C1 and Tow my Jeep behind that cuz I

[11:22]definitely want my Jeep anywhere I go

[11:25]and so that's what I'm going to do I've

[11:27]looked at some I don't know if I'll get

[11:29]a new one or a used one uh the one I'm

[11:32]looking at is new but you know I since

[11:34]having discovered this whole

[11:36]Community

[11:38]um seems to

[11:42]be uh

[11:47]generally I don't know how to say this

[11:49]basically I think people would suggest

[11:52]that I get something used you know

[11:54]something that I can get used to on and

[12:00]um just see how that goes and then if I

[12:02]want something you get it but you know

[12:03]make sure it's it's what I want that I

[12:06]I'm comfortable with it I learn what

[12:09]what features in an RV I need that sort

[12:11]of thing so I'm totally open like I I

[12:15]don't know what I'm going to get yet I

[12:17]just know it'll be Class C cuz I looked

[12:19]at the class B you know the Vans and

[12:21]that just wouldn't work for my cats

[12:23]that's how I look at that one uh it

[12:25]would be easier for me I think but you

[12:27]know no room for my cats situation with

[12:29]like pop-up campers and you know if they

[12:32]have to be under 2,000 lbs you're you're

[12:36]you're you're getting some specialty

[12:38]stuff like really lightweight stuff and

[12:42]they're they're small and you're going

[12:45]to probably do your cooking outside and

[12:48]just you know stuff like that um just

[12:52]not a lot of room and so it just it

[12:54]feels like Class C is the way to go I I

[12:56]do think that I'll do a lot of

[12:57]boondocking like

[12:59]that's something

[13:01]that appeals to me a lot um I don't have

[13:06]to I am fortunate

[13:09]I um I'm I'm a programmer first of all

[13:12]I've been doing that since I was a

[13:14]child and you know I'd say I'm pretty

[13:18]good at it and you know so so I have

[13:20]money I have enough money to buy an

[13:23]arvine um to get all the things I

[13:26]need um

[13:29]so I'm fortunate in that regard and you

[13:32]know so I have a very good start I have

[13:35]to keep working you know I'm not

[13:36]independently wealthy or anything like

[13:38]that I have to keep

[13:40]working um but you know I've got time

[13:43]I've got time to get started to do

[13:46]this and you know I'm very excited

[13:48]there's a lot I'm going to share with

[13:50]you you know I'll just take you around

[13:52]my house

[13:53]and you know show you this is what it

[13:55]looks like I have to sell all this stuff

[13:58]how did I get get all this stuff you

[13:59]know I didn't even need all this stuff I

[14:02]was trying to live a life that was

[14:03]somebody else's it it wasn't mine it

[14:07]never it

[14:10]just I know some of you get

[14:13]it and I guess it's you I'm trying to

[14:15]reach I'm not going to try to be some

[14:17]big YouTuber you know I I consider

[14:20]myself an old guy um no offense to

[14:23]anybody who's older than me I'm like 46

[14:26]now I'll be 47 in two months

[14:30]you know um that's just how I feel at

[14:33]this point in my life I feel like I'm

[14:35]just an old guy who's really going to be

[14:36]interested in me right

[14:39]um probably a pretty select number of

[14:42]people you know and just people are

[14:44]interested in

[14:46]this um this lifestyle and would like to

[14:49]see you know that my thought is you know

[14:51]maybe there are people out there who

[14:53]would like to know what it's like from

[14:55]the beginning cuz I haven't seen that I

[14:57]have been trying to to find videos

[15:00]about people who are afraid to dry ring

[15:03]you know I haven't seen many and

[15:07]and that's a fear I have to get over or

[15:10]get get used to you know I have to

[15:12]become comfortable this is how I

[15:14]describe it I have to become comfortable

[15:16]with the

[15:17]discomfort you know that's

[15:21]what that's the only way I can do this

[15:24]and so that's what led me to YouTube and

[15:27]that's what

[15:30]um made me feel like I could do it too

[15:33]like at that point I felt like okay I

[15:35]can do this I can do

[15:36]it and I want you to see what that's

[15:39]like so I look forward to getting to

[15:41]know you guys thank you bye

Summary

The speaker introduces himself as a 46-year-old programmer who has lost his teeth from drinking Mountain Dew and is preparing for dental implant surgery in two days. He announces his decision to sell all possessions, buy an RV, and begin full-time RV living to visit national and state parks. **Background context**: He attempted this lifestyle 20 years ago with a pop-up camper but abandoned it after a difficult winter experience in New Jersey. He has been isolated in his house since COVID began four years ago and describes being unhappy with his current life situation.

**Current planning phase**: He needs to find a Class C RV to tow his 2023 red Jeep Wrangler, as his Jeep can only tow 2,000 pounds which isn't sufficient for his needs. He has two rescue cats (Bailey and Oliver) who will accompany him. **Professional situation**: As a programmer since childhood, he has sufficient funds to purchase an RV and equipment but must continue working. He expresses fear about driving an RV and towing but is committed to overcoming this discomfort.

**Documentation intent**: He wants to document the entire process from the beginning for YouTube, noting he hasn't seen content showing the initial stages and fears of RV living. He describes himself as an introvert who struggles with being around people and going places.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission establishes foundational vulnerability as structural integrity, declaring a threshold crossing while maintaining complete exposure of systemic damage. The architecture being built is one of radical transparency as sovereignty precondition, where acknowledged limitation becomes the substrate for authentic movement rather than obstacle to overcome.

Dominant Language

from the beginningcomfortable with discomfortI know some of you get itit wasn't mineI have tofearstuff

Symbolic Elements

thresholdexposureabandonmentrescuejourneyhome dissolution

Ontological States

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transitional
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exposed
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sovereign
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integrating

Subsystems

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somatic
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emotional
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infrastructural
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relational

Transmission Details

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local

Video Quality

1080 × 1920 @ 30fps

Duration

15:44

Bitrate

3154 kbps

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